Beflhwh nana, Boraxwh hana

BeflHWH nana, BoraxwH Hana

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TOMO.

“Xoporao”, - MarKO CKaaan 6oraTHH OTop. “Y mhofhx ara,aeH ecTb CBoa pena. Ectb hotomy, hto b hhx (b othx ara,aax) ^HByT CTpax h ^a^- hoctb. CnaHaaa CTpax ocTaTbca 5ea ^eHer MoTHBHpyeT Hac ycep^Ho Tpy,aHTbca, ho oflHa^flH, HoaynHB ^enbrH, mh HoHa^aeM b ceTH ^a^Ho- cth h ^eaaHHa, KoTopHe aacTaBaaraT nac ^yMaTb o Bcex Tex BeaHKo- aeHHHx Be^ax, KoTopHe mo^ho KyHHTb aa ^eHbrH. BosHHKaeT ^HSHen- HHH raa5aoH”.

“KaKoH raa5aoH?” - chpochh a.

“ffla5aoH - BcTaTb, hohth na pa5oTy, oHaaTHTb cneTa, BcTaTb, hoh- TH Ha pa5oTy, oHaaTHTb cneTa. ^h3hh ara,aeH c othm raa^aonoM ho^h3- HeHHo yHpaBaaraTca cTpaxoM h ^a^nocTbra. npe^ao^H hm 5oabrae ^eHer, H ohh Hpo,aoa^aT cboh phkh, aHrab yBeaHHHB pacxo,^H. 3to to, hto a Ha3HBara k^hchhhmh 5eraMH”.

“A ecTb HH ^pyroH HyTb” - chpochh MhHk. “EcTb” - Me^HeHHo cKa^aa 5oraTHH oTep. “Ho onenb HeMHorHe Haxo^aT ero”.

“H hto ^ 3to 3a HyTb?” - chpochh MaHK.

“Tot, kotophH, a Ha^eracb, pe5sTa, bh y^naeTe, ecaH cTaneTe pa- 5oTaTb H yHHTbca y Mena. Bot HoHeMy a ot5pochh BcaKyra oHaaTy”.

“Mo^eT, xoTb HaMeKHerab?” - chpochh MaHK. “Mh HecKoabKo ho- AycTaaH BKaaHBaTb 3a 5ecHaaTHo”.

“Hy, HepBHH raar - oto roBopHTb HpaB^y”.- cKa^aa 5oraTHH oTep. “A MH H He BpeM”, - cKa^aa a. “^ h ne fobophh, hto bh BpeTe. ^ cKa^aa - roBopHTb HpaB^y”.

“HpaB^y o HeM”, - chpochh a. “O tom, hto bh HyBcTByeTe”,- cKa^aa oh. “Bh He ^oa^HH roBopHTb o5 otom KoMy-To e^e. ToabKo ce5e”.

“Bh xoTHTe cKa3aTb, hto ara,aH b otom HapKe, ara,aH, KoTopHe pa- 5oTarar na Bac, mhcchc MapTHH - ohh He ^eaaraT otobo?” - chpochh a.

“^ coMHeBaracb, hto fleaarar”, - cKa^aa 5oraTHH oTep. “BMecTo 3Toro ohh o^y^arar cTpax, hto y hhx He 5y,aeT ^ener. Bm^cto 5opb5H co cTpaxoM ohh Ho,aflaraTca eMy, omophh y hhx HepeBeraHBarar MHraaeHHe. Omophh 3aMenaraT hm Hoab^oBaHHe roaoBoH”, - cKa^aa 5oraTHH oTep, HocTyKHBaa HaM ho roaoBaM. Hra,aH HoayHaraT HecKoabKo 5aKcoB b pyKH, H omophh pa^ocTH, ^eaaHHa h ^a^nocTH 5epyT Bepx na^ pa^yMHHM MHraaeHHeM”.

“To ecTb hx omophh ^opMHpyrar hx nepa^yMHoe MHraaeHHe?” - chpochh MaHK.

“CoBepraeHHo Bepno”, - cKa^aa 5oraTHH oTep. “BMecTo tobo, hto- 5h cKa3aTb ce5e HpaB^y, hto ^e ohh HyBcTByraT Ha c^mom ^eae, ohh ycTyHaraT omophsm h choco5hocth ^yMaTb. Ohh o^y^araT cTpax, ohh H^yT Ha pa5oTy, na^eacb, hto ^enbrH HpHrayraaT hx cTpax, ho HeT. 3tot cTapHH cTpax Hpecae^yeT hx, h ohh chob^ Bo^Bpa^ararca Ha pa5oTy, chob^ Ha^eacb, hto ^enbrH pa^ronaT hx cTpax, h chob^ HHHero He Hpo- hcxo^ht. CTpax ^ep^HT ara,aeH b otom KaHKane pa5oTH, 3apa5aTHBaHHa ^ener; b Ha^e^Ae, hto cTpax HpoH^eT, ara,aH chob^ H^yT pa5oTaTb h



36 Po5epx T. KHOcaKH, 0apoH

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3apa5aTHBaxb ^eHbrH. Ho Ka^^wH ^enb Bcxaror ohh, h BMecxe c hhmh npocHnaeTca CTapnH CTpax. MHaaHOHH aro,aeH otot CTapHHHnH CTpax nacTO ^ep^HT b Hanpa^eHHoM coctokhhh bcw hohb, h hohb o5o- paHHBaeTca BoaHeHHHMH h xaocoM b mhchhx. H aro,aH no,aHHMaroTca, h H^yT Ha pa5oTy, Ha^eacb, hto ^ene^HHH HeK y5beT otot cTpax, Tep3a- w^hH hx ^ymH. fleHbTH ynpaBHaroT hx ^h3hhmh, a aro,aH oTKa3HBaror- ca npH3HaTbca ce5e b otom. fleHbTH KoHTpoaHpyroT hx omophh, ^eaa- hhh, a 3HaHHT, hx ^ymH”.

EoraTHH oTep cH^ea thxo, flaBaa cbohm caoBaM BHHTaTbca b nara pa3yM. MaHK h a caHraaaH, hto oh cKa^aa, ho He HoanocTbra hohhhh, o HeM oh roBopHH. ^ ToabKo 3Haa, hto HacTo MHe 5hho ara5oHHTHo, ho- HeMy B3pocaHe TaK HocHerano oTHpaBaaaHcb Ha pa5oTy. 3to He 5hho oco5eHHo cMerano, ohh HHKor,aa He BHraa^eaH HpH otom cHacTHHBHMH, ho hto-to 3acTaBaaao hx cHeraHTb Ha pa5oTy.

noHKB, HTo MH Bo5paaH cToabKo, cKoabKo cMoraH, H3 cKa3aHHoro hm, 5oraTHH oTep cKa^aa: “^ xoHy, pe5aTa, hto5 bh H35e^aaH otoH aoByraKH. Bot HeMy ^eHcTBHTeabno a xoHy Bac HayHHTb, a He HayHHTb, KaK HpocTo 5HTb 5oraTHM, TaK KaK 5HTb 5oraTHM - ne peraaeT Hpo- 5aeMH”.

“He peraaeT?” - y,aHBaeHHo cHpocHa a.

“HeT, He peraaeT. flaBaHTe pa35epeMca c TeM, hto TaKoe ^eaaHHe. HeKoTopHe Ha3HBaraT ^eaaHHe 3apa5aTHBaTb ^a^HocTbra, a TaK ne ^yMara. CoBepraeHHo HopMaabno ^eaaTb Hero-To ayHraero, 5oaee Kpa- chboto, 5oaee Beceaoro hhh Bo35y^^ara^ero, Ht^k, ara,aH, hto5h y,aoB- aeTBopaTb cboh ^eaaHHa, H^yT 3apa5aTHBaTb ^enbTH. Ohh ^eaaraT HMeTb ^eHbTH pa^H toH pa^ocTH, KoTopyra na hhx mo^ho KyHHTb. Ho pa^ocTb, HpHHocHMaa ^eHbraMH, HacTo Maaa, h ara,aaM ny^no e^e 5oabrae ^eHer 5oabraeH pa^ocTH, 5oabraHx y,aoBoabcTBHH, 5oabraero KoM^opTa, 5oabraeH 5e3oHacnocTH. H ara,aH pa5oTaraT h pa5oTaraT, cHHTaa, hto ^eHbTH ycHoKosT hx AyMH, Tep3aeMHe H pa3pHBaeMHe cTpaxoM h ^eaaHHeM. Ho ^enbTH ne MoryT c^eaaTb ototo”.

“fla^e y 5oraTHx ara,aeH?” - cHpocHa MaHK. “BKaraHaa 5oraTHx ara,aeH”, - cKa^aa 5oraTHH oTep. “Ha caMoM ^eae, hphhhh^, HoHeMy 5oraTHe 5oraTH ne b ^eaaHHH, a b cTpaxe. EoraTHe ^eHcTBHTeabno ^yMaraT, hto ^enbTH MoryT cTepeTb cTpax HeHMeHHa ^ener, cTpax 5HTb 5e^HHM, ohh HaKaHHHBaraT tohhh ^ener, ho ToabKo flaa toto, hto5h o5napy^HTb, hto cTpax ycHHHBaeTca. EoraTHe 5oaTca HoTepaTb Bce. V Mena ecTb ^py3ba, KoTopHe Hpo^oa^araT pa5oTaTb, xotk ^ener y hhx KypH He KararaT. ^ 3Hara ara,aeH, y kotophx MHaaHoHH, h KoTopHe ceHHac 5oaTca 5oabrae, HeM Tor,aa, Kor,aa 5hhh 5e^HH. Hm cTparano HoTepaTb Bce cboh ^eHbTH. CTpaxH, HpHBe^raHe hx k 5oraTcTBy, aHrab ycHHHaHcb. Caa5aa, Hy^^ara^aaca HacTb hx ^yraH TeHepb bohht e^e rpoMHe. Ohh He xotkt TepaTb cboh 5oabraHe ^oMa, MaraHHH, cocToaTeabHyra ^H3Hb, T.e. to, hto HpHHecaH hm ^enbTH. Hx 5ecHoKoHT, a hto cKa^yT hx ^py3ba, ecaH ohh HoTeparaT Bce cboh ^enbTH. MnorHe h3 5oraTHx Haxo^aTca Ha