"Of course. But I love many things. I love to sit here with you. I love to share
the beauty of this place with someone I care about. I love to watch the osprey
swoop toward the creek and find its dinner."
She is quiet for a moment. She looks away so I can't see her face. It has been her
habit for years.
"Why are you doing this?" No fear, just curiosity. This is good. I know what she
Means, but I ask anyway.
"What?"
"Why are you spending the day with me?" I smile.
"I'm here because this is where I'm supposed to be. It's not complicated. Both you
and I are enjoying ourselves. Don't dismiss my time with you‐‐it's not wasted. It's
what I want. I sit here and we talk and I think to myself, What could be better than
what I am doing now?"
She looks me in the eyes, and for a moment, just a moment, her eyes twinkle.
A slight smile forms on her lips.
"I like being with you, but if getting me intrigued is what you're after, you've
succeeded. I admit I enjoy your company, but I know nothing about you. I don't
expect you to tell me your life story, but why are you so mysterious?"
"I read once that women love mysterious strangers."
"See, you haven't really answered the question. You haven't answered most of my
questions. You didn't even tell me how the story ended this morning."
I shrug. We sit quietly for a while. Finally I ask: "Is it true?" "Is what true?"
"That women love mysterious strangers ?"
She thinks about this and laughs. Then she answers as I would:
"I think some women do."
"Do you?"
"Now don't go putting me on the spot. I don't know you well enough for that." She
is teasing me, and I enjoy it.
We sit silently and watch the world around us. This has taken us a lifetime to learn.
It seems only the old are able to sit next to one another and not say anything and
still feel content. The young, brash and impatient, must always break the silence.
It is a waste, for silence is pure. Silence is holy. It draws people together because
only those who are comfortable with each other can sit without speaking. This is
the great paradox.
Time passes, and gradually our breathing begins to coincide just as it did this
morning.
Deep breaths, relaxed breaths, and there is a moment when she dozes off, like
those comfortable with one another often do. I wonder if the young are capable of
enjoying this. Finally, when she wakes, a miracle.
"Do you see that bird?" She points to it, and I strain my eyes. It is a wonder I
can see it, but I can because the sun is bright. I point, too.
"Caspian stern," I say softly, and we devote our attention to it and stare as it
glides over Brices Creek. And, like an old habit rediscovered, when I lower my arm,
I put my hand on her knee and she doesn't make me move it.
She is right about my evasiveness. On days like these, when only her memory is
gone, I am vague in my answers because I've hurt my wife unintentionally with
careless slips of my tongue many times these past few years, and I am determined
not to let it happen again. So I limit myself and answer only what is asked,
sometimes not too well, and I volunteer nothing.
This is a split decision, both good and bad, but necessary, for with knowledge comes
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