another,and I am a better man because of it. I don't want you to ever forget that.
I am not bitter because of what has happened. On the contrary. I am secure in
knowing that what we had was real, and I am happy we were able to come together
for even a short period of time. And if, in some distant place in the future, we see
each other in our new lives, I will smile at you with joy, and remember how we spent
a summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. And
maybe, for a brief moment, you'll feel it too, and you'll smile back, and savor the
memories we will always share together. I love you, Allie.
Noah
She read the letter again, more slowly this time, then read it a third time before
she put it back into the envelope. Once more, she imagined him writing it, and for
a moment she debated reading another, but she knew she couldn't delay any
longer.
Lon was waiting for her. Her legs felt weak as she stepped out of the car. She
paused and took a deep breath, and as she started across the parking lot, she
realized she still wasn't sure what she was going to say to him.
And the answer didn't finally come until she reached the door and opened it and
saw Lon standing in the lobby.
The story ends there, so I close the notebook, remove my glasses, and wipe my eyes.
They are tired and bloodshot, but they have not failed me so far. They will soon,
I am sure. Neither they nor I can go on forever. I look to her now that I have finished,
but she does not look back. Instead she is staring out the window at the courtyard,
where friends and family meet.
My eyes follow hers, and we watch it together. In all these years the daily pattern
has not changed. Every morning, an hour after breakfast, they begin to arrive.
Young adults, alone or with family, come to visit those who live here. They bring
photographs and gifts and either sit on the benches or stroll along the tree‐lined
paths designed to give a sense of nature. Some will stay for the day, but most leave
after a few hours, and when they do, I always feel sadness for those they've left
behind.
I wonder sometimes what my friends think as they see their loved ones driving off,
but I know it's not my business. And I do not ever ask them because I've learned
that we're all entitled to have our secrets. But soon, I will tell you some of mine.
I place the notebook and magnifier on the table beside me, feeling the ache in my
bones as I do so, and I realize once again how cold my body is. Even reading in the
morning sun does nothing to help it. This does not surprise me anymore, though,
for my body makes its own rules these days.
I'm not completely unfortunate, however. The people who work here know me and
my faults and do their best to make me more comfortable. They have left me hot
tea on the end table, and I reach for it with both hands. It is an effort to pour a cup,
but I do so because the tea is needed to warm me and I think the exertion will keep
me from completely rusting away. But I am rusted now, no doubt about it. Rusted
as a junked car twenty years in the Everglades.
I have read to her this morning, as I do every morning, because it is something I
must do. Not for duty‐‐although I suppose a case could be made for this‐‐but for
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