talk
like this. Like her father, he wasn't comfortable sharing his thoughts and feelings.
She'd tried to explain that she needed to be closer to him, but it had never seemed
to make a difference.
But sitting here now, she realized what she'd been missing. The sky grew darker and
the moon rose higher as the evening wore on. And without either of them being
conscious of it, they began to regain the intimacy, the bond of familiarity, they had
once shared.
They finished dinner, both pleased with the meal, neither talking much now. Noah
looked at his watch and saw that it was getting late. The stars were out in full,
the crickets a little quieter. He had enjoyed talking to Allie and wondered if he'd
talked too much, wondered what she'd thought about his life, hoping it would
somehow make a difference, if it could.
Noah got up and refilled the teapot. They both brought the dishes to the sink and
cleaned up the table, and he poured two more cups of hot water, adding teabags to
both.
"How about the porch again?" he asked, handing her the cup, and she agreed,
leading the way. He grabbed a quilt for her in case she got cold, and soon they had
taken their places again, the quilt over her legs, rockers moving. Noah watched her
from the corner of his eye. God, she's beautiful, he thought. And inside, he ached.
For something had happened during dinner. Quite simply, he had fallen in love
again. He knew that now as they sat next to one another.
Fallen in love with a new Allie, not just her memory. But then, he had never really
stopped, and this, he realized, was his destiny.
"It's been quite a night," he said, his voice softer now.
"Yes, it has," she said, "a wonderful night." Noah turned to the stars, their twinkling
lights reminding him that she would be leaving soon, and he felt almost empty
inside. This was a night he wanted never to end. How should he tell her? What could
he say that would make her stay?
He didn't know. And thus the decision was made to say nothing. And he realized
then that he had failed.
The rockers moved in quiet rhythm. Bats again, over the river. Moths kissing the
porch light. Somewhere, he knew, there were people making love.
"Talk to me," she finally said, her voice sensual. Or was his mind playing tricks?
"What should I say?"
"Talk like you did to me under the oak tree." And he did, reciting distant passages,
toasting the night. Whitman and Thomas, because he loved the images. Tennyson
and Browning, because their themes felt so familiar. She rested her head against the
back of the rocker, closing her eyes, growing just a bit warmer by the time he'd
finished. It wasn't just the poems or his voice that did it. It was all of it, the whole
greater than the sum of the parts. She didn't try to break it down, didn't want to,
because it wasn't meant to be listened to that way. Poetry, she thought, wasn't
written to be analyzed; it was meant to inspire without reason, to touch without
understanding.
Because of him, she'd gone to a few poetry readings offered by the English
department while in college. She'd sat and listened to different people, different
poems, but had stopped soon after, discouraged that no one inspired her or seemed
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