He wondered if that was all but didn't question further. Instead he changed the
subject.
"By the way, I've been meaning to ask, do you still paint?"
She shook her head. "Not anymore."
He was stunned. "Why not? You have so much talent."
"I don't know "
"Sure you do. You stopped for a reason."He was right. She'd had a reason."It's a
long story."
"I've got all night," he answered.
"Did you really think I was talented?" she asked quietly.
"C'mon," he said, reaching for her hand, "I want to show you something."
She got up and followed him through the door to the living room. He stopped in
front of the fireplace and pointed to the painting that hung above the mantel. She
gasped, surprised she hadn't noticed it earlier, more surprised it was here at all.
"You kept it?"
"Of course I kept it. It's wonderful."
She gave him a skeptical look, and he explained.
"It makes me feel alive when I look at it. Sometimes I have to get up and touch it.
It's just so real‐‐the shapes, the shadows, the colors. I even dream about it
sometimes. It's incredible, Allie‐‐I can stare at it for hours."
"You're serious," she said, shocked. "As serious as I've ever been." She didn't say
anything.
"You mean to tell me no one has ever told you that before?"
"My professor did," she finally said, "but I guess I didn't believe him."
He knew there was more. Allie looked away before continuing.
"I've been drawing and painting since I was a child. I guess that once I got a little
older, I began to think I was good at it. I enjoyed it, too. I remember working on
this painting that summer, adding to it every day, changing it as our relationship
changed. I don't even remember how it started or what I wanted it to be, but
somehow it evolved into this.
"I remember being unable to stop painting after I went home that summer. I think
it was my way of avoiding the pain I was going through. Anyway, I ended up
majoring in art in college because it was something I had to do; I remember
spending hours in the studio all by myself and enjoying every minute. I loved the
freedom I felt when I created, the way it made me feel inside to make something
beautiful. Just before I graduated, my professor, who happened to also be the critic
for the paper, told me I had a lot of talent. He told me I should try my luck as an
artist. But I didn't listen to him."
She stopped there, gathering her thoughts. "My parents didn't think it was proper
for someone like me to paint for a living. I just stopped after a while. I haven't
touched a brush in years."
She stared at the painting.
"Do you think you'll ever paint again?"
"I'm not sure if I can anymore. It's been a long time."
"You can still do it, Allie. I know you can. You have a talent that comes from inside
you, from your heart, not from your fingers. What you have can't ever go away. It's
what other people only dream about. You're an artist, Allie."
The words were spoken with such sincerity that she knew he wasn't saying it just
to be nice. He truly believed in her ability, and for some reason that meant more
to her than she expected. But something else happened then, something even more
powerful.
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