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CHAPTER 7 – ERGENEKON 
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sensitivity; and in their minds, the affable dignity of a judge who is in 
deep thought.
The donkey then becomes the creature with which Ahmet Celal has the closest 
attachment
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Is the Turkish intellectual class really the “cream” of this society? If this 
were so, wouldn’t there have to be something of these Salih Ağas, Bekir 
Chavushes, these Ismails, these Zeynep Kadıns in me? Yet, here I am 
closer to the animals than the people. I know how to love them 
affectionately, without disgust, and this love of mine can pass on to 
them. The grey donkey has become very attached to me, for when I take 
his head under my arm and pet him for hours, he looks at me agreeably; 
and sometimes, when I walk, he follows along behind me. 
Eventually Ahmet Celal decides to have a donkey of his own and the way he thinks 
of it parallels his feelings for Emine, the young village girl with whom he fell in 
love
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There I will take care of a little donkey. He will be a companion for me. 
While I doze in my room upstairs, he will keep me company by pattering 
around in his room downstairs. From time to time, right when I am 
plunged into painful thoughts, as though he perceives my pain, he will 
call out with his most sorrowful, most doleful cries. Then I will go 
leisurely down the steps and slowly walk up to him. I will put my arm 
around his shiny, hairy neck and look into his deep black eyes. I will 
converse with it intimately, at great length.
I will never have him carry a load. I’ll never throw a saddle on his back. 
I’ll have a man take care of him every day, because this is a scared 
animal. In all the books that have descended from heaven, his name is 
found; and his countenance is a thousand times more charming than little 
Ismail’s face.
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Karaosmanoğlu 2006, 67-68, Jacobson, 74-75 
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Karaosmanoğlu 2006, 94, Jacobson 111-112 

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