hours.
I did not read to anyone this evening; I could not, for poetic introspection would
bring me to tears. In time, the hallways become quiet except for the footfalls of
evening soldiers. At eleven o'clock I hear the familiar sounds that for some reason
I expected. The footsteps I know so well.
Dr. Barnwell peeks in.
"I noticed your light was on. Do you mind if I come in?"
"No," I say, shaking my head.
He comes in and looks around the room before taking a seat a few feet from me.
"I hear," he says, "you had a good day with Allie." He smiles. He is intrigued by
us and the relationship we have. I do not know if his interest is entirely professional.
"I suppose so."
He cocks his head at my answer and looks at me.
"You okay, Noah? You look a little down."
"I'm fine. Just a little tired.”
"How was Allie today?"
"She was okay. We talked for almost four hours."
"Four hours? Noah, that's.., incredible."
I can only nod. He goes on, shaking his head. "I've never seen anything like it,
or even heard about it. I guess that's what love is all about. You two were meant
for each other. She must love you very much. You know that, don't you?"
"I know," I say, but I can't say anything more. "What's really bothering you, Noah?
Did Allie say or do something that hurt your feelings?''
"No. She was wonderful, actually. It's just that right now I feel.., alone."
"Alone?"
"Nobody's alone."
"I'm alone," I say as I look at my watch and think of his family sleeping in a quiet
house, the place he should be, "and so are you."
The next few days passed without significance. Allie was unable to recognize me at
any time, and I admit my attention waned now and then, for most of my thoughts
were of the day we had just spent. Though the end always comes too soon, there
was nothing lost that day, only gained, and I was happy to have received this
blessing once again.
By the following week, my life had pretty much returned to normal. Or at least as
normal as my life can be. Reading to Allie, reading to others, wandering the halls.
Lying awake at night and sitting by my heater in the morning. I find a strange
comfort in the predictability of my life.
On a cool, foggy morning eight days after she and I had spent our day together, I
woke early, as is my custom, and puttered around my desk, alternately looking at
photographs and reading letters written many years before. At least I tried to. I
couldn't concentrate too well because I had a headache, so I put them aside and
went to sit in my chair by the window to watch the sun come up. Allie would be
awake in a couple of hours, I knew, and I wanted to be refreshed, for reading all day
would only make my head hurt more.
I closed my eyes for a few minutes while my head alternately pounded and
subsided.
Then, opening them, I watched my old friend, the creek, roll by my window. Unlike
Allie, I had been given a room where I could see it, and it has never failed to inspire
me. It is a contradiction‐‐this creek‐‐a hundred thousand years old but renewed with
each rainfall.
I talked to it that morning, whispered so it could hear,
"You are blessed, my friend, and I am blessed, and together we meet the coming
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