“Tuesdays with Morrie” By Mitch Albom
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“That’s what everybody tells me,” Morrie said. “You sound fine.”
“That’s what everybody tells me.”
“So how do you know things are going downhill?”
Morrie sighed.. “Nobody can know it but me, Ted. But I know it.”
And as he spoke, it became obvious. He was not waving his
hands to make a point as
freely as he had in their first conversation. He had trouble pronouncing certain words—
the l sound seemed to get caught in his throat. In a few more months, he might no
longer speak at all.
“Here’s how my emotions go,” Morrie told Koppel. “When I have people and friends
here, I’m very up. The loving relationships maintain me.
“But there are days when I am depressed. Let me not deceive you.
I see certain things
going and I feel a sense of dread. What am I going to do without my hands? What
happens when I can’t speak? Swallowing, I don’t care so much about—so they feed me
through a tube, so what? But my voice? My hands? They’re such an essential part of
me. I talk with my voice. I gesture with my hands. This is how I give to people.”
“How will you give when you can no longer speak?” Koppel asked.
Morrie shrugged. “Maybe I’ll have everyone ask me yes or no questions.”
It was such a simple answer that Koppel had to smile. He asked Morrie about silence.
He mentioned a dear friend Morrie had,
Maurie Stein, who had first sent Morrie’s
aphorisms to the Boston Globe. They had been together at Brandeis since the early
sixties. Now Stein was going deaf. Koppel imagined the two men together one day, one
unable to speak, the other unable to hear. What would that be like?
“We will hold hands,” Morrie said. “And there’ll be a lot of love passing between us.
Ted, we’ve had thirty-five years of friendship. You don’t need
speech or hearing to feel
that.”
Before the show ended, Morrie read Koppel one of the letters he’d received. Since the
first “Nightline” program, there had been a great deal of mail. One particular letter came
from a schoolteacher in Pennsylvania who taught a special class of nine children; every
child in the class had suffered the death of a parent.
“Here’s
what I sent her back,” Morrie told Koppel, perching his glasses gingerly on his
nose and ears. “‘Dear Barbara … I was very moved by your letter. I feel the work you
have done with the children who have lost a parent is very important. I also lost a parent
at an early age …’”
Suddenly, with
the cameras still humming, Morrie adjusted the glasses. He stopped,
bit his lip, and began to choke up. Tears fell down his nose. “‘I lost my mother when I
was a child … and it was quite a blow to me … I wish I’d had a group like yours where I
would have been able to talk about my sorrows. I would have joined your group because
… “
His voice cracked.
“… because I was so lonely … “
“Morrie,” Koppel said, “that was seventy years ago your mother died.
The pain still
goes on?”
“You bet,” Morrie whispered.
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