stolen cars… cigarettes and booze… contraband like fireworks… He's
been lucky for a long time, Dennis.
He looked at Leigh's face, too pale, her makeup cut open by her tears. She
was hanging on, hanging onto Arnie as best she could. Maybe she was
learning something about being tough that she wouldn't have learned
otherwise, with her looks, for another ten years. But that didn't make it any
easier, and it didn't necessarily make it right. It occurred to him suddenly,
almost randomly, that he had first noticed the improvement in Arnie's face
more than a month before Arnie and Leigh clicked… but after Arnie and
Christine had clicked.
"I'll talk to him," he promised.
"Good," she said. She stood up. "I—I don't want things to be like they were
before, Dennis. I know that nothing ever is. But I still love him, and… and I
just wish you'd tell him that."
"Yeah, okay."
They were both embarrassed, and neither of them could say anything for a
long, long moment. Dennis was thinking that this would be the point, in a c &
w song, where the Best Friend steps in. And a sneaking, mean (and randy)
part of him wouldn't be averse to that. Not at all. He was still powerfully
attracted to her, more attracted than he had been to any girl in a long time.
Maybe ever. Let Arnie run bottle-rockets and cherry-bombs over to
Burlington and fuck around with his car. He and Leigh could get to know
each other better in the meantime. A little aid and comfort. You know how it
is.
And he had a feeling at just that awkward moment, after her profession of
love for Arnie, that he could do it; she was vulnerable. She was maybe
learning how to be tough, but it's not a school anyone goes to willingly. He
could say something—the right something, maybe only
Come here
—and she
would come, sit on the edge of the bed, they would talk some more, maybe
about pleasanter things, and maybe he would kiss her. Her mouth was lovely
and full, sensual, made to kiss and be kissed. Once for comfort. Twice out of
friendship. And three times pays for all. Yes, he felt with an instinct that had
so far been quite reliable that it could be done.
But he didn't say any of the things that could have started those things
happening, and neither did Leigh. Arnie was between them, and almost surely
always would be. Arnie and his lady. If it hadn't been so ludicrously ghastly,
he could have laughed.
"When are they letting you out?" she asked.
"On an unsuspecting public?" he asked, and began to giggle. After a moment
she joined him in his laughter "Yes, something like that," Leigh said, and then
snickered again. "Sorry."
"Don't be," Dennis said. "People have been laughing at me all my life. I'm
used to it. They say I'm stuck here until January, but I'm going to fool them.
I'm going home for Christmas. I'm working my buns off down in the torture
chamber."
"Torture chamber?"
"Physical therapy. My back's looking good. The other bones are knitting
busily—the itch is terrible sometimes. I'm gobbling rosehips by the bushel
basket. Dr Arroway says that's nothing but a folk-tale, but Coach Puffer
swears by them, and he checks the bottle every time he comes to visit."
"Does he come often? The Coach?"
"Yeah, he does. Now he's got me half-believing that stuff about rosehips
making your broken bones knit faster." Dennis paused. "Of course, I'm not
going to be playing any more football, not ever. I'm going to be on crutches
for a while, and then, with luck, I'll graduate to a cane. Cheerful old Dr
Arroway tells me I'm going to limp for maybe a couple of years. Or maybe
I'll always limp."
"I'm so sorry," she said in a low voice. "I'm sorry it had to happen to a nice
guy like you, Dennis, but part of it's selfish. I just wonder if all the rest of
this, all this horrible stuff with Arnie, if it would have happened if you'd
been up and around."
"That's right," Dennis said, rolling his eyes dramatically, "blame it on me."
But she didn't smile. "I've started to worry about his sanity, did you know
that? That's the one thing I haven't told my folks or his folks. But I think his
mother that she might I don't know what he said to her that night, after we
found the car all smashed up, but I think they must have really put their claws
into each other."
Dennis nodded.
"But it's all so… so mad! His parents offered to buy him a good used car to
replace Christine, and he said no. Then Mr Cunningham told me on the ride
home that he offered to buy Arnie a new car… to cash in some bonds he's
held ever since 1955. Arnie said no, he couldn't just take a present like that.
And Mr Cunningham said he could understand that, and it didn't have to be a
present, that Arnie could pay him back, that he'd even take interest if that was
what Arnie wanted Dennis, do you see what I'm saying?"
"Yeah," Dennis said. "It can't be just any car. It's got to be
that
car.
Christine."
"But to me that seems obsessive. He's found one object and fixed on it. Isn't
that what an obsession is? I'm scared, and sometimes I feel hateful… but it's
not him I'm scared of. It's not him I hate. It's that frig—no, it's that
fucking
car. That bitch Christine."
High color bloomed in her cheeks. Her eyes narrowed. The corners of her
mouth turned down. Her face was suddenly no longer beautiful, not even
pretty; the light on it was pitiless, changing it into something that was ugly but
all the same striking, compelling. Dennis realized for the first time why they
called it the monster, the green-eyed monster.
I'll tell you what I wish would happen," Leigh said. "I wish somebody would
take his precious fucking Christine out back some night by mistake, out where
they put the junks from Philly Plains." Her eyes sparkled venomously. "And
the next day I wish that crane with the big round magnet would come and pick
it up and put it in the crusher and I wish someone would push the button and
what would come out would be a little cube of metal about three by three by
three. Then this would be over, wouldn't it?"
Dennis didn't answer, and after a moment he could almost see the monster
turn around and wrap its scaly tail around itself and steal out of her face. Her
shoulders sagged.
"Guess that sounds pretty horrible, doesn't it? Like saying I wish those hoods
had finished the job."
"I understand how you feel."
"Do you?" she challenged.
Dennis thought of Arnie's look as he had pounded his fists on the dashboard.
The kind of maniacal light that came into his eyes when he was around her.
He thought of sitting behind the wheel in LeBay's garage, and the kind of
vision that had come over him.
Last of all, he thought of his dream: headlights bearing down on him in the
high woman-scream of burning rubber.
"Yes," he said. "I think I do."
They looked at each other in the hospital room.
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