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Po5epx T. KHOcaKH, 0apoH


TJIABA IX


KAK HAHATK


K co^aaeHHro, a He CKaaaa, hto npHo5pexeHHe 5oraxcTBa 5hho Mena aerKHM ^eaoM.

B oTBeT Ha Bonpoc: “KaK MHe HanaTb?” - a npe^aararo mhchh- TeabHHH npopecc, nepea kotophh a npoxo^y ^eHb 3a ^HeM. flencTBH- TeabHo, aerKo HaHTH KpynHHe c^eaKH. 05e^aro BaM oto. 3to HanoMH- HaeT KaTaHHe na BeaocHne^e. Hocae He5oabraoro BHaaHHa h3 ctopohh b cTopony cae^yeT cnaoraHoe y^oBoabcTBHe. Kor,aa aoxo^ht ^o ^eHer, bh ^oa^HH nposBHTb peraHTeabHocTb h npeo^oaeTb BHaaHHe b ^HHancoBHx Bonpocax.

Haxo^^eHHe c^eaoK BceH ^h3hh na MHaaHoHH ^oaaapoB Tpe5yeT, hto5h mh pacToaKaaH cboh ^HHancoBHH reHHH. ^ Bepra, hto ^HHanco- BHH reHHH ecTb B Ka^^oM H3 Hac. npo5aeMa b tom, hto oh ae^HT ^a chht, o^H^aa, Kor,aa ^e ero npH3oByT. Chht nara ^HHancoBHH reHHH, noToMy hto mh bochhthhh BepHTb B to, 5y,aTo ara5oBb k ^enbraM - KopeHb Bcex 3oa. Haraa BHyTpeHHaa KyabTypa B^oxHoBaaeT Hac H3yHaTb Hpo^eccHra, Hocae Hero mh mo^^m pa5oTaTb na ^eHbrH, ho toh ^e BHyTpeHHeH KyabType He ^aHo HayHHTb Hac, KaK 3acTaBHTb ^enbTH pa5oTaTb Ha ce5a. Hac ne yHHHH 5ecHoKoHTbca o cBoeM ^HHancoBoM 5y,ay^eM, nac yHHHH h yHaT, hto naraa KoMHaHHa h HpaBHTeabcTBo ho- 3a5oT3Tca o Hac, Kor,aa 3aKoHHaTca naraH pa5oHHe ahh. TaK hhh HHaHe, a HMeHHo HaraHM ^eTKM, HoayHHBraHM H HoayHara^HM o5pa3oBaHHe b toh ^e caMoH raKoabHoH cHcTeMe, Hpe^cToHT pacHaaHHBaTbca 3a oto, ecaH ohh c 3THM He hokohh^t. HoKa ^e nac yHaT ycep^Ho Tpy,aHTbca, 3apa5aTHBaTb ^enbTH h TpaTHTb hx, a Kor,aa ^eHer ne xBaTaeT, 5paTb B3aHMH.

K HecHacTbra, 90 % SaHa^Horo MHpa coraaraaeTca c t^khm hoho- ^eHHeM, HpocTo HoToMy, hto aerHe HaHTH pa5oTy h pa5oTaTb na ^eHbrH. Echh bh He o^HH H3 tohhh, k Hpe^aarara BaM cae^yra^He 10 raaroB, hto5h pa35y,aHTb cboH ^HHancoBHH reHHH. ^ Hpe^aarara BaM raarH, KoTopHM a hhhho cae^oBaa. Echh bh xoTHTe HoBTopHTb moH ohht - othhhho. Echh HeT, ^eaaHTe to, hto cHHTaeTe ny^HHM. Bara ^HHanco- BHH pa3yM ^ocTaToHHo KpeHoK, HTo5h HaMeTHTb co5cTBeHHHH HaaH ^eHcTBHH.

Ey,ayHH B Hepy, pa^roBapHBaa c ^ohotoao^hthhkom 45-th aeT, a cHpocHH ero, HoHeMy oh TaK yBepen, hto oth^^t 3oaoTyra ^Hay. 0h oTBeTHa: “3ohoto ecTb Be3^e, ho 5oabraHHcTBo ara,aeH ne o5yHeHH, KaK ero o5napy^HBaTb”.

^ 5h cKa3aa, hto TaK oho h ecTb. Hto KacaeTca He^BH^HMocTH, a Mory hoHth ^a 3a ^eHb HaHTH 4-5 KpyHHHx HoTenpHaabHHx c^eaKH, b



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TO DpoMfl KOK cpoAnocTaTncTH^ocKnn rpa^K^annn hoh^ot h nn^oro no HaH^eT. flaKe ecan mh o6a 6y,aeM HCKaTb c^eaKH d o,anoM panoHe. npHHHHa, HoneMy cpe^HecTaTHcTHHecKHH rpaK^aHHH HHnero He naxo- ^HT D TOM, HTO OH He cmot pa36y,aHTb cDoero ^HHancoDoro reHHa.

^ HpeAaararo DaM cHe^yro^He 10 raaroD, KaK Hpo^ecc pa3DHTHa DaraHx EoroM ^aHHHx chh. Chh, na^ kotophmh HHrab dh HMeeTe koh-

TpOHb.

1. Mne HyKHa npHHHHa, hto6h HO^HaTbca Ha^ ^eHcTDHTeabHoc- Tbra, MHe HyKHa cHaa ^yxa. Echh dh cHpocHTe 5oabraHHcTDO ara,aeH, He xoTeaH 5h ohh 5ht^ 5oraTHMH h ^HHancoDO cdo5o^hhmh, ohh 5h OTDeTHHH “^a”. Ho DOT Ha apeny DHcTyHaeT ^eHcTDHTeabHocTb. flopora K ycHexy KaKeTca caHraKOM ^hhhhoH, co MHOKecTDOM HpeHSTcTDHH, KOTopHe cae^yeT Hpeo^oaeDaTb. HerHe HpocTO pa5oTaTb Ha ^eHbrH, Hepe^aDaH H3HHraeK ^eHer cDoeMy 5poKepy.

O^HaK^H a DcTpeTHH Moao^yra Ken^HHy, KOTopaa MeHTaaa Haa- DaTb 3a AMepHKancKyra oaHMHHHcKyra c5opnyra. fleHcTDHTeabHocTb 5Haa TaKODa, hto eH HpHxo^Haocb HO^HHMaTbca d 4 yTpa KaK^HH ^eHb, HaaDaTb ho 3 Haca Hepe^ TeM, KaK h^th d raKoay. Ona He xo,aHaa c ^py3baMH Ha DeHepHHKH HO cy55oTaM. EH HpHxo,aHaocb 3aHHMaTbca d raKoae HapaDHe co DceMH.

Kor,aa a cHpocHa ee, OTKy,aa D3aaHcb y Hee cDepxHeaoDeHecKHe chhh H caMOHOKepTDODaHHe, OHa HpocTO cKa3aaa: “^ ^eaara oto Ana ce5a h ara,aeH, KOTopHx ara5ara. Hra5oDb HOMoraeT MHe Hpeo^oaeDaTb HpeHSTcTDHa H KepTDODaTb co5oH”.

npHHHHa HHH peHb - 3TO coHeTaHHe “xoHy H “ne xoHy”. Kor,aa ara,aH cHparaHDaraT Mena. hto y Mena 3a HpHHHHa KeaaHHa 5HTb 5oraTHM, a ^ara hm HOHSTb, hto Dce ^eao d coHeTaHHH na ray5oKOM OMopHOHaabHOM ypoDHe “xoHy” h “ne xoHy”. Pa3ODbra cdom MHcab. Ha HepDOM MecTe “ne xoHy”, T.K. OHH co3^araT “xoHy”. ^ He xoHy pa5oTaTb Dcra cdom KH3Hb. ^ He xoHy Toro, k HeMy Mena ToaKarar po^HTeaH, TOHHee ToaKaaH - Ha^eKHoH pa5oTH H ^OMa d Hpe^MecTbe. ^ ne xoHy 5HTb pa5oTHHKOM. ^ HenaDH^ea, HTO moH OTep Dcer,aa HpoHycKaa moh ^yT^oabHHe HrpH, HOTOMy hto 5hh TaK 3aH3T cDoeH KapbepoH. ^ HenaDH^ea to, hto moH OTep dcm KH3Hb cTOHbKO pa5oTaa. A HpaDHTeabcTDO ^o caMoH cMepTH OT^Hpaao 5oabrayra HacTb 3apa5oTaHHoro hm. Hocae cDoeH cMepTH OTep ne cmot HHHero HaM ocTaDHTb. EoraTHe TaK ne ^eaaraT. Ohh mhoto ocTaDaaraT cdohm ^eTSM.

TeHepb o “xoHy”. ^ xoHy 5HTb cdo5o^hhm, e3^HTb ho MHpy h KHTb TaK, KaK MHe npaDHTbca. ^ xoHy Dcero ototo 5y,ayHH Moao,aHM. ^ xoHy HH OT Hero He 3aDHceTb. ^ xoHy, hto5h ^enbTH pa5oTaaH Ha Mena.

Bot moh ray5oKHe DHyTpeHHHe OMopHonaabHHe h^hhhhh. A KaKHe DaraH? Echh DaraH h^hhhhh He^ocTaTOHHO cHabHH, Tor,aa ^opora, koto- poH Ha^o 5y,aeT hpoHth, HepeDecHT DaraH h^hhhhh. ^ Tepaa ^enbTH h cTaaKHDaaca c HpeHSTcTDHaMH MHOKecTDO pa3, ho ray5oKHe omopho-



136 Po5epx T. KHOcaKH, 0apoH

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HaabHHe hphhhhh noMoraaH MHe ycxoaxb. M h^th Bnepe^. A xoxea cxaxb CBo5o^HHM K 40 ro,aaM, ho ^o^HHca CBoero k 47, MHoroMy HayHHBmHCb 3a Horae^raee BpeMa.

KaK a y^e tobophh, moh HyTb k CBo5o^e 5hh HeaerKHM. Ho h He 5hh TH^eaHM. A 5e3 CHHbHoH h^hhhhh hhh 5oabraoH peHH Bce b ^h3- HH ^aeTca Ta^eao.

EcHH BH He HMeeTe CHHbHoH HpHHHHH, HeT CMHCaa HHTaTb ^aab- rae. To, o HeM hoH^^t peHb, Mo^eT 5HTb bochphhhto b^mh, KaK h^ho- CHHbHaa pa5oTa.

2. BM^Hparo e^eflHeBHO, peHb H^eT o CBo5o^e BH5opa, o bo3- mo^hocth BH5opa. 3to - raaBHaa HpHHHHa, HoHeMy aro,aH xotst ^HTb B cbo5oahoH CTpane. Mh ^eaaeM HMeTb bo^mo^hoct^ h cBo5o^y BH5opa.

B ^hh^hcobom oTHoraeHHH c Ka^^HM ^oaaapoM, HoHa^aroroHM b HaraH pyKH, mh HMeeT bo3mo^hoct^ BH5paTb cBoe 5y,ayroee. H 5HTb 5oraTHMH, 5e^HHMH HHH cpe^HHM KaaccoM. To, KaK MH pacHopa^aeMca ^eHbraMH, naraH h^hbhhkh pacxo^oBaHHa ^ener HoKa3HBaroT, kto mh Ha caMoM ^eae. Be^HHe aro,aH pacxo^yroT ^enbTH TaK, KaK oto cboH- CTBeHHo ^eaaTb 5e^HHM aro,aaM.

Ey,ayHH MaabHHraKoH, a aro^Ha hoctoshho HrpaTb b “MonoHoaHro”, hto HpHHecao MHe 3aMeTHyro Hoab3y. Hhkto He tobophh MHe, hto Hrpa HpeAHa3HaHaaacb ToabKo ^eTeH, h a Hrpaa b Hee, KaK B3pocaHH. H y Mena TaK^e 5hh 5oraTHH oTep, kotophH yKa3HBaa MHe pa3HHpy Me^^y “aKTHBoM” H “HaccHBoM”. Ho cyTH ^eaa, ^aBHHM-^aBHo, 5y,ayHH MaaeHbKHM MaabHHKoM, a c^eaaa cboH bh5op, peraHB CTaTb 5oraTHM, h a 3Haa, hto Bce, hto MHe ny^no 5hho ^eaaTb, oto nayHHTbca, KaK HpHo5peTaTb aKTHBH, HacToaroHe ^kthbh. MoH ayHraHH ^pyr MaHK HMea rpa^y “aKTHB”, KoTopaa eMy 5Haa Hepe^aHa, ho eMy o^HaKo ny^no 5hho ^eaaTb bh5op, peraHTb, KaK nayHHTbca yHpaBasTb ^aHHoH rpa^oH. MnorHe 5oraTHe ceMbH TeparoT cboh aKTHBH b Hocae^yroroeM HoKoaeHHH HpocTo HoToMy, HTo He 5hho hh o^Horo HeaoBeKa, HayHeHHoro pacHopa^aTbca aKTHBaMH. EoabraHHCTBo aro,aeH peraaror He CTanoBHTbca 5oraTHMH. flaa 90 % naceaeHHa 5HTb 5oraTHM o3HaHaeT “caHraKoM MHoro BepTeTb Mo3raMH”. Hro,aH, oHpaB,aHBaa CBoe ne^eaaHHe 5HTb 5oraTHMH, HpH^yMHBaroT ^pa3H, TaKHe KaK: “flenbrH Mena He HHTepecyroT”. Hhh “^ HHKor,aa ne 5y,ay 5oraTHM”, hhh “Mne He o HeM 5ecHoKoHTbca, a eroe Moao^”, hhh “Kor,aa a 3apa5oraro KaKHe-To ^eHbrH, Tor,aa H Ho^yMaro o CBoeM 5y,ayroeM”. Hhh “MoH My^/ Moa ^ena pacHopa^aroTca ^HHancaMH”. Hpo5aeMa co BceMH othmh BHCKa3HBaHH3MH B tom, hto ohh HHraaroT HeaoBeKa, ^eaaroroero ^y- MaTb o cbohx HepcHeKTHBax, MHcaeH o ^Byx Beroax: 1) o BpeMeHH, aBaa- roroeMca caMHM peHHHM ^kthbom HeaoBeKa h 2) o5 o5yHeHHH. Echh y Bac HeT ^ener, oto He cay^HT Bac oHpaB,aaHHeM toto, hto bh He