All the Light We Cannot See: a novel



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All the Light We Cannot See

Exceptional. Unexpected.
We will take only the purest, only the strongest.
The only place your brother is going, little girl, is into the mines.
Werner scampers up the ladder. The rungs have been roughly sawed, and his palms take
splinters the whole way. From the top, the crimson flag with its white circle and black cross looks
unexpectedly small. A pale ring of faces stares up. It’s even hotter up here, torrid, and the smell of
perspiration makes him light-headed.
Without hesitating, Werner steps to the edge of the platform and shuts his eyes and jumps. He hits
the flag in its exact center, and the boys holding its edges give a collective groan.
He rolls to his feet, uninjured. The examiner clicks his stopwatch, scribbles on his clipboard,
looks up. Their eyes meet for a half second. Maybe less. Then the man goes back to his notations.

Heil
Hitler!” yells Werner.
The next boy starts up the ladder.


Brittany
I
n the morning an ancient furniture lorry stops for them. Her father lifts her into its bed, where a
dozen people nestle beneath a waxed canvas tarp. The engine roars and pops; the truck rarely
accelerates past walking speed.
A woman prays in a Norman accent; someone shares pâté; everything smells of rain. No Stukas
swoop over them, machine guns blazing. No one in the truck has even seen a German. For half the
morning, Marie-Laure tries to convince herself that the previous days have been some elaborate
test concocted by her father, that the truck is moving not away from Paris but toward it, that tonight
they’ll return home. The model will be on its bench in the corner, and the sugar bowl will be in the
center of the kitchen table, its little spoon resting on the rim. Out the open windows, the cheese
seller on the rue des Patriarches will lock his door and shutter up those marvelous smells, as he
has done nearly every evening she can remember, and the leaves of the chestnut tree will clatter
and murmur, and her father will boil coffee and draw her a hot bath, and say, “You did well,
Marie-Laure. I’m proud.”
The truck bounces from highway to country road to dirt lane. Weeds brush its flanks. Well after
midnight, west of Cancale, they run out of fuel.
“Not much farther,” her father whispers.
Marie-Laure shuffles along half-asleep. The road seems hardly wider than a path. The air smells
like wet grain and hedge trimmings; in the lulls between their footfalls, she can hear a deep, nearly
subsonic roar. She tugs her father to a stop. “Armies.”
“The ocean.”
She cocks her head.
“It’s the ocean, Marie. I promise.”
He carries her on his back. Now the barking of gulls. Smell of wet stones, of bird shit, of salt,
though she never knew salt to have a smell. The sea murmuring in a language that travels through
stones, air, and sky. What did Captain Nemo say? 
The sea does not belong to tyrants.
“We’re crossing into Saint-Malo now,” says her father, “the part they call the city within the
walls.” He narrates what he sees: a portcullis, defensive walls called ramparts, granite mansions,
a steeple above rooftops. The echoes of his footfalls ricochet off tall houses and rain back onto
them, and he labors beneath her weight, and she is old enough to suspect that what he presents as
quaint and welcoming might in truth be harrowing and strange.
Birds make strangled cries overhead. Her father turns left, right. It feels to Marie-Laure as if
they have wound these past four days toward the center of a bewildering maze, and now they are
tiptoeing past the pickets of some final interior cell. Inside which a terrible beast might slumber.
“Rue Vauborel,” her father says between pants. “Here, it must be. Or here?” He pivots, retraces
their steps, climbs an alley, then turns around.
“Is there no one to ask?”
“There’s not a single light, Marie. Everyone is asleep or pretending to be.”
Finally they reach a gate, and he sets her down on a curbstone and pushes an electric buzzer, and
she can hear it ring deep within a house. Nothing. He presses again. Again nothing. He presses a
third time.
“This is the house of your uncle?”


“It is.”
“He doesn’t know us,” she says.
“He’s sleeping. As we should be.”
They sit with their backs to the gate. Wrought iron and cool. A heavy wooden door just behind
it. She leans her head on his shoulder; he pulls off her shoes. The world seems to sway gently back
and forth, as though the town is drifting lightly away. As though back onshore, all of France is left
to bite its fingernails and flee and stumble and weep and wake to a numb, gray dawn, unable to
believe what is happening. Who do the roads belong to now? And the fields? The trees?
Her father takes his final cigarette from his shirt pocket and lights it.
From deep inside the house behind them come footfalls.


Madame Manec
A
s soon as her father says his name, the breathing on the other side of the door becomes a gasp, a
held breath. The gate screeches; a door behind it gives way. “Jesus’s mother,” says a woman’s
voice. “You were so small—”
“My daughter, Madame. Marie-Laure, this is Madame Manec.”
Marie-Laure attempts a curtsy. The hand that cups her cheek is strong: the hand of a geologist or
a gardener.
“My God, there are none so distant that fate cannot bring them together. But, dear child, your
stockings. And your heels! You must be famished.”
They step into a narrow entry. Marie-Laure hears the gate clang shut, then the woman latching
the door behind them. Two dead bolts, one chain. They are led into a room that smells of herbs and
rising dough: a kitchen. Her father unbuttons her coat, helps her sit. “We are very grateful, I
understand how late it is,” he is saying, and the old woman—Madame Manec—is brisk, efficient,
evidently overcoming her initial amazement; she brushes off their thank-yous; she scoots Marie-
Laure’s chair toward a tabletop. A match is struck; water fills a pot; an icebox clicks open and
shut. There is the hum of gas and the tick-tick of heating metal. In another moment, a warm towel is
on Marie-Laure’s face. A jar of cool, sweet water in front of her. Each sip a blessing.
“Oh, the town is absolutely stuffed,” Madame Manec is saying in her fairy-tale drawl as she
moves about. She seems short; she wears blocky, heavy shoes. Hers is a low voice, full of pebbles
—a sailor’s voice or a smoker’s. “Some can afford hotels or rentals, but many are in the
warehouses, on straw, not enough to eat. I’d take them in, but your uncle, you know, it might upset
him. There’s no diesel, no kerosene, British ships long gone. They burned everything they left
behind, at first I couldn’t believe any of it, but Etienne, he has the wireless going nonstop—”
Eggs crack. Butter pops in a hot pan. Her father is telling an abridged story of their flight, train
stations, fearful crowds, omitting the stop in Evreux, but soon all of Marie-Laure’s attention is
absorbed by the smells blooming around her: egg, spinach, melting cheese.
An omelet arrives. She positions her face over its steam. “May I please have a fork?”
The old woman laughs: a laugh Marie-Laure warms to immediately. In an instant a fork is fitted
into her hand.
The eggs taste like clouds. Like spun gold. Madame Manec says, “I think she likes it,” and
laughs again.
A second omelet soon appears. Now it is her father who eats quickly. “How about peaches,
dear?” murmurs Madame Manec, and Marie-Laure can hear a can opening, juice slopping into a
bowl. Seconds later, she’s eating wedges of wet sunlight.
“Marie,” murmurs her father, “your manners.”
“But they’re—”
“We have plenty, you go ahead, child. I make them every year.” When Marie-Laure has eaten
two full cans of peaches, Madame Manec cleans Marie-Laure’s feet with a rag and shakes out her
coat and clanks dishes into a sink and says, “Cigarette?” and her father groans with gratitude and a
match flares and the grown-ups smoke.
A door opens, or a window, and Marie-Laure can hear the hypnotic voice of the sea.
“And Etienne?” says her father.


Madame says, “Shuts himself up like a corpse one day, eats like an albatross the next.”
“He still does not—?”
“Not for twenty years.”
Probably the grown-ups are mouthing more to each other. Probably Marie-Laure should be more
curious—about her great-uncle who sees things that are not there, about the fate of everyone and
everything she has ever known—but her stomach is full, her blood has become a warm golden
flow through her arteries, and out the open window, beyond the walls, the ocean crashes, only a bit
of stacked stone left between her and it, the rim of Brittany, the farthest windowsill of France—and
maybe the Germans are advancing as inexorably as lava, but Marie-Laure is slipping into
something like a dream, or perhaps it’s the memory of one: she’s six or seven years old, newly
blind, and her father is sitting in the chair beside her bed, whittling away at some tiny piece of
wood, smoking a cigarette, and evening is settling over the hundred thousand rooftops and
chimneys of Paris, and all the walls around her are dissolving, the ceilings too, the whole city is
disintegrating into smoke, and at last sleep falls over her like a shadow.


You Have Been Called
E
veryone wants to hear Werner’s stories. What were the exams like, what did they make you do,
tell us everything. The youngest children tug his sleeves; the older ones are deferential. This
snowy-haired dreamer plucked out of the soot.
“They said they’d accept only two from my age group. Maybe three.” From the far end of the
table, he can feel the heat of Jutta’s attention. With the rest of the money from Herr Siedler, he
purchased a People’s Receiver for thirty-four marks eighty: a two-valve low-powered radio even
cheaper than the state-sponsored Volksemfängers he has repaired in the houses of neighbors.
Unmodified, its receiver can haul in only the big long-wave nationwide programs from
Deutchlandsender. Nothing else. Nothing foreign.
The children shout, delighted, as he presents it. Jutta shows no interest.
Martin Sachse asks, “Was there loads of math?”
“Was there cheeses? Was there cakes?”
“Did they let you shoot rifles?”
“Did you ride in tanks? I bet you rode in tanks.”
Werner says, “I didn’t know the answers to half their questions. I’ll never get in.”
But he does. Five days after he returns from Essen, the letter is hand-delivered to Children’s
House. An eagle and cross on a crisp envelope. No stamp. Like a dispatch from God.
Frau Elena is doing laundry. The little boys are clustered around the new radio: a half-hour
program called 

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