But where was Largo? I was standing miserably by the
rail when the captain came over and started talking to me.
Even he was lost. It was his ship, but he didn't know how
to get it off dry land. I was nervous, finding myself in
conversation with the brass, and couldn't think of a thing
to say. The skipper didn't seem to notice; he just turned to
me casually and said, "What the hell are we gonna do,
Largo?"
I woke up electrified. I was Largo! I was the salty old
Gunny. T h e power to take charge was in my hands; all I had
to do was believe it.
W h e r e did this dream come from? Plainly its intent was
benevolent. W h a t was its source? A n d what does it say about
the workings of the universe that such things happen at all?
A g a i n , w e ' v e all had d r e a m s like that. A g a i n , t h e y ' r e
common as dirt. So is the sunrise. That doesn't make it any
less a miracle.
Before I got to North Carolina I worked in the oilfields
around Buras, Louisiana. I lived in a bunkhouse with a bunch
of other transient geeks. O n e g u y had picked up a paperback
about meditation in a bookstore in
N e w Orleans; he was
teaching me how to do it. I used to go out to this dock after
w o r k and see if I could get into it. O n e night this came:
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I was sitting cross-legged when an eagle came and landed
on my shoulders. T h e eagle merged with me and took
off flying, so that my head became its head and my arms
its wings. It felt completely authentic. I could feel the air
under my wings, as solid as water feels when you row in
it with an oar. It was substantial. You could push off
against it. So this was how birds flew! I realized that it was
impossible for a bird to fall out of the sky; all it would
have to do was extend its wings; the solid air would hold
it up with the same power we feel when we stick our hand
out the window of a moving car. I was pretty impressed
with this movie that was playing in my head but I still had
no idea what it meant. I asked the eagle, Hey, what am I
supposed to be learning from this? A voice answered
(silently): You're supposed to learn that things that y o u
think are nothing, as
w e i g h t l e s s as air, are actually
powerful substantial forces, as real and as solid as earth.
I understood. T h e eagle was telling me that dreams,
visions, meditations such as this v e r y one—things that I had
till now disdained as fantasy and illusion—were as real and as
solid as anything in my waking life.
I believed the e a g l e . I got the message. H o w could I not?
I had felt the s o l i d n e s s of the air. I k n e w he w a s t e l l i n g
the truth.
W h i c h brings us back to the question: Where did the eagle
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O F A R T
come from? Why did he show up at just the right time to tell
me just what I needed to hear?
C l e a r l y s o m e unseen intelligence had created him,
giving him form as an eagle so that I would understand what
it wanted to communicate. This intelligence was babying me
along. Keeping it simple. Making its point in terms so clear
and elementary that even someone as numb and asleep as I
was could understand.
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