Higher Realm
T h e first d u t y i s t o s a c r i f i c e t o the g o d s and p r a y
them to g r a n t y o u the t h o u g h t s , w o r d s , and d e e d s
l i k e l y t o r e n d e r y o u r c o m m a n d m o s t p l e a s i n g t o
the g o d s and t o b r i n g y o u r s e l f , y o u r friends, and
y o u r c i t y the f u l l e s t m e a s u r e o f a f f e c t i o n a n d
g l o r y a n d a d v a n t a g e .
— X e n o p h o n ,
The Cavalry Commander
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T
he next few c h a p t e r s are g o i n g to be a b o u t those
invisible psychic forces that support and sustain us in
our journey toward ourselves. I plan on using terms like
muses and angels.
D o e s that make you uncomfortable?
If it does, you have my permission to think of angels in
the abstract. Consider these forces as being impersonal as
gravity. Maybe they are. It's not hard to believe, is it, that a
force exists in every grain and seed to make it grow? Or that
in every kitten or colt is an instinct that impels it to run and
play and learn.
Just as Resistance can be thought of as personal (I've said
Resistance "loves" such-and-such or "hates" such-and-such),
it can also be viewed as a force of nature as impersonal as
entropy or molecular decay.
S i m i l a r l y the call to g r o w t h can be c o n c e p t u a l i z e d as
personal (a daimon or genius, an angel or a m u s e ) or as
i m p e r s o n a l , like the tides or the t r a n s i t i n g of V e n u s .
Either way works, as long as w e ' r e comfortable with it. Or
if extra-dimensionality doesn't sit well with you in any
f o r m , think of it as "talent," p r o g r a m m e d into our g e n e s
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O F A R T
by evolution.
T h e point, for the thesis I'm seeking to put forward, is
that there are forces we can call our allies.
As Resistance works to keep us from becoming who we
were born to be, equal and opposite powers are counter-
poised against it. These are our allies and angels.
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A P P R O A C H I N G T H E M Y S T E R Y
W
hy have I stressed professionalism so heavily in the
preceding chapters? Because the most important
thing about art is to work. Nothing else matters except sitting
down every day and trying.
Why is this so important?
B e c a u s e when we sit down d a y after d a y and keep
g r i n d i n g , s o m e t h i n g m y s t e r i o u s starts to happen. A
p r o c e s s is set into m o t i o n by which, inevitably and
infallibly, heaven c o m e s to our a i d . U n s e e n forces enlist
in our c a u s e ; serendipity reinforces our p u r p o s e .
This is the other secret that real artists know and wannabe
writers don't. When we sit down each day and do our work,
power concentrates around us. T h e Muse takes note of our
dedication. She approves. We have earned favor in her sight.
When we sit down and work, we become like a magnetized
rod that attracts iron filings. Ideas come. Insights accrete.
Just as Resistance has its seat in hell, so Creation has its
home in heaven. And it's not just a witness, but an eager and
active ally.
W h a t I call P r o f e s s i o n a l i s m s o m e o n e else m i g h t call
the A r t i s t ' s C o d e or the Warrior's Way. It's an attitude of
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O F A R T
egolessness and service. T h e Knights of the Round Table
were chaste and self-effacing. Yet they dueled dragons.
W e ' r e facing dragons too. Fire-breathing griffins of the
soul, w h o m we must outfight and outwit to reach the treasure
of our self-in-potential and to release the maiden w h o is
G o d ' s plan and destiny for ourselves and the answer to w h y
we were put on this planet.
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I N V O K I N G T H E M U S E
T
he quote from Xenophon that opens this section
c o m e s f r o m a p a m p h l e t c a l l e d The Cavalry
Commander, in which the celebrated warrior and historian
proffers instruction to those young gentlemen who aspired to
be officers of the Athenian equestrian corps. He declares that
the commander's first duty, before he mucks out a stable or
s e e k s f u n d i n g from the D e f e n s e R e v i e w B o a r d , is to
s a c r i f i c e to the g o d s and i n v o k e their aid.
I do the same thing. T h e last thing I do before I sit down
to work is say my prayer to the Muse. I say it out loud, in
absolute earnest. Only then do I get down to business.
In my late twenties I rented a little house in Northern
California; I had gone there to finish a novel or kill myself
trying. By that time I had blown up a marriage to a girl I
loved with all my heart, screwed up two careers, blah blah,
etc., all because (though I had no understanding of this at
the t i m e ) I could not handle R e s i s t a n c e . I had one novel
nine-tenths of the way through and another at ninety-nine
hundredths before I threw them in the trash. I couldn't finish
'em. I didn't have the guts. In yielding thusly to Resistance,
I fell p r e y to e v e r y v i c e , e v i l , d i s t r a c t i o n , y o u - n a m e - i t
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O F A R T
mentioned heretofore, all leading nowhere, and finally
washed up in this sleepy California town, with my Chevy
van, my cat Mo, and my antique Smith-Corona.
A g u y n a m e d Paul R i n k lived d o w n the street. L o o k
him up, he's in Henry Miller's Big Sur and the Oranges of
Hieronymus Bosch. P a u l w a s a writer. He l i v e d in his
camper, "Moby Dick." I started each day over coffee with
Paul. He turned me on to all kinds of authors I had never
heard of, lectured me on self-discipline, dedication, the evils
of the marketplace. But best of all, he shared with me his
prayer, the Invocation of the Muse from Homer's Odyssey,
the T. E. Lawrence translation. Paul typed it out for me on
his even-more-ancient-than-mine manual Remington. I still
have it. It's yellow and parched as dust; the merest puff
would blow it to powder.
In my little house I had no T V . I never read a newspaper
or went to a m o v i e . I just w o r k e d . O n e a f t e r n o o n I w a s
banging away in the little bedroom I had converted to an
office, when I heard my neighbor's radio playing outside.
Someone in a loud voice was declaiming " . . . to preserve,
protect, and defend the Constitution of the United States." I
came out. What's going on? "Didn't you hear? Nixon's out;
they got a new guy in there."
I had missed Watergate completely.
I was determined to keep working. I had failed so many
times, and caused myself and people I loved so much pain
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thereby, that I felt if I crapped out this time I would have to
hang myself. I didn't k n o w what Resistance was then. No one
had schooled me in the concept. I felt it though, big-time. I
experienced it as a compulsion to self-destruct. I could not
finish what I started. T h e closer I got, the more different
w a y s I'd find to screw it up. I worked for twenty-six months
straight, taking only t w o out for a stint of migrant labor in
Washington State, and finally one day I got to the last page
and typed out:
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