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participants identify as Christian. All participants were raised in a religious
household.
Family
Relationships
All participants reported that they had come out as transgender to their
families. When asked about the family
’s initial reaction to finding out about the
participant
’s
transgender status, the responses were mixed with 4 participants
stating the family had a negative reaction. For example, Participant 1 stated,
“They didn’t take it well…I thought I made a mistake coming out to them. I
thought I was going to start losing everyone… I thought I might have to walk
away from everyone at that point
” (Survey Interview, January 2016). Similarly,
Participant 4 stated,
“My family was in disbelief and denial. My brothers don’t
acknowledge it, and my grandparents only acknowledge it in a negative
context, but they never refer to me as female or by my new name
” (Survey
Interview, April 2016). The other two participants reported that they did not
have a difficult time with their families. Participant 6 stated,
“I had kept it a
secret for a long time because I was afraid of how my family would be about it.
I told my mom first, and she was shocked but she was actually really
supportive
” (Survey Interview, April 2016). Of the four
participants that had a
negative experience when coming out to family, three stated that their families
’
opinions have changed positively to some degree over time and one stated
that things had not changed or had gotten worse.
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I told my mother I couldn
’t spend time with her.
She made me feel bad
when I was with her. She wouldn
’t acknowledge me. She wouldn’t
accept me. And our relationship which had been extremely close for the
previous 38 years just unraveled. We drifted apart, and she died a
couple of years ago. (Participant 6, Survey Interview, April 2016)
When the participants were asked about the hardest aspect of family as
it relates to being transgender, five out of six participants reported negative
changes in family relationships and interactions. For example, Participant 3
stated
“I feel as if I’ve disappointed them in some way. I’m not a regular
accomplished guy or something so that makes
me feel bad that maybe they
’re
embarrassed or ashamed of me
” (Survey Interview, January 2016). Participant
5 stated,
“What is hard to deal with is that my parents are trying to keep this as
a huge secret from my grandma… my cousin is getting married back home,
and I don
’t really know what’s going to happen” (Survey Interview, April 2016).
Romantic Relationships
When asked about romantic relationships, 50% of the participants
reported that they were involved in romantic relationships while the other 50%
reported that they were single. When the participants were
asked about sexual
orientation, all participants indicated that they are interested in women with
three MtF participants indicating that they might be interested in dating men.
For example, Participant 4 stated,
“I like women. I date women. I have dated
men that I was attracted to. I never give it a second thought when I
’m seeking
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out a romantic relationship. I never expect to end up with a guy though
”
(Survey Interview, April 2016). When the participants were asked if they find it
difficult to form romantic relationships as a transgender person, the answers
were mixed. Of those that are
currently single, participants
’ answers were
uniform in that they have some degree of fear in dating as a transgender
person. Participant 1 stated,
“The danger in that is that you’re setting yourself
up for possible
‘chasers’ [fetishists] who are looking specifically for people like
me… and people who are violent that want to go after trans people” (Survey
Interview, January 2016). Participant 6 stated,
“I think that you do have to be
careful when you
’re a trans woman because a lot of people just want you
because you
’re a fetish to them so it makes you always
question, ‘does this
person really like me or is this just part of the fantasy?
’” (Survey Interview,
April 2016).
Mental Health
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