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The word ‘we’ drew Abdullah’s attention towards a girl standing
next to the woman. He looked at the girl for a moment and then
involuntarily lowered his gaze. However, that moment was enough to
cause an upheaval in Abdullah’s heart.
This upheaval was not due to the girl’s extraordinarily attractive
features and complexion. There would have been few men with as
untainted and untouched personality as Abdullah. In any case, the
mental state he was in, inside the Haram would have usually caused
most people not to note anyone, let alone be attracted towards the
opposite sex. Such a state of mind would usually keep one focused
sharply on Kaaba and the Lord of Kaaba.
Since this particular morning, Abdullah’s belief in the Lord of Kaaba
had grown many folds. The honour of being present in the Court of
Almighty in a dream had left Abdullah in a state of Trance. It was quite
difficult to remember other details of that dream in such a mental state.
However, the pleasant face of the girl helped him recall every little
detail of the dream. Every scene and every incident of it was now fresh
in his memory… so firmly cast as if it was written in a book that he could
comfortably read page by page. And now the most prominent page of
that book was open in front of him in the form of Naimah, who seemed
to be made of light and Nur, from head to toe.
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The pause in the conversation was getting progressively longer,
however Abdullah was oblivious to it, standing there with his head
bowed. He was trying to convince himself what he had just seen was
only his imagination:
“May be it is only my imagination. May be it has something to do
with my age or the phase of life I am passing through… or maybe it is
Satan’s handiwork to distract me and waste all my hard work as I leave
the sacred Haram. Satan can ruin the efforts of the most righteous of
people visiting The Sacred Mosque in a second. The wish to take one
look, or the urge to feel just one touch, on any pretext… to succumb to
one’s animal instincts, to satisfy one’s lust for just a second… can
destroy hard work of a life time in a second!
Yes, this moment has appeared in my life as a trial. Satan wants me
to think that this girl is the culmination of my dreams, and therefore, let
him enter my heart. I will not let him succeed. Never! I will never allow
him to do that.”
Abdullah decided that he would leave this place immediately. But
before he could take leave, the long silence was broken by a tired but
extremely melodious voice:
“Grandpa, we have been up all night. Let’s go to the hotel now.”
Her words made the matters even worse. Her voice sounded very
familiar. He felt dizzy. The elderly man, oblivious to his state, said,
“Okay. Let me say good bye to this kind man.”
Before he could say anything more, his daughter asked Abdullah:
“Son, before you go, please tell us your name.”
“I am Abdullah”, Abdullah barely managed to say the words.
The man felt that it was appropriate considering cultural norms, to
introduce himself:
“It is good Amnah that you asked his name. Let me introduce myself
to you, Son. My name is Ismael. She is my daughter Amnah.”
He paused for a second, looked towards his granddaughter, and
said in love-laced tone:
“And the most tired of us is my granddaughter. Her name is
Naimah.”
It was Abdullah’s strongest desire to hear an unfamiliar name so
that he could convince himself a wee bit, but the word ‘Naimah’ rang in
his ears as the last nail in the coffin. This time, no force in the world
could stop Abdullah from looking at her.
He saw that it was indeed Naimah standing in front of him. She was
the girl he was seeing for the first time in his life with open eyes, and
also the one that he had seen last night in his dream.
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