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That
came out
tha
.
“Really? Is that all that happened to you?”
“Yes. Why? What happened to
you
?”
“They gave me a shot first, and I had a reaction. My throat closed up. I thought for a minute
I was going to die.”
“Huh. They gave me a shot before I had the test, but nothing happened. That does sound
bad. I’m sorry, Lukey.”
“That was only the first bad part. I passed out while I was looking at the lights. Had a
seizure, I think.” He had also wet his pants a little, but that was information he’d keep to
himself. “When I woke up . . .” He paused, getting himself under control. He had no urge to cry
in front of this pretty girl with her pretty brown eyes and curly black hair. “When I woke up,
they slapped me around.”
She sat up straight. “Say
what
?”
He nodded. “Then one of the docs . . . Evans, do you know him?”
“The one with the little ’stash.” She wrinkled her nose and had another sip.
“Yeah, him. He had some cards and tried to get me to say what was on them. They were ESP
cards. Pretty much had to be. You talked about them, remember?”
“Sure. They’ve tested those on me a dozen times.
Two
dozen. But they didn’t after the lights.
They just took me back to my room.” She took another tiny sip. “They must have confused
their paperwork, thought you were TP instead of TK.”
“That’s what I thought at first, and I told them, but they kept slapping me. Like they
thought I was faking.”
“Craziest thing I ever heard,” she said.
Hurr
instead of
heard
.
“I think it happened because I’m not what you guys call a pos. I’m just ordinary. They call us
ordinary kids pinks.”
“Yeah. Pinks. That’s right.”
“What about the other kids? Did any of that stuff happen to them?”
“Never asked them. Sure you don’t want some of this?”
Luke took the bottle and had a swallow, mostly so she wouldn’t drink all of it. In his
estimation, she’d had enough. It was just as horrible as he’d expected. He handed it back.
“Don’t you want to know what I’m celebrating?”
“What?”
“Iris. Her memory. She’s like you, nothing special, just a little TK. They came and took her
an hour ago. And as George would say, we will see her no more.”
She began to cry. Luke put his arms around her. He couldn’t think what else to do. She put
her head on his shoulder.
17
That night he went to the Mr. Griffin site again, typed in the
Star Trib
web address, and stared
at it for almost three minutes before backing out without hitting enter. Coward, he thought.
I’m a coward. If they’re dead, I should find out. Only he didn’t know how he could face that
news without breaking down completely. Besides, what good would it do?
He typed in
Vermont debt lawyers
instead. He had already researched this, but told himself
that double-checking his work was always a good idea. And it would pass the time.
Twenty minutes later he shut down and was debating whether to take a walk and see who
was around (Kalisha would be his first choice, if she wasn’t sleeping it off ), when the colored
spots came back. They swirled in front of his eyes and the world started to go away. To
pull
away, like a train leaving the station while he watched from the platform.
He put his head down on the closed laptop and took big slow breaths, telling himself to hold
on, hold on, just hold on. Telling himself it would pass, not allowing himself to wonder what
would happen if it didn’t. At least he could swallow. Swallowing was fine, and eventually that
sense of drifting away from himself—drifting into a universe of swirling lights—
did
pass. He
didn’t know how long it took, maybe only a minute or two, but it felt much longer.
He went into the bathroom and brushed his teeth, looking at himself in the mirror as he did
it. They could know about the dots, probably
did
know about the dots, but not about the
other. He had no idea what had been on the first card, or on the third one, but the second had
been a boy on a bike and the fourth had been a small dog with a ball in its mouth. Black dog,
red ball. It seemed he was TP after all.
Or was now.
He rinsed his mouth, turned off the lights, undressed in the dark, and laid down on his bed.
Those lights had changed him. They knew that might happen, but weren’t sure. He didn’t
know how he could be positive of that, but—
He was a test subject, maybe they all were, but low-level TPs and TKs—pinks—got extra
tests. Why? Because they were less valuable? More expendable if things went wrong? There was
no way to be sure, but Luke thought it was likely. The doctors believed the experiment with the
cards had been a failure. That was good. These were bad people, and keeping secrets from bad
people had to be good, right? But he had an idea the lights might have some purpose beyond
growing the talents of the pinks, because stronger TPs and TKs, like Kalisha and George, also
got them. What might that other purpose be?
He didn’t know. He only knew that the dots were gone, and Iris was gone, and the dots
might come back but Iris wouldn’t. Iris had gone to Back Half and they would see her no more.
18
There were nine children at breakfast the following morning, but with Iris gone, there was little
talk and no laughter. George Iles cracked no jokes. Helen Simms breakfasted on candy
cigarettes. Harry Cross got a mountain of scrambled eggs from the buffet, and shoveled them in
(along with bacon and home fries) without looking up from his plate, like a man doing work.
The little girls, Greta and Gerda Wilcox, ate nothing until Gladys appeared, sunny smile and all,
and coaxed a few bites into them. The twins seemed to cheer up at her attentions, even laughed
a little. Luke thought of taking them aside later and telling them not to trust that smile, but it
would frighten them, and what good would that do?
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