I'll bet you are, you dog
, I thought, but didn't quite dare say it—I still
remembered the way he had blown up at me that same day at Hidden Hills.
Besides, I wanted to hear this. I was pretty curious; captivating a girl as
stunning as Leigh Cabot had been a real coup.
"So after a while I started to think maybe she was interested in me," Arnie
went on. "It probably took a lot longer for the penny to drop for me than it
would for some other guys—guys like you, Dennis."
"Sure, I'm a smoothie," I said. "What James Brown used to call "a sex
machine.""
"No, you're no sex machine, but you know about girls," he said seriously.
"You understand them. I was always just scared of them. Never knew what to
say. Still don't, I guess. Leigh's different.
"I was afraid to ask her out." He seemed to consider this. "I mean, she's a
beautiful girl, really beautiful. Don't you think so, Dennis?"
"Yes. As far as I can tell, she's the prettiest girl in school."
He smiled, pleased. "I think so, too… but I thought, maybe it's only because I
love her that I think that way."
I looked at my friend, hoping he wasn't going to get into more trouble than he
could handle. At that point, of course, I had no idea what trouble meant.
"Anyway, I heard these two guys talking one day in chem lab—Lenny
Barongg and Ned Stroughman—and Ned was telling Lenny that he'd asked
her out and she'd said no, but in a nice way like maybe if he asked her again
she might try it out. And I had this picture of her going steady with Ned by
spring, and I started to feel really jealous. It's ridiculous. I mean, she told him
no and I'm feeling jealous, you dig what I'm saying?"
I smiled and nodded. Out on the field the cheerleaders were trying out some
new routines. I didn't think they would help our team very much, but it was
pleasant to watch them. Their shadows puddled at their heels on the green
grass in the bright noontime.
"The other thing that got me was that Ned didn't sound pissed off or… or
ashamed or… rejected, or anything like that. He tried for a date and got
turned down, that was all. I decided I could do that, too. Still, when I called
her up on the phone I was sweating all over. Man, that was bad. I kept
imagining her laughing at me and saying something like,
'Me go out with you,
you little creep? You must be dreaming! I'm not that hard up yet!'
"
"Yeah," I said. "I can't figure out why she didn't."
He poked me in the stomach. "Gut-noogies, Dennis! Make you puke!"
"Never mind," I said. "Tell me the rest."
He shrugged. "Not much else to tell. Her mother answered the phone when I
called and said she'd get her. I heard the phone go clunking down on the
table, and I almost hung up." Arnie held up two fingers a quarter of an inch
apart. "I came this close to hanging up. No shit."
"I know the feeling," I said, and I did—you worry about the laughter, you
imagine the contempt to some degree or other, no matter if you're a football
player or some pimply little four-eyed runt—but I don't think I could
understand the
degree
to which Arnie must have felt it. What he had done had
taken monumental courage. It's a small thing, a date, but in our society there
are all sorts of charged forces swirling behind that simple concept—I mean,
there are kids who go all the way through high school and
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