So fascist,
is what
Christopher said, the last time he was here, as they drove past the Bullocks’
house with the flag out front. Whoever went around saying things like that?
A stumbling sound on the deck above her, and then a slurred voice, “I’m
sorry, Marlene. Really, you have to believe me.” And then the murmuring
sounds of Marlene herself, telling Kerry it’s time to go sleep it off, and after that,
clumping sounds down the deck stairs; more silence.
Back inside the house, Olive puts a brownie into her mouth and goes off to
find the bathroom. Coming out, she runs into the woman with the long gray hair,
who is right now sticking a cigarette butt into a potted plant that sits on a table in
the hallway. “Who
are
you?” Olive says, and the woman stares at her. “Who are
you
?” the woman answers, and Olive walks past her. That is the woman who
bought Christopher’s house, Olive realizes with an inner lurch, that woman who
hasn’t the decency to respect even a poor potted plant, let alone everything Olive
and Henry worked for, their son’s beautiful house, where their grandchildren
were going to grow up.
“Where’s Marlene gone to?” Olive asks Molly Collins, who still has
Marlene’s apron on, and is walking around the living room officiously collecting
plates, balled-up paper napkins. Molly looks over her shoulder and says vaguely,
“Gee, I’m not sure.”
“Where’s Marlene gone?” Olive asks Susie Bradford, who comes by next, and
Susie says, “Around.”
It’s Eddie Junior who tells her. “Kerry got drunk and Mom’s gone to put her
in bed.” He says this with a dark look at the back of Susie Bradford, and Olive
likes the boy a good deal. She did not have this young fellow in school. She left
teaching years before to tend to her own family. Christopher out in California.
Henry over in Hasham, at the home. Gone, gone. Gone to hell.
“Thank you,” she says to Eddie Junior, who, in his young eyes, seems to have
some awareness of hell himself.
It is no longer a lovely April day. The northeast wind that blows against the side
of the Bonney house has also brought the clouds in, and now a sky as gray as
November hangs over the bay, and against the dark rocks the water slaps
ceaselessly, swirling seaweed around, leaving it bumpily combed out along the
higher rocks. Right down to the point the rocky coastline looks barren, almost
wintry, only the skinny spruce and pines show dark green, for it is far too early
for any leaves to come out; even close to the house the forsythia is only budded.
Olive Kitteridge, on her way to find Marlene, steps over a smashed-looking
crocus by the garage’s side door. Last week, after the day that was warm enough
to take the dog to Henry in the parking lot, it snowed, one of those April
dumpings of pure white that all melted the very next day, but the ground in
places is still soggy from the assault, and certainly this crushed yellow crocus
has been done in. The side door of the garage opens directly to stairs, and Olive
walks up them cautiously, stands on the landing; two sweatshirts are hanging on
hooks, a pair of muddied yellow rubber boots stand side by side, toes facing in
opposite directions.
Olive knocks on the door, looking at the boots. She bends over and places one
boot on the other side of its mate, so they look like they go together, could walk
off together, and she knocks again. No answer, so she turns the knob, pushes the
door open slowly, walks in.
“Hello, Olive.”
Across the room, facing her, Marlene sits like an obedient schoolgirl in a
straight-backed chair by Kerry’s double bed, her hands folded in her lap, her
plump ankles crossed neatly. On the bed sprawls Kerry. She lies on her stomach
with the abandonment of a sunbather, her face turned toward the wall, elbows
out, but her hips are turned slightly, so that the black outline of her suit seems to
accentuate the rise of her rear end, and her black-stockinged legs are sleek, in
spite of the fact that the stockings are shredded in a series of tiny runs at her feet.
“Is she asleep?” Olive asks, walking farther into the room.
“Passed out,” Marlene answers. “Upchucked first in Eddie’s room, then fell
asleep here.”
“I see. Well, it’s a nice place you’ve given her here.” Olive walks over toward
the little dining alcove and brings back a chair, sits down by Marlene.
For a while neither woman speaks, then Marlene says pleasantly, “I’ve been
thinking about killing Kerry.” She raises a hand from her lap and exposes a
small paring knife lying on her green flowered dress.
“Oh,” says Olive.
Marlene bends over the sleeping Kerry and touches the woman’s bare neck.
“Isn’t this some major vein?” she asks, and puts the knife flat against Kerry’s
neck, even poking slightly at the vague throbbing of the pulse there.
“Yuh. Okay. Might want to be a little careful there.” Olive sits forward.
In a moment Marlene sighs, sits back. “Okay, here.” And she hands the paring
knife to Olive.
“Do better with a pillow,” Olive tells her. “Cut her throat, there’s going to be a
lot of blood.”
A sudden, soft, deep eruption of a giggle comes from Marlene. “Never
thought of a pillow.”
“I’ve had some time to think about pillows,” Olive says, but Marlene nods
vacantly, like she’s really not listening.
“Mrs. Kitteridge, did you know?”
“Know what?” says Olive, but she feels her stomach turn choppy, whitecaps
in her stomach.
“What Kerry told me today? She said it happened with her and Ed only once.
Just one time. But I don’t believe that—it had to be more. The summer after Ed
Junior graduated from high school.” Marlene has started to cry, is shaking her
head. Olive looks away; a woman needs her privacy. She holds the paring knife
in her lap and gazes out through the window above the bed, only gray sky and
gray ocean; too high up to see any shoreline, only gray water and sky out there,
far as the eye can see.
“I never heard anything,” says Olive. “Why would she choose today to tell
you?”
“Thought I knew.” Marlene has pulled a Kleenex from somewhere, from
inside her sleeve maybe, and she dabs at her face, blows her nose. “She thought I
knew all along, and I was just punishing her by keeping on being nice to her. She
got drunk today and started saying how good I got her, killing her and Ed with
kindness that way.”
“Jesum Crow,” is all Olive can think to say.
“Isn’t that funny, Olive?” Again, out of nowhere comes Marlene’s deep
giggle.
“Well,” says Olive. “I guess it’s not the funniest thing I ever heard.”
Olive looks at the black-suited body of Kerry sprawled there on the bed and
wishes there were a door to close or a curtain to draw so they didn’t have to see
the rise of this girl’s rear end, her black stockings outlining the slim calves of her
legs. “Does Eddie Junior know?”
“Yuh. Seems she told him yesterday. Thought he knew, too, but he says he
didn’t. He says he doesn’t believe it’s true.”
“It may not be.”
“Shit,” says Marlene, shaking her head, crying again. “Mrs. Kitteridge, if you
don’t mind, I’d like to just say
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