Michael, who had opened his mouth, closed it with a snap.
fury suddenly total and uncontained. "And I'm not going to stand here any
longer chewing this rag and listening to a lot of insolence from you! I—I
changed your dirty diapers! I said get it out of here, drive it if you have to,
Michael opened his mouth again to speak.
Arnie looked back at her. Their eyes, the same shade of gray, met.
confused. Arnie caught her arm just above the elbow.
"Arnie, stop it!" Michael shouted at him.
"I'll tell you why you don't want to look at it," he said in the same soft voice.
"It isn't the money, because the car's let me connect with a job that I'm good at
and will end up making me money. You know that. It isn't my grades, either.
They're no worse than they ever were. You know that, too. It's because you
can't stand not to have me under your thumb, the way your department is, the
way
he
is"—he jerked a thumb at Michael, who managed to look angry and
guilty and miserable all at the same time—"the way I always was."
Now Arnie's face was flushed, his hands, clenched into fists at his sides.
"All that liberal bullshit about how the family decided things together,
discussed things together, worked things out together, But the fact is,
you
were always the one who picked out my school-clothes, my school-shoes,
who I was supposed to play with and who I couldn't, you decided where we
were going on vacation,
you
told him when to trade cars and what to trade
for. Well, this is one thing you can't run, and you fucking hate it, don't you?"
She slapped his face. The sound was like a pistol-shot in the living room.
Outside, dusk had fallen and cars cruised by, indistinct, their headlights like
yellow eyes. Christine sat in the Cunninghams' asphalted driveway as she
had once sat on Roland D. LeBay's lawn, but looking considerably better
now than she had then—she looked cool and above all this ugly, undignified
family bickering. She had, perhaps, come up in the world.
Abruptly, shockingly, Regina Cunningham began to cry. This was a
phenomenon, akin to rain in the desert, that Arnie had seen only four or five
times in his entire life and on none of the other occasions had he been the
cause of the tears.
Her tears were frightening, he told Dennis later, by virtue of the simple fact
that they were there. That was enough, but there was more—the tears made
her look old in a single terrifying stroke, as if she had made a quantum leap
from forty-five to sixty in a space of seconds. The hard gray shine in her gaze
turned blurry and weak, and suddenly the tears were spilling down her
cheeks, cutting through her make-up.
She fumbled on the mantelpiece for her drink, jogged the glass instead with
the tips of her fingers. It fell onto the hearth and shattered. A kind of
incredulous silence held among the three of them, an amazement that things
had come this far.
And somehow, even through the weakness of the tears, she managed to say, "I
won't have it in our garage or in this driveway, Arnold."
He answered coldly, "I wouldn't have it here, Mother." He walked to the
doorway, turned back, and looked at them both. "Thanks. For being so
understanding. Thanks a lot, both of you."
He left.