Strength of arms and mind and heart.
For this? To kill my best friend? To kill
her platoon?
“Commander.” Dex grabs me. “Orders?”
Helene’s men emerge from the mist, scims out and ready.
Demetrius.
Leander. Tristas. Ennis.
I know these men. I grew to adulthood with them,
suffered with them, sweated with them. I won’t give the order to kill them.
Dex shakes me. “Orders, Veturius. We need orders.”
Orders. Of course. I’m Red Platoon’s commander. It’s up to me to decide.
If you show mercy, if you do not kill your enemy, there will be consequences
.
“Strike to injure only!” I shout. Damn the consequences. “Do not kill. Do
not
kill.”
I barely have time to give the order before Blue Platoon is on us, fighting as
viciously as if we’re a tribe of border raiders. I hear Helene scream something,
but I can’t make it out in the cacophony of pounding rain and clashing swords.
She disappears, lost in the chaos.
I turn to look for her and spot Tristas cutting through the melee, coming
straight for me. He flings a saw-toothed dagger at my chest, and I only just
deflect it with my scim. He reaches for his own scim and rushes me. I drop,
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letting him roll over me before bringing the blunt end of my blade to the back of
his legs. He loses his footing and slips in the thickening mud, landing on his
back with throat exposed.
Open for the kill.
I turn away, waiting to disarm my next foe. But as I do, Faris, who has gained
the upper hand in a fight with another of Helene’s men, starts to shake. His eyes
bulge, the spear he holds falls from his nerveless fingers, and his face turns blue.
His opponent, a quiet boy named Fortis, wipes sleet from his eyes and stares,
open-mouthed, as Faris collapses to his knees, clawing at an enemy no one else
can see.
What is happening to him? I rush forward, my mind screaming at me to do
something. But as soon as I get within a foot of him, my body is flung back as if
by an unseen hand. My vision goes black for a moment, but I scrabble to my feet
anyway, hoping none of my foes will choose this moment to attack.
What is this?
What’s happening to Faris?
Tristas staggers up from where I left him, his face lit with frightening
intensity as he finds me. He means to end my life.
Faris’s chokes fade. He’s dying.
Consequences. There will be consequences.
Time shifts. The seconds stretch, each as long as an hour as I gaze at the
mayhem of the battlefield. Red Platoon follows my orders to injure only—and
we are suffering for it. Cyril is down. So is Darien. Every time one of my men
shows mercy to the enemy, one of their comrades falls, their life wrung out of
them by Augur devilry.
Consequences.
I look between Faris and Tristas. They came to Blackcliff when Helene and I
did. Tristas, dark-haired and wide-eyed, covered in bruises from the brutality of
initiation. Faris, starved and peaked, no hint of the humor and brawn he’d
possess later in life. Helene and I befriended them in our first week, all of us
defending each other as best as we could against our predatory classmates.
And now one of them will die. No matter what I do.
Tristas comes for me, tears streaking his mask. His black hair is covered in
mud, and his eyes burn with the panic of a cornered animal as he looks between
Faris and me.
“I’m sorry, Elias.”
He takes a step toward me, and suddenly, his body stiffens. The scim in his
hand tips into the mud as he peers down at the blade emerging from his chest.
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Then he slides to the wet ground, his gaze fixed on me.
Dex stands behind him, revulsion bursting from his eyes as he watches one of
his best friends die by his hand.
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