not speaking, rubbing her hand lightly against his chest. Noah leaned closer and
whispered in her ear.
"This reminds me of how we once were. When we were young."
She smiled, thinking the same thing, and they watched the fire and smoke, holding
each other.
"Noah, you've never asked, but I want you to
know something."
"What is it?"
Her voice was tender.
"There's never been another, Noah. You weren't just the first. You're the only man
I've ever been with. I don't expect you to say the same thing, but I wanted you to
know."
Noah was silent as he turned away. She felt warmer as she watched the fire. Her
hand ran over the muscles beneath his shirt, hard and firm as they leaned against
each other. She remembered when they'd held each other like this for what they'd
thought would be the last time. They were sitting on a sea wall designed to hold
back the waters of the Neuse River. She was crying because they might never see
each other again, and she wondered how she could ever be happy again. Instead of
answering, he pressed a note into her hand, which she read on the way home. She
had saved it, occasionally reading all of it or sometimes just a part. One part she'd
read at least a hundred times, and for some reason it ran through her head now. It
said:
The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe
they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this
one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been
forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this good‐bye is both a goodbye
for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come.
When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger
with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one
searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must
always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've
been forced to say good‐bye.
I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do
all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly good‐bye,
I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again,
and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will not only love each other in that
time, but for all the times we've had before.
Could it be? she wondered. Could he be right? She had never completely discounted
it, wanting to hold on to its promise in case it was true. The idea had helped her
through many hard times. But sitting here now seemed to test the theory that they
were destined to always be apart. Unless the stars had changed since they were last
together.
And maybe they had, but she didn't want to look. Instead she leaned into him and
felt the heat between them, felt his body, felt his arm tight around her. And her
body began to tremble with the same anticipation she had felt the first time they
were together.
It felt so right to be here. Everything felt right. The fire, the drinks, the storm‐‐it
couldn't have been more perfect. Like magic, it seemed, their years apart didn't
matter anymore.
Lightning cut the sky outside. Fire danced on white‐hot wood, spreading the heat.
October rain sheeted itself against the windows, drowning out all other sounds.
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