She made another turn and saw a young man unloading groceries from a truck that
blocked part of the street. Something about the way he held himself, or the way he
moved, reminded her of Noah harvesting crabs at the end of the dock.
She saw the inn just up the street while she was stopped at a red light. She took
a deep breath when the light turned green and drove slowly until she reached the
parking lot that the inn shared with a couple of other businesses. She turned in
and saw Lon's car sitting in the first spot. Although the one next to it was open,
she passed it and picked a spot a little farther from the entrance.
She turned the key, and the engine stopped promptly. Next she reached into the
glove compartment for a mirror and brush, finding both sitting on top of a map of
North Carolina. Looking at herself, she saw her eyes were still red and puffy. Like
yesterday after the rain, as she examined her reflection she was sorry she didn't
have any makeup, though she doubted it would help much now. She tried pulling
her hair back on one side, tried both sides, then finally gave up.
She reached for her pocketbook, opened it, and once again looked at the article
that had brought her here. So much had happened since then; it was hard to believe
it had been only three weeks. It felt impossible to her that she had arrived only the
day before yesterday. It seemed like a lifetime since her dinner with Noah.
Starlings chirped in the trees around her. The clouds had begun to break up now,
and Allie could see blue in between patches of white. The sun was still shaded, but
she knew it would only be a matter of time. It was going to be a beautiful day.
It was the kind of day she would have liked to spend with Noah, and as she was
thinking about him, she remembered the letters her mother had given her and
reached for them.
She untied the packet and found the first letter he had written her. She began to
open it, then stopped because she could imagine what was in it. Something simple,
no doubt‐‐things he'd done, memories of the summer, perhaps some questions.
After all, he probably expected an answer from her. Instead she reached for the last
letter he'd written, the one on the bottom of the stack. The good‐bye letter. This
one interested her far more than the others. How had he said it? How would she
have said it?
The envelope was thin. One, maybe two pages. Whatever he had written wasn't too
long. First, she turned it over and checked the back. No name, just a street address
in New Jersey. She held her breath as she used her fingernail to pry it open.
Unfolding it, she saw it was dated March 1935. Two and a half years without a reply.
She imagined him sitting at an old desk, crafting the letter, somehow knowing this
was the end, and she saw what she thought were tearstains on the paper. Probably
just her imagination.
She straightened the page and began to read in the soft white sunlight that shone
through the window.
My dearest Allie,
I don't know what to say anymore except that ! couldn't sleep last night because
I knew that it is over between us. It is a different feeling for me, one that I never
expected, but looking back, I suppose it couldn't have ended another way.
You and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the one
who taught me the value of love. You showed me what it was like to care for
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