endured earlier today, and yet the pain was inconsequential compared with the anguish of his life
before Opus Dei had saved him.
Still, the memories haunted his soul.
Release your hatred, Silas commanded himself.
Forgive those who trespassed against you.
Looking up at the stone towers of Saint-Sulpice, Silas fought that familiar undertow... that force
that often dragged his mind back in time, locking him once again in the prison that had been his
world as a young man. The memories of purgatory came as they always did, like a tempest to his
senses...
the reek of rotting cabbage, the stench of death, human urine and feces. The cries of
hopelessness against the howling wind of the Pyrenees and the soft sobs of forgotten men.
Andorra, he thought, feeling his muscles tighten.
Incredibly, it was in that barren and forsaken suzerain between Spain and France, shivering in his
stone cell, wanting only to die, that Silas had been saved.
He had not realized it at the time.
The light came long after the thunder.
His name was not Silas then, although he didn't recall the name his parents had given him. He had
left home when he was seven.
His drunken father, a burly dockworker, enraged by the arrival of an
albino son, beat his mother regularly, blaming her for the boy's embarrassing condition. When the
boy tried to defend her, he too was badly beaten.
One night, there was a horrific fight, and his mother never got up. The
boy stood over his lifeless
mother and felt an unbearable up-welling of guilt for permitting it to happen.
This is my fault!
As if some kind of demon were controlling his body, the boy walked to the kitchen and grasped a
butcher knife. Hypnotically, he moved to the bedroom where his father lay on the bed in a drunken
stupor. Without a word, the boy stabbed him in the back. His father cried out in pain and tried to
roll over,
but his son stabbed him again, over and over until the apartment fell quiet.
The boy fled home but found the streets of Marseilles equally unfriendly. His strange appearance
made him an outcast among the other young runaways, and he was forced to live alone in the
basement of a dilapidated factory, eating stolen fruit and raw fish from the dock. His only
companions were tattered magazines he found in the trash, and he taught himself to read them.
Over time, he grew strong.
When he was twelve, another drifter—a girl twice his age—mocked
him on the streets and attempted to steal his food. The girl found herself pummeled to within
inches of her life. When the authorities pulled the boy off her, they gave him an ultimatum—leave
Marseilles or go to juvenile prison.
The boy moved down the coast to Toulon. Over time, the looks of pity on the streets turned to
looks of fear. The boy had grown to a powerful young man. When people passed by, he could hear
them whispering to one another.
A ghost, they would say, their eyes wide
with fright as they stared
at his white skin.
A ghost with the eyes of a devil!
And he felt like a ghost... transparent... floating from seaport to seaport.
People seemed to look right through him.
At eighteen, in a port town, while attempting to steal a case of cured ham from a cargo ship, he was
caught by a pair of crewmen. The two sailors who began to beat him smelled of beer, just as his
father had. The memories of fear and hatred surfaced like a monster from the deep.
The young man
broke the first sailor's neck with his bare hands, and only the arrival of the police saved the second
sailor from a similar fate.
Two months later, in shackles, he arrived at a prison in Andorra.
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