23 ARNIE AND LEIGH
Ridin along in my automobile,
My baby beside me at the wheel,
I stole a kiss at the turn of a mile,
My curiosity running wild—
Cruisin and playin the radio,
With no particular place to go.
— Chuck Berry
WDIL was on the car radio and Dion was singing "Run-around Sue" in his
tough, streetwise voice, but neither of them was listening.
His hand had slipped up under the T-shirt she was wearing and had found the
soft glory of her breasts, capped with nipples that were tight and hard with
excitement. Her breath came in short, steep gasps. And for the first time her
hand had gone where he wanted it, where he
needed
it, into his lap, where it
pressed and turned and moved, without experience but with enough desire to
make up for the lack.
He kissed her and her mouth opened wide, her tongue Was there, and the kiss
was like inhaling the clean aroma/taste of a rain forest. He could feel
excitement and arousal coming off her like a glow.
He leaned toward her,
strained
toward her, all of him, and for a moment he
could feel her respond with a pure, clean passion.
Then she was gone.
Arnie sat there, dazed and stupefied, a little to the right of the steering wheel,
as Christine's dome-tight came on. It was brief; the passenger door clunked
solidly shut and the light clicked off again.
He sat a moment longer, not sure what had happened, momentarily not even
sure of where he was. His body was in a complete stew—a helter-skelter
array of emotions and erratic physical reactions that were half wonderful and
half terrible. His glands hurt; his penis was hard iron; his balls throbbed
dully. He could feel adrenalin whipping rapidly through his bloodstream, up
and down and all around.
He made a fist and brought it down on his leg, hard. Then he slid across the
seat, opened the door, and went after her.
Leigh was standing on the very edge of the Embankment, looking down into
the darkness. Within a bright rectangle in the middle of that darkness,
Sylvester Stallone strode across the night in the costume of a young labor
leader from the 1930s. Again Arnie had that feeling of living in some
marvelous dream that might at any moment skew off into nightmare…
perhaps it had already begun to happen.
She was too close to the edge—he took her arm and pulled her gently
backward. The ground up here was dry and crumbly. There was no fence or
guardrail. If the earth at the edge let go, Leigh would be gone; she would land
somewhere in the suburban development loosely scattered around the Liberty
Hill Drive-In.
The Embankment had been the local lovers' lane since time out of mind. It
was at the end of Stanson Road, a long, meandering stretch of two-lane
blacktop that first curved out of town and then hooked back toward it, dead-
ending on Libertyville Heights, where there had once been a farm.
It was November 4, and the rain that had begun earlier that Saturday night
had turned to a light sleet. They had the Embankment and the free (if silent)
view of the drive-in to themselves. He got her back into the car—she came
willingly enough—thinking it was sleet on her cheeks. It was only inside, by
the ghostly green glow of the dashboard lights, that he saw for sure she was
crying.
"What's the matter?" he asked. "What's wrong?"
She shook her head and cried harder.
"Did I was it something you didn't want to do?" He swallowed and made
himself say it. "Touch me like that?"
She shook her head again, but he wasn't sure what that meant. Arnie held her,
clumsy and worried. And in the back of his mind he was thinking about the
sleet, the trip back down, and the fact that he had no snow tires on Christine
as yet.
"I never did that for any boy," she said against his shoulder. "That's the first
time I ever touched… you know. I did it because I wanted to. Because I
wanted to, that's all."
"Then what is it?"
"I can't… here." The words came out slowly and painfully, one at a time,
with an almost awful reluctance.
"The Embankment?" Arnie said. gazing around, thinking stupidly that maybe
she thought he had really brought them up here so they would watch F.I.S.T
free.
"In this car!" she shouted at him suddenly. "I can't make love to you in this
car!"
"Huh?" He stared at her, thunderstruck. "What are you talking about? Why
not?"
"Because… because… I don't know!" She struggled to say something else
and then burst into fresh tears. Arnie held her again until she quieted.
"It's just that I don't know which you love more," Leigh said when she was
able.
"That's…" Arnie paused, shook his head, smiled. "Leigh, that's crazy."
"Is it?" she asked, searching his face. "Which of us do you spend more time
with? Me… or her?"
"You mean Christine?" He looked around him, smiling that puzzled smile that
she could find either lovely and lovable or horridly hateful—sometimes both
at once.
"Yes," she said tonelessly. "I do." She looked down at her hands, lying
lifelessly on her blue woollen slacks. "I suppose it's stupid."
"I spend a lot more time with you," Arnie said. He shook his head. "This is
crazy. Or maybe it's normal—maybe it just seems crazy to me because I
never had a girl before." He reached out and touched the fall of her hair
where it spilled over one shoulder of her open coat. The T-shirt beneath read
GIVE ME LIBERTYVILLE OR GIVE ME DEATH, and her nipples poked at
the thin cotton cloth in a sexy way that made Arnie feel a little delirious.
"I thought girls were supposed to be jealous of other girls. Not cars."
Leigh laughed shortly. "You're right. It must be because you've never had a
girl before. Cars are girls. Didn't you know that?"
"Oh, come, on—"
"Then why don't you call this Christopher?" And she suddenly slammed her
open palm down on the seat, hard. Arnie winced.
"Come on, Leigh. Don't."
"Don't like me slapping your girl? she asked with sudden and unexpected
venom. Then she saw the hurt look in his eyes. "Arnie, I'm sorry."
"Are you?" he asked, looking at her expressionlessly. "Seems like nobody
likes my car these days—you, my dad and mom, even Dennis. I worked my
ass off on it, and it means zero to everybody."
"It means something to me," she said softly. "The
effort
it took."
"Yeah," he said morosely. The passion, the heat, had fled. He felt cold and a
little sick to his stomach. "Look, we better get going. I don't have any snow
tires. Your folks'd think it was cute, us going bowling and then getting racked
up on Stanson Road."
She giggled. "They don't know where Stanson Road ends up.
He cocked an eyebrow at her, some of his good humor returning. "That's what
you
think," he said.
He drove back down toward town slowly, and Christine managed the
twisting, steeply descending road with easy surefootedness. The sprinkle of
earth-stars that was Libertyville and Monroeville grew larger and drew
closer together and then ceased to have any pattern at all. Leigh watched this
a little sadly, feeling that the best part of potentially wondei7ful evening had
somehow slipped away. She felt irritated, chafed, out of sorts with herself—
unfulfilled, she supposed. There was a dull ache in her breasts. She didn't
know if she had meant to let him go what was euphemistically known as "all
the way" or not, but after things had reached a certain point, nothing had gone
as she had hoped… all because she had to open her big fat mouth.
Her body was in a mess, and her thoughts were the same way. Again and
again on the mostly silent drive back down she opened her mouth to try to
clarify how she felt and then closed it again, afraid of being misunderstood,
because she didn't understand how she felt herself.
She didn't feel jealous of Christine… and yet she did. About that Arnie hadn't
told the truth. She had a good idea of how much time he spent tinkering on the
car, but was that so wrong? He was good with his hands, he liked to work on
it, and it ran like a watch except for that funny little glitch with the odometer
numbers running backward.
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