Part of him seemed to flinch at that—something that was maybe only in his
eyes—but the contemptuous, watchful smile remained on his lips. It was cold
out. I hadn't put on my gloves, and my hands, on the crossbars of the crutches,
were getting numb. Our breath made little plumes.. "Or what about in the fifth
grade, when Tommy Deckinger used to call you Fart-Breath?" I asked, my
voice rising. Getting angry at him hadn't been part of the game-plan, but now
it was here, shaking inside me. "Did you like that? And do you remember
when Ladd Smythe was a patrol-boy and he pushed you down in the street
and I pulled his hat off and stuffed it down his pants? Where you been,
Arnie? This guy LeBay is a Johnny-come-lately. Me, I was here all along."
That flinch again. This time he half-turned away, the smile faltering, his eyes
searching for Christine the way your eyes might search for a loved one in a
crowded terminal or bus-station. Or the way a junkie might took for his
pusher.
"You need her that bad?" I asked. "Man, you're hooked right through the
fucking bag, aren't you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about," he said hoarsely. "You stole my girl.
Nothing is going to change that. You went behind my back… you cheated…
you're just a
shitter
, like all the rest of them." He was looking at me now, his
eyes wide and hurt and blazing with anger. "I thought I could trust you, and
you turned out to be worse than Repperton or
any
of them!" He took a step
toward me and cried out in a perfect fury of loss, "
You stole her, you
shitter!
"
I lurched forward another step on my crutches; one of them slid a little bit in
the packed snow underfoot. We were like two reluctant gunslingers
approaching each other.
"You can't steal what's been given away," I said.
"What are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about the night she choked in your car. The night Christine tried
to kill her. You told her you didn't need her. You told her to fuck off."
"
I never did! That's a lie! That's a goddam lie!
"
"Who am I talking to?" I asked.
"Never mind!" His gray eyes were huge behind his spectacles. "Never mind
who the fuck you're talking to! That's nothing but a dirty lie! No more than I'd
expect from that stinking bitch!"
Another step closer. His pale face was marked with flaring red patches of
color.
"When you write your name, it doesn't look like your signature anymore,
Arnie."
"You shut up, Dennis."
"Your father says it's like having a stranger in the house."
"I'm warning you, man."
"Why bother?" I asked brutally. "I know what's going to happen. So does
Leigh. The same thing that happened to Buddy Repperton and Will Darnell
and all the others. Because you're not Arnie at all anymore. Are you in there,
LeBay? Come on out and let me see you. I've seen you before. I saw you on
New Year's Eve, I saw you yesterday at the chicken place.
I know you're in
there; why don't you stop fucking around and come out?"
And he did but in Arnie's face this time, and that was more terrible than all
the skulls and skeletons and comic-book horrors ever thought of. Arnie's face
changed
. A sneer bloomed on his lips like a rancid rose. And I saw him as
he must have been back when the world was young and a car was all a young
man needed to have; everything else would just automatically follow. I saw
George LeBay's big brother.
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