49 ARNIE
I was cruising in my Stingray late one night
When an XKE pulled up on the right,
He rolled down the window of his shiny new Jag
And challenged me then and there to a drag.
I said "You're on, buddy, my mill's runnin fine,
Let's come off the line at Sunset and Vine,
But I'll go you one better (if you got the nerve):
Let's race all the way…
to Deadman's Curve."
— Jan and Dean
I began that long, terrible day by driving over to Jimmy Sykes's house in my
Duster. I had expected there might be some trouble from Jimmy's mother, but
that turned out to be okay. She was, if anything, mentally slower than her son.
She invited me in for bacon and eggs (I declined—my stomach was tied in
miserable knots) and clucked over my crutches while Jimmy hunted around in
his room for his keyring. I made small-talk with Mrs Sykes, who was roughly
the size of Mount Etna, while time passed and a dismal certainty rose inside
me: Jimmy had lost his keys somewhere and the whole thing was off the rails
before it could really begin.
He came back shaking his head. "Can't find 'em," he said, "Jeez, I guess I
must have lost 'em somewhere. What a bummer."
And Mrs Sykes, nearly three hundred pounds on the hoof in a faded
housedress and her hair up in puffy pink rollers, said with blessed
practicality, "Did you look in your pockets, Jim?"
A startled expression crossed Jimmy's face. He rammed a hand into the
pocket of his green chino workpants. Then, with a shamefaced grin, he pulled
out a bunch of keys. They were on one of the keyrings they sell at the novelty
shop in the Monroeville Mall—a large rubber fried egg. The egg was dark
with grease.
"There you are, you little suckers," he said.
"You watch your language, young man," Mrs Sykes said. "Just show Dennis
which key it is that opens the door and keep your dirty language in your
head."
Jimmy ended up handing three Schlage keys over to me, because they weren't
labelled and he couldn't tell which was which. One of them opened the main
overhead door, one opened the back overhead door, the one which gave on
the long lot of junked cars, and one opened the door to Will's office.
"Thanks," I said. "I'll have these back to you just as soon as I can, Jimmy."
"Great," Jimmy said. "Say hello to Arnie when you see him."
"You bet," I said.
"You sure you don't want some bacon and eggs, Dennis?" Mrs Sykes asked.
"There's plenty."
"Thanks," I said, "but I really ought to get going." It was a quarter past eight;
school started at nine. Arnie usually pulled in around eight-forty-five, Leigh
had told me. I just had time. I got my crutches under me and got to my feet.
"Help him out, Jim," Mrs Sykes commanded. "Don't just stand there."
I started to protest and she waved me away. "Wouldn't want you to fall on
your can getting back to your car, Dennis. Might break your leg all over
again." She laughed uproariously at this, and Jimmy, the soul of obedience,
practically carried me back to my Duster.
The sky that day was a scummy, frowsy gray, and the radio was predicting
more snow by late afternoon. I drove across town to Libertyville High, took
the driveway which led to the student parking lot, and parked in the front
row. I didn't need Leigh to tell me that Arnie usually parked in the back row.
I had to see him, had to strew the bait in front of his nose, but I wanted him as
far from Christine as possible when I did it. Away from the car, LeBay's hold
seemed weaker.
I sat with the key turned over to ACCESSORY for the radio and looked at the
football field. It seemed impossible that I had ever traded sandwiches with
Arnie on those snowcovered bleachers. Impossible to believe that I had run
and cavorted on that field myself, dressed up in padding, helmet, and tight
pants, stupidly convinced of my own physical invulnerability… perhaps even
of my own immortality.
I didn't feel that way anymore, if I ever had.
Students were coming in, parking their cars, and heading for the building,
chattering and laughing and horsing around. I slouched lower in my seat, not
wanting to be recognized. A bus pulled up at the doors in the main turnaround
and disgorged a load of kids. A small cluster of shivering boys and girls
gathered out in the smoking area where Buddy had taken Arnie on that day
last fall. That day also seemed impossibly distant now.
My heart was thumping in my chest and I was miserably tense. A craven part
of me hoped that Arnie simply wouldn't show up. And then I saw the familiar
white-over-red shape of Christine turn in from School Street and cruise up
the student drive, moving at a steady twenty, blowing a little plume of white
exhaust from her pipe. Arnie was behind the wheel, wearing his school
jacket. He didn't look at me; he simply drove to his accustomed place at the
back of the lot and parked.
Just stay slouched down and he won't even see you
, that craven, traitorous
part of my mind whispered.
He'll walk right by you, like all the rest of them.
Instead, I opened my door and fumbled my crutches outside. Leaning my
weight on them, I yanked myself out and stood there on the packed snow of
the parking lot, feeling a little bit like Fred MacMurray in that old picture
Double Indemnity
. From the school came the burring of the first bell, made
faint and unimportant by distance—Arnie was later than he had been in the
old days. My mother had said that Arnie was almost disgustingly punctual.
Maybe LeBay hadn't been.
He came toward me, books under his arm, head down twisting in and out
between the cars. He walked behind a van, passing out of my sight
temporarily, and then came back into view. He looked up then, directly into
my eyes.
Ms own eyes widened, and he made an automatic half-turn back toward
Christine.
"Feel kind of naked when you're not behind the wheel?" I asked.
He looked back at me. His lips drew slightly downward, as if he bad tasted
something of unpleasant flavor.
"How's your cunt, Dennis?" he asked.
George LeBay hadn't said, but he had at least hinted that his brother was
extraordinarily good at getting through to people, finding their soft spots.
I took two shuffling steps forward on my crutches while he stood there,
smiling with the corners of his mouth down.
"How did you like it when Repperton called you Cuntface?" I asked him.
"Did you like it so well you want to turn it around and use it on somebody
else?"
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