44 DETECTIVE WORK
Well, when the pipeline gets broken
And I'm lost on the river-bridge,
I'm all cracked up on the highway
And in the water's edge,
Medics come down the Thruway,
Ready to sew me up with the thread,
And if I fall down dyin
Y'know she's
bound
to put a blanket
on my bed.
—
Bob Dylan
What happened in the next three weeks or so was that Leigh and I played
detective, and we fell in love.
She went down to the Municipal Offices the next day and paid fifty cents to
have two papers xeroxed—those papers got to Harrisburg, but Harrisburg
sends a copy back to the town.
This time my family was home when Leigh arrived. Ellie peeked in on us
whenever she got the chance. She was fascinated by Leigh. and I was quietly
amused when, about a week into the new year, she started wearing her hair
tied back as Leigh did. I was tempted to get on her case about it… and
withstood the temptation. Maybe I was growing up a little bit (but not enough
to keep from sneaking one of her Yodels when I saw one hidden behind the
Tupperware bowls of leftovers in the refrigerator).
Except for Ellie's occasional peeks, we had the living room mostly to
ourselves that next afternoon, the 27th of December, after the social amenities
had been observed. I introduced Leigh to my mother and father, my mom
served coffee, and we talked. Elaine talked the most—chattering about her
school and asking Leigh all sorts of questions about ours. At first I was
annoyed, and then I was grateful. Both my parents are the soul of middle-
class politeness (if my mom was being led to the electric chair and bumped
into the chaplain, she would excuse herself), and I felt pretty clearly that they
liked Leigh, but it was also obvious—to me, at least—that they were puzzled
and a little uncomfortable, wondering where Arnie fitted into all this.
Which was what Leigh and I were wondering ourselves, I guess. Finally they
did what parents usually do when they're puzzled in such situations—they
dismissed it as kid business and went about their own business. Dad excused
himself first, saying that his workshop in the basement was in its usual post-
Christmas shambles and he ought to start doing something about it. Mom said
she wanted to do some writing.
Ellie looked at me solemnly and said, "Dennis, did Jesus have a dog?"
I cracked up and so did Ellie, Leigh sat watching us laugh, smiling politely
the way outsiders do when it's a family joke.
"Split, Ellie," I said.
"What'll you do if I won't?" she asked, but it was only routine brattiness; she
was already getting up.
"Make you wash my underwear," I said.
"The hell you
will
!" Ellie declared grandly, and left the room.
"My little sister," I said.
Leigh was smiling. "She's great."
"If you had to live with her full-time you might change your mind. Let's see
what you've got."
Leigh put one of the Xerox copies on the glass coffee table where the pieces
of my casts had been yesterday.
It was the re-registration of a used car, 1958 Plymouth sedan (4-door), red
and white. It was dated November 1, 1978, and signed Arnold Cunningham.
His father had co-signed for him:
"What does that look like to you?" I asked.
"One of the signatures on one of the squares you showed me," she said.
"Which one?"
"It's the one he signed just after I got crunched in Ridge Rock," I said. "It's the
way his signature always looked. Now let's see the other one."
She put it down beside the first. This was a registration slip for a new car,
1958 Plymouth sedan (4-door), red and white. It was dated November 1,
1957—I felt a nasty jolt at that exact similarity, and one look at Leigh's face
told me she had seen it too.
"Look at the signature," she said quietly.
I did.
This was the handwriting Arnie had used on Thanksgiving evening, you didn't
have to be a genius or a handwriting expert to see that. The names were
different, but the writing was exactly the same.
Leigh reached for my hands, and I took hers.
What my father did in his basement workshop was make toys. I suppose that
might sound a little weird to you, but it's his hobby, Or maybe something
more than a hobby—I think there might have been a time in his life when he
had to make a difficult choice between going to college and going out on his
own to become a toymaker. If that's true, then I guess he chose the safe way.
Sometimes I think I see it in his eyes, like an old ghost not quite laid to rest,
but that is probably only my imagination, which used to be a lot less active
than it is now.
Ellie and I were the chief beneficiaries, but Arnie had also found some of my
father's toys under various Christmas trees and beside various birthday
cakes, as had Ellie's closest childhood friend Aimee Carruthers (long since
moved to Nevada and now referred to in the doleful tones reserved for those
who have died young and senselessly) and many other chums.
Now my dad gave most of what he made to the Salvation Army 400 Fund,
and before Christmas the basement always reminded me of Santa's workshop
—until just before Christmas it would be filled with neat white cardboard
cartons containing wooden trains, little tool-chests., Erector-set clocks that
really kept time, stuffed animals, a small puppet theatre or two. His main
interest was in wooden toys (up until the Vietnam war he had made battalions
of toy soldiers, but in the last five years or so they had been quietly phased
out—even now I'm not sure he was aware he was doing it), but like a good
spray hitter, my dad went to all fields. During the week after Christmas there
was a hiatus. The workshop would seem terribly empty, with only the sweet
smell of sawdust to remind us that the toys had ever been there.
In that week he would sweep, clean, oil his machinery, and get ready for next
year. Then, as the winter wore on through January and February, the toys and
the seeming junk that would become parts of toys would begin appearing
again—trains and joined wooden ballerinas with red spots of color on their
cheeks, a box of stuffing raked out of someone's old couch that would later
end in a bear's belly (my father called every one of his bears Owen or Olive
—I had worn out six Owen Bears between infancy and second grade, and
Ellie had worn out a like number of Olive Bears), little snips of wire,
buttons, and flat, disembodied eyes scattered across the worktable like
something out of a pulp horror story. Last, the liquor-store boxes would
appear, and the toys would again be packed into them.
In the last three years he had gotten three awards from the Salvation Army,
but he kept them hidden away in a drawer, as if he was ashamed of them. I
didn't understand it then and don't now—not completely—but I know it
wasn't shame. My father had nothing to be ashamed of.
I worked my way down that evening after supper, clutching the bannister
madly with one arm and using my other crutch like a ski-pole.
"Dennis," he said, pleased but slightly apprehensive. "You need any help?"
"No, I got it."
He put his broom aside by a small yellow drift of shavings and watched to
see if I was really going to make it. "How about a push, then?"
"Ha-ha, very funny."
I got down, semi-hopped over to the big easy chair my father keeps in the
corner beside our old Motorola black-and-white, and sat down.
Plonk.
"How you doing?" he asked.
"Pretty good."
He brushed up a dustpanful of shavings, dumped them into his wastebarrel,
sneezed, and brushed up some more. "No pain?"
"No. Well… some."
"You want to be careful of stairs. If your mother had seen what you just did
—"
I grinned. "She'd scream, yeah."
"Where
is
your mother?"
"She and Ellie went over to the Rennekes". Dina Renneke got a complete
library of Shaun Cassidy albums for Christmas. Ellie is
green.
"
"I thought Shaun was out," my father said.
"I think she's afraid fashion might be doubling back on her."
Dad laughed. Then there was a companionable silence for a while, me
sitting, him sweeping. I knew he'd get around to it, and presently he did.
"Leigh," he said, "used to go with Arnie, didn't she?"
"Yes," I said.
He glanced at me, then down at his work again. I thought he would ask me if I
thought that was wise, or maybe mention that one fellow stealing another
fellow's girl was not the best way to promote friendship and accord. But he
said neither of those things.
"We don't see much of Arnie anymore. Do you suppose he's ashamed of the
mess he's in?"
I had the feeling that my father didn't believe that at all; that he was simply
testing the wind.
"I don't know," I said.
"I don't think he has much to worry about. With Darnell dead"—he tipped his
dustpan into the barrel and the shavings slid in with a soft
flump
—"I doubt if
they'll even bother to prosecute."
"No?"
"Not Arnie. Not on anything serious. He may be fined, and the judge will
probably lecture him, but nobody wants to put an indelible black mark on the
record of a nice young suburban white boy who is bound for college and a
fruitful place in society."
He shot me a sharp questioning look, and I shifted in the chair, suddenly
uncomfortable.
"Yeah, I suppose."
"Except he's not really like that anymore, is he, Dennis?"
"No. He's changed."
"When was the last time you actually saw him?"
"Thanksgiving."
Was he okay then?"
I shook my head slowly, suddenly feeling like crying and blurting it all out. I
had felt that way once before and hadn't; I didn't this time, either, but for a
different reason. I remembered what Leigh had said, about being nervous for
her parents on Christmas Eve. And it seemed to me now that the fewer the
people who knew about our suspicions, the safer for them.
"What's wrong with him?"
"I don't know."
"Does Leigh?"
"No. Not for sure. We have… some suspicions."
"Do you want to talk about them?"
"Yes. In a way I do. But I think it would be better if I didn't."
"All right," he said. "For now."
He swept the floor. The sound of the hard bristles on the concrete was almost
hypnotic.
"And maybe you had better talk to Arnie before too much longer."
"Yeah. I was thinking about that." But it wasn't an interview I looked forward
to.
There was another period of silence. Dad finished sweeping and then
glanced around. "Looks pretty good, huh?"
"Great, Dad."
He smiled a little sadly and lit a Winston. Since his heart attack he had given
the butts up almost completely, but kept a pack around, and every now and
then he'd have one—usually when he felt under stress. "Bullshit. It looks
empty as hell."
"Well… yeah."
"You want a hand upstairs, Dennis?"
I got my crutches under me. "I wouldn't turn it down." He looked at me and
snickered. "Long John Silver. All you need is the parrot."
"Are you going to stand there giggling or give me a hand?"
"Give you a hand, I guess."
I slung an arm over his shoulder, feeling somehow like a little kid again—it
brought back almost forgotten memories of him carrying me upstairs to bed
on Sunday nights, after I started to doze off halfway through the
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