CHRISTINE—TEENAGE DEATH-SONGS
43 LEIGH COMES TO VISIT
James Dean in that Mercury '49,
Junior Johnson Bonner through the woods o' Caroline
Even Burt Reynolds in that black Trans-Am,
All gonna meet down at the Cadillac Ranch.
— Bruce Springsteen
About fifteen minutes before Leigh was due, I got my crutches under me and
worked my way to the chair closest the door, so she'd be sure to hear me
when I hollered for her to come in. Then I picked up my copy of
Esquire
again and turned back to an article reading "The Next Vietnam," which was
part of a school assignment. I still had no success reading it. I was nervous
and scared, and part of it—a lot of it, I guess—was simple eagerness. I
wanted to see her again.
The house was empty. Not too long after Leigh called that stormy Christmas
Eve afternoon, I got my dad aside and asked him if he could maybe take Mom
and Elaine someplace the afternoon of the twenty-sixth.
"Why not?" he agreed amiably enough.
"Thanks, Dad."
"Sure. But you owe me one, Dennis."
"Dad!"
He winked solemnly. "I'll scratch your back if you'll scratch mine."
"Nice guy," I said.
"A real prince," he agreed.
My dad, who is no slouch, asked me if it had to do with Arnie. "She's his
girl, isn't she?"
"Well," I said, not sure just what the situation was, and uncomfortable for
reasons of my own, "she has been. I don't know about now."
"Problems?"
"I didn't do such a hot job being his eyes, did I?"
"It's hard to see from a hospital bed, Dennis. I'll see you mother and Ellie are
out Tuesday afternoon. Just be careful, okay?"
Since then, I've pondered exactly what he might have meant by that; he surely
couldn't have been worried about me trying to jump Leigh's bones, with one
upper leg still in plaster and a half-cast on my back. I think maybe he was
just afraid that something had gotten terribly out of whack, with my old
childhood friend suddenly a stranger, and a stranger who was out on bail at
that.
I sure thought something was out of whack, and it scared the piss out of me.
The
Keystone
doesn't publish on Christmas, but all three Pittsburgh network-
TV affiliates and both the independent channels had the story of what had
happened to Will Darnell, along with bizarre and frightening pictures of his
house. The side facing the road had been demolished. It was the only word
which fit. That side of the house looked as if some mad Nazi had driven a
Panzer tank through it. The story had been headlined this morning—FOUL
PLAY SUSPECTED IN BIZARRE DEATH OF SUSPECTED CRIME
FIGURE. That was bad enough, even without another picture of Will
Darnell's house with that big hole punched in the side. But you had to check
page three to get the rest of it. The other item was smaller because Will
Darnell had been a "suspected crime figure", and Don Vandenberg had only
been a dipshit dropout gas-jockey.
SERVICE STATION ATTENDANT KILLED IN CHRISTMAS EVE HIT-
AND-RUN, this headline read. A single column followed. The story ended
with the Libertyville Chief of Police theorizing that the driver had probably
been drunk or stoned. Neither he nor the
Keystone
made any attempt to
connect the deaths, which had been separated by almost ten miles on the night
of a screaming blizzard which had stopped all traffic in Ohio and western
Pennsylvania. But I could make connections. I didn't want to, but I couldn't
help it. And hadn't my father been looking at me strangely several times
during the morning? Yes. Once or twice it had seemed he would say
something—I had no idea what I would say if he did; Will Darnell's death,
bizarre as it had been, was nowhere nearly as bizarre as my suspicions. Then
he had closed his mouth without speaking. That, to be up front about it, was
something of a relief.
The doorbell chimed at two past two.
"Come on in!" I yelled, getting up on my crutches again anyway.
The door opened and Leigh poked her head in. "Dennis?"
"Yeah. Come on in."
She did, looking very pretty in a bright red ski parka and dark blue pants. She
pushed the parka's fur-edged hood back.
"Sit down, she said, unzipping her parka. "Go on, right now, that's an order.
You look like a big dumb stork on those things."
"Keep it up," I said, sitting down again with an ungainly plop. When you're
cast in plaster, it's never like in the movies; you never sit down like Cary
Grant getting ready to have cocktails at the Ritz with Ingrid Bergman. It all
happens at once, and if the cushion you land on doesn't give out a big loud
raspberry, as if your sudden descent had scared you into cutting the cheese,
you count yourself ahead of the game. This time I got lucky. "I'm such a
sucker for flattery that I make myself sick."
"How are you, Dennis?"
"Mending," I said." How about you?"
"I've been better," she said in a low voice, and bit at her lower lip. This can
sometimes be a seductive gesture on a girl's part, but it wasn't this time.
"Hang up your coat and sit down yourself."
"Okay." Her eyes touched mine, and looking at them was a little much. I
looked someplace else, thinking about Arnie.
She hung her coat up and came back into the living room slowly. "Your folks
—"
"I got my father to take everyone out," I said. "I thought maybe" I shrugged
—"we ought to talk just between ourselves."
She stood by the sofa, looking at me across the room. I was struck again by
the simplicity of her good looks her lovely girl's figure outlined in dark blue
pants and a sweater of light, powdery blue, an outfit that made me think about
skiing. Her hair was tied in a loose pigtail and lay over her left shoulder. Her
eyes were the color of her sweater, maybe a little darker. A cornfed
American beauty, you would have said, except for the high cheekbones,
which seemed a little arrogant, bespeaking some older, more exotic heritage
—maybe some fifteen or twenty generations back there was a Viking in the
woodpile.
Or maybe that isn't what I was thinking at all.
She saw me looking at her too long and blushed. I looked away.
"Dennis, are you worried about him?"
"Worried? Scared might be a better word.
"What do you know about that car? What has he told you?"
"Not much," I said. "Look, would you like something to drink? There's some
stuff in the fridge I felt for my crutches.
"Sit still," she said. "I would like something, but I'll get it. What about you?"
"I'll take a ginger ale, if there's one left."
She went into the kitchen and I watched her shadow on the wall, moving
lightly, like a dancer. There was a momentary added weight in my stomach,
almost like a sickness. There's a name for that sort of sickness. I think it's
called failing in love with your best friend's girl.
"You've got an automatic ice-maker." Her voice floated back. "We've got one
too. I love it."
"Sometimes it goes crazy and sprays ice-cubes all over the floor," I said. "It's
like Jimmy Cagney in
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