Marcus luttrell

Now, how the hell would Morgan get out of this? What would he do?
And 
it gave me strength, the massive strength of my seven-minutes-older brother. I decided that in 
this position, he’d wait till he saw the whites of their eyes. No mistakes. So I crawled behind this 
big rock, checked my magazine, then flipped off the safety catch of my Mark 12. And waited. 
I heard them coming but not until they were very, very close. They were not together, which was 
unnerving, because I could not account for them all. But I could see the spotter now, the guy who 
was literally tracking me down, not trying to shoot me; he didn’t even carry a rifle. His job was 
to locate me and then call the others to bring fire down on me. Cheeky little prick. 
But it’s the Afghan way. This Sharmak was an excellent delegator. One guy carries the water, 
another the extra ammunition, and the marksmen don’t have to spend their time searching the 
terrain. They have a specialist to do this. 
This particular specialist was not having much trouble tracking me, probably because I was 
leaving tracks like a wounded grizzly, scuffing up the ground and bleeding like a stuck pig from 
both my forehead and my thigh all over the shale. 
I moved carefully on my knees around the rock, now with my rifle raised, and there was the 
Taliban spotter standing right in front of me, not ten feet away — but he had not spotted me. 
In that instant I fired, dropped him dead in his tracks. And the force of the bullet knocked him 
backward, with blood pumping out of his chest. I think I got him straight through the heart, and I 
heard him hit the deck. But simultaneously right behind me I heard the soft footsteps of the 
chasing gunmen. I turned around and there were two of them, just above me in the rocks. 
Searching. I had only split seconds to work, because they were both on me, AKs raised. Fuck! I 
could get one, but not both. 
I went for one of my grenades, ripped out the pin, and threw it straight at them. I think they got a 
couple of shots away but not in time to get me before I plunged back behind the rock. This was 
up close and personal, not five feet between us. I was just imploring the Lord to let my grenade 
explode, and it did, blasting the two Afghans to smithereens, splitting rocks, sending up a 
sandstorm of earth and sand. Me? I just kept my head well down and hoped to Christ there were 
no more of them. 
It was around this time I began to black out a little, not from the blast of the grenade, just a 
general blacking-out situation. Everything was catching up with me, and as I lay there waiting 
for the debris to stop falling out of the sky, I started to feel pretty rotten, dizzy, unsure of myself, 
shaky. I think I hung around down there behind the rock for a few minutes before I ventured out, 
still crawling, trying to see if the other Taliban guys were following. But there was nothing. 

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Obviously, I had to get away from here, because that explosion from the grenade must have 
attracted some attention somewhere. I sat there for a few more minutes, marveling at the silence, 
and pondered the world. And the conclusion I reached was I needed to learn to fight all over 
again, not like a Navy SEAL, but like a secretive Afghan mountain man. At least, if I planned to 
stay alive. 
The last hour had taught me a few major lessons, the main one being I must gain the ability to 
fight alone, in direct contrast to everything I had ever been taught. SEALs, as you now know, 
fight in teams, only in teams, each man relying entirely on the others to do exactly the right 
thing. That’s how we do it, fighting as one in a team of four or maybe ten or even twenty, but 
always as one unit, one mind, one strategy. We are, instinctively, always backing up, always 
covering, always moving to plug the gap or pave the way. That’s what makes us great. 
But up here, being hunted down, all alone — this was entirely another game. And first I had to 
learn to move like an Afghan mountain man, stealthily, staying out of sight, making no sound, 
causing no disturbance. Of course, we had learned all that back in California, but not on the 
heightened scale which was required up here, against a native enemy even more stealthy, quiet, 
and unseen than we are. 
Crawling around on all fours was not going to help. I had to concentrate, work myself into the 
correct military position before I pounced on my prey. I had to conserve ammunition, make 
certain I was going to kill before I carried out the deed, and above all try to stay out of sight and 
not betray myself by lumbering around like the wounded grizzly I was. 
I resolved that when I next had to strike out against my enemy, it would be with our customary 
deadly force, always ensuring I held the element of surprise. Those are the tactics that invariably 
win conflicts for the truly ruthless underdog like the mujahideen, al Qaeda, and, from now on, 
me. 
I dragged myself back up onto my hands and knees. I listened carefully, like an eager hound dog, 
turning my head sideways to the wind. Nothing. Not a sound. Maybe they’d given up or perhaps 
they considered I was probably dead. Either way I was out of there. 
With my rifle jammed in my belt I began moving west, toward the water. It was still way below 
me, and since I was trying to avoid falling down this freakin’ mountain again, I would zigzag my 
way down the steep slopes until I found it. 
I’ve long lost count of the distance, but it felt like three or four miles, crawling along, resting, 
praying, hoping, trying my best, just like Hell Week. I think I did black out two or three times. 
But finally I heard the waterfall. I heard it hissing in the afternoon sun, tumbling off a high rock 
and into a deep pool before running down to the lower levels of the stream. 
Somehow I arrived right on the top of that waterfall, maybe twenty feet above the flow. It really 
was beautiful, the sun glinting on the surface and all around it the trees on the mountain, high 
above the valley, on the edge of which was an Afghan village, way, way below me, maybe a 
mile. 

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For the first time for as long as I could remember, no one was trying to hunt me down. I could 
hear nothing, I could see no one, everything seemed tranquil. I’d plainly taken out the scouting 
party, because if there’d been anyone sneaking along behind me, I’d have heard it, believe me. I 
might not yet move like a tribesman, but I had developed the hearing of one. 
I’d been without water for so long, I figured another half a minute would not make much 
difference, and so I pulled out my rifle scope to take a look down at the village from this 
excellent vantage point. I forced myself up, hanging on to a rock with my left hand, right above 
the water. 
The view from there was outstanding, and I could see the village, its upper houses clinging to the 
mountain, built right into the rock face by guys who were obviously craftsmen. It was like 
something out of a child’s picture book, like the home of the wicked witch or something, 
gingerbread houses on a big rock-candy mountain. 
I put the scope away, and, not daring to look at the state of my left leg, I took a step forward, 
trying to find a spot where I could begin to slide down on my backside to the waiting ice-cold 
pool below me. That’s when that left leg finally gave way. Perhaps it was the newly shot part, or 
maybe the blown-up parts, or just the tendons which could take no more strain. But that leg 
buckled and flung me forward, really badly. 
I twisted and fell headlong downward, sliding over loose, smooth ground, shale and sand, 
gaining speed rapidly, tumbling over, feet in the air, sometimes digging the toes of my boots in, 
fighting for a foothold, any hold would be fine. I rocketed straight past that lower pool and kept 
right on going. I can’t even imagine the speed I was going, but I could see it was a hell of a long 
way to the bottom, and I could not stop. 
Up ahead of me was a sapling, and I lunged at it as I shot headlong past, trying to get a hold of 
anything to slow me down. My fingers closed on its thin, whippy trunk and I tried to pull myself 
up, but I was just going too fast, and it flipped me right over and landed me on my back. For a 
fleeting moment, I thought I was dead. 
Didn’t make much difference whether I was dead or alive, my battered body just kept going for 
almost a thousand feet, then the mountain kind of swerved and I went with it, tumbling and 
sliding for another five hundred feet to what was more or less the bottom of that escarpment. I 
landed in a heap, feeling like I’d broken every bone in my body. I was out of breath, blood was 
trickling down my face from the cut on my forehead, and I generally felt just about as sorry for 
myself as it’s possible to be. 
You’re probably not going to believe this, but my rifle was again right beside me, and once more 
it was the thirst that saved me. Instead of just lying there, a bloodstained heap in the hot 
afternoon sun, I thought of that water, now right above me. At least it had been when I’d flashed 
past it a few moments ago. 
I knew I had to climb back up there or die. So I grabbed my rifle and began the long crawl to the 
drink that should restore my life. I scrambled and slipped over the loose ground, and I am certain 
by now you have comprehended what a truly horrible mountaineer I am. I can only plead the 

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gradient. It was unbelievably steep, not quite sheer but almost. A great rock climber would 
probably have taken full gear in order to scale it. 
Personally I’m not sure which I was worse at, going up or falling down. But it was two hundred 
feet to that water. It took me two more hours. I blacked out twice, and when I reached it, I 
plunged my head in, just to free up my tongue and throat. Then I washed my burning face, 
cleaned the gash just below my hairline, and tried to get the blood to wash off the back of my 
leg. I couldn’t tell whether the sniper’s bullet was still lodged in there or not. 
All I knew was I needed to drink a lot of water and then try to attract attention and get to a 
hospital. Otherwise I did not think I would survive. I decided to move up a few yards to where 
the water was lapping off a rock and splashing into a small pool. I lowered my head and drank. It 
was the sweetest water I had ever tasted. 
And I was just getting into this real luxury when I noticed there were three guys standing right 
above me, two of them with AKs. For a moment I thought I was hallucinating. I stopped 
drinking. And I remember I was talking to myself, just mumbling really, flicking between reality 
and dream. 
Then I realized one of them was yelling at me, shouting something I was supposed to understand, 
but in my befuddled state I just couldn’t get it. I was like a badly wounded animal, ready to fight 
to the end. I understood nothing, not the hand of friendship, not the possibility of human 
decency. The only sensation I could react to was threat. And everything was a threat. Cornered. 
Scared. Suddenly afraid of dying. Ready to lash out at anything. That was me. 
The only thought I had was