I only remember one thing about him, but I remember that one thing very
well His anger. He was always angry.
He came toward me, closing the distance between where he had been and
where I stood propped on my crutches. His eyes were filmy and beyond all
reach. That sneer was stamped on his face like the mark of a branding-iron.
I had time to think of the scar on George LeBay's forearm, skidding from his
elbow to his wrist.
He pushed me and then he came back and threw me
. I
could hear that fourteen-year-old LeBay shouting,
You stay out of my way
from now on, you goddam snotnose, stay out of my way, you hear?
It was LeBay I was facing now, and he was not a man who took losing easily.
Check that: he didn't take losing at all.
"Fight him, Arnie," I said. "He's had his own way too long. Fight him, kill
him, make him stay d—"
He swung his foot and kicked my right crutch out from under me. I struggled
to stay up, tottered, almost made it… and then he kicked the left crutch away.
I fell down on the cold packed snow. He took another step and stood above
me, his face hard and alien.
"You got it coming, and you're going to get it," he said remotely.
"Yeah, right," I gasped. "You remember the ant farms, Arnie? Are you in
there someplace? This dirty sucker never had a fucking ant farm in his life.
He never had a
friend
in his life."
And suddenly the calm hardness broke. His face—his face
roiled
. I don't
know how else to describe it. LeBay was there, furious at having to put down
a kind of internal mutiny. Then Arnie was there—drawn, tired, ashamed, but,
most of all, desperately unhappy. Then LeBay again, and his foot drew back
to kick me as I lay on the snow groping for my crutches and feeling helpless
and useless and dumb. Then it was Arnie again, my friend Arnie, brushing his
hair back off his forehead in that familiar, distracted gesture; it was Arnie
saying, "Oh, Dennis… Dennis… I'm sorry… I'm so sorry."
"It's too late for sorry, man," I said.
I got one crutch and then the other. 1 pulled myself up little by little, slipping
twice before I could get the crutches under me again. Now my hands felt like
pieces of furniture. Arnie made no move to help me; he stood with his back
against the van, his eyes wide and shocked.
"Dennis, I can't help it," he whispered. "Sometimes I feel like I'm not even
here anymore. Help me, Dennis. Help me."
"Is LeBay there?" I asked him.
"He's always here," Arnie groaned. "Oh God, always! Except—"
"The car?"
"When Christine… when she goes, then he's with her. That's the only time
he's… he's…"
Arnie fell silent. His head slipped over to one side. His chin rolled on his
chest in a boneless pivot. His hair dangled toward the snow. Spit ran out of
his mouth and splattered on his boots. And then he began to scream thinly and
beat his gloved fists on the van behind him:
"Go away! Go away! Go awaaaaay!"
Then nothing for maybe five seconds nothing except the shuddering of his
body, as if a basket of snakes had been dumped inside his "clothes; nothing
except that slow, horrible roll of his chin on his chest.
I thought maybe he was winning, that he was beating the dirty old
sonofabitch. But when he looked up, Arnie was gone. LeBay was there.
"It's all going to happen just like he said," LeBay told me. "Let it go, boy.
Maybe I won't drive over you."
Come on over to Darnell's tonight, I said. My voice was harsh, my throat as
dry as sand. "We'll play. I'll bring Leigh. You bring Christine."
"I'll pick my own time and place," LeBay said, and grinned with Arnie's
mouth, showing Arnie's teeth, which were young and strong—a mouth still
years from the indignity of dentures. "You won't know when or where. But
you'll know… when the time comes."
"Think again," I said, almost casually. "Come to Darnell's tonight, or she and
I start talking tomorrow."
He laughed, an ugly contemptuous sound. "And where will that get you? The
asylum over at Reed City?"
"Oh, we won't be taken seriously at first," I said. "I give you that. But that
stuff about how they put you in the loonybin as soon as you start talking about
ghosts and demons uh-uh, LeBay. Maybe in your day, before flying saucers
and
The Exorcist
and that house in Amityville. These days a hell of a lot of
people
believe
in that stuff."
He was still grinning, but his eyes looked at me with narrow suspicion. That,
and something else. I thought that something else was the first sparkle of fear.
"And what you don't seem to realize is how many people know something is
wrong."
His grin faltered. Of course he must have realized that, and been worried
about it. But maybe killing gets to be a fever; maybe after a while you are
simply unable to stop and count the cost.
"Whatever weird, filthy kind of life you still have is all wrapped up in that
car," I said. "You knew it, and you planned to use Arnie from the very
beginning—except that "planned" is the wrong word, because you never
really planned anything, did you? You just followed your intuitions."
He made a snarling sound and turned to go.
"You really want to think about it," I called after him. "Arnie's father knows
something is rotten. So does mine. I think there must be some police
somewhere who'd be willing to listen to
anything
about how their friend
Junkins died. And it all comes back to Christine, Christine, Christine. Sooner
or later someone's going to run her through the crusher in the back of
Darnell's just on general principles."
He had turned back and was looking at me with a bright mixture of hate and
fear in his eyes.
"We'll keep talking, and a lot of people will laugh at us, I don't doubt it. But
I've got two pieces of cast with Arnie's signature on them. Only one of them
isn't his. It's yours. I'll take them to the state cops and keep pestering them
until they have a handwriting specialist confirm that. People are going to start
watching Arnie. People are going to start watching Christine too. You get the
picture?"
"Sonny, you don't worry me one fucking bit." But his eyes said something
different. I was getting to him, all right.
"It's going to happen," I said. "People are only rational on the surface. They
still toss salt over their left shoulder if they spill the shaker, they don't walk
under ladders, they believe in survival after death. And sooner or later—
probably sooner, with Leigh and me shooting off our mouths—someone is
going to turn that car of yours into a sardine can. And I'm willing to bet that
when it goes, you'll go with it."
"Don't you just wish!" he sneered.
"We'll be at Darnell's tonight," I said." If you're good, you can get rid of both
of us. That won't end it either, but it might give you some breathing space…
time enough to get out of town. But I don't think you're good enough, chum.
It's gone on too long. We're getting rid of you."
I crutched back to my Duster and got in. I used the crutches more clumsily
than I had to, tried to make myself look more incapacitated than I really was.
I had rocked him by mentioning the signatures; it was time to leave before I
overplayed my hand. But there was one more thing. One thing guaranteed to
drive LeBay into a frenzy.
I pulled my left leg in with my hands, slammed the door, and leaned out.
I looked into his eyes and smiled.
"She's great in bed," I said. "Too bad you'll never know.
With a furious roar, he charged at me. I rolled up the window and slapped
down the door-lock. Then, leisurely, I started the engine while he slammed
his gloved fists on the glass. His face was snarling, terrible. There was no
Arnie in it now. No Arnie at all. My friend was gone. I felt a dark sorrow
that was deeper than tears or fear, but I kept that slow, insulting, dirty grin on
my face. Then, slowly, I raised my middle finger to the glass.
"Fuck you, LeBay," I said, and then pulled out, leaving him to stand there in
the lot, shaking with that simple, unswerving fury his brother had told me of.
It was that more than anything else that I was counting on to bring him tonight.
We'd see.
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