He heard no sobs, but he felt the rhythmic shudders, and, through the cloth of his shirt, in place of tears,
he felt the small, warm, liquid spurts flung from the wound by the shudders.
He knew that the tight
pressure of his arms was the only answer which the boy was now able to hear and understand—and he
held the trembling body as if the strength of his arms could transfuse some part of his living power into the
arteries beating ever fainter against him.
Then the sobbing stopped and the boy raised his head. His face seemed thinner and paler, but the eyes
were lustrous, and he looked up at Rearden, straining for the strength to speak.
"Mr. Rearden . . . I . . . I liked you very much."
"I know it."
The boy's features
had no power to form a smile, but it was a smile that spoke in his glance, as he
looked at Rearden's face—as he looked at that which he had not known he had been seeking through
the brief span of his life, seeking as the image of that which he had not known to be his values.
Then his head fell back, and there was no convulsion in his face, only his
mouth relaxing to a shape of
serenity—but there was a brief stab of convulsion in his body, like a last cry of protest—and Rearden
went on slowly, not altering his pace, even though he knew that no caution was necessary any longer
because what he was carrying in his arms was now that which had been the boy's teachers'
idea of
man—a collection of chemicals.
He walked, as if this were his form of last tribute and funeral procession for the young life that had ended
in his arms. He felt an anger too intense to identify except as a pressure within him: it was a desire to kill.
The desire was not directed at the unknown thug who had sent a bullet through the boy's body, or at the
looting bureaucrats who had hired the thug to do it, but at the boy's teachers who had delivered him,
disarmed, to the thug's gun—at the soft, safe assassins
of college classrooms who, incompetent to
answer the queries of a quest for reason, took pleasure in crippling the young minds entrusted to their
care.
Somewhere, he thought, there was this boy's mother, who had trembled with protective concern over his
groping steps,
while teaching him to walk, who had measured his baby formulas with a jeweler's caution,
who had obeyed with a zealot's fervor the latest words of science on his diet and hygiene, protecting his
unhardened body from germs—then had sent him to be turned into a tortured neurotic by the men who
taught him that he had no mind and must never attempt to think. Had she fed him tainted refuse, he
thought, had she mixed poison into his food, it would have been more kind and less fatal.
He thought of all the living species that train their
young in the art of survival, the cats who teach their
kittens to hunt, the birds who spend such strident effort on teaching their fledglings to fly—yet man,
whose tool of survival is the mind, does not merely fail to teach education to the purpose of destroying his brain, of convincing him that thought is futile and evil, before he
has started to think.
From the first catch-phrases
flung at a child to the last, it is like a series of shocks to freeze his motor, to
undercut the power of his consciousness. "Don't ask so many questions, children should be seen and not
heard!"—"Who are you to think? It's so, because I say so!"—"Don't argue, obey!"—"Don't try to
understand, believe!"-—"Don't rebel, adjust!"—"Don't stand out, belong!"—"Don't
struggle,
compromise!"—"Your heart is more important than your mind!"—"Who are you to know? Your parents
know best!"—"Who are you to know? Society knows best!"—"Who are you to know? The bureaucrats
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