old age the recipient of charity from one, who,
despite her other good
qualities, was certainly not leading a righteous life. So they quarreled.
It ended one winter month when George agreed to receive his complaining
brother and sister on condition that they should get something to do.
Gerhardt was nonplussed for a moment, but invited them to take the
furniture and go their way. His generosity shamed them for the moment;
they even tentatively invited him to come and live with them, but this he
would not do. He would ask the foreman of
the mill he watched for the
privilege of sleeping in some out-of-the-way garret. He was always liked and
trusted. And this would save him a little money.
So in a fit of pique he did this, and there was seen the spectacle of an old
man watching through a dreary season of nights, in a lonely trafficless
neighborhood while the city pursued its gaiety elsewhere. He had a wee
small corner in the topmost loft of a warehouse away from the tear and
grind of the factory proper. Here Gerhardt slept by day. In the afternoon he
would take a little walk, strolling toward the business center, or out along
the banks of the Cuyahoga, or the lake. As a rule his hands were below his
back, his brow bent in meditation. He would even talk to himself a little—an
occasional "By chops!" or "So it is" being indicative of his dreary mood. At
dusk
he would return, taking his stand at the lonely gate which was his post
of duty. His meals he secured at a nearby workingmen's boarding-house,
such as he felt he must have.
The nature of the old German's reflections at this time were of a peculiarly
subtle and somber character. What was this thing—life? What did it all
come to after the struggle, and the worry, and the grieving? Where does it all
go to? People die; you hear nothing more from them. His wife, now, she had
gone. Where had her spirit taken its flight?
Yet he continued to hold some strongly dogmatic convictions. He believed
there was a hell, and that people who sinned would go there. How about
Mrs. Gerhardt? How about Jennie? He believed that both had sinned
woefully. He believed that the just would be rewarded in heaven. But who
were the just? Mrs. Gerhardt had not had a bad heart. Jennie was the soul
of generosity. Take his son Sebastian. Sebastian was a good boy, but he was
cold, and certainly indifferent to his father. Take Martha—she was
ambitious, but obviously selfish.
Somehow the children, outside of Jennie,
seemed self-centered. Bass walked off when he got married, and did nothing
more for anybody. Martha insisted that she needed all she made to live on.
George had contributed for a little while, but had finally refused to help out.
Veronica and William had been content to live on Jennie's money so long as
he would allow it, and yet they knew it was not right. His very existence, was
it not a commentary on the selfishness of his children? And he was getting
so old. He shook his head. Mystery of mysteries. Life was truly strange, and
dark, and uncertain. Still he did not want to go and live with any of his
children. Actually they were not worthy of him—none but Jennie, and she
was not good. So he grieved.
This woeful condition of affairs was not made
known to Jennie for some
time. She had been sending her letters to Martha, but, on her leaving,
Jennie had been writing directly to Gerhardt. After Veronica's departure
Gerhardt wrote to Jennie saying that there was no need of sending any more
money. Veronica and William were going to live with George. He himself had
a good place in a factory, and would live there a little while. He returned her
a moderate sum that he had saved—one hundred and fifteen dollars—with
the word that he would not need it.
Jennie did not understand, but as the others did not write, she was not sure
but what it might be all right—her father was so determined. But by
degrees, however, a sense of what it really must mean overtook her—a sense
of something wrong, and she worried, hesitating between leaving Lester and
going to see about her father, whether she left him or not. Would he come
with her? Not here certainly. If she were married, yes, possibly. If she were
alone—probably. Yet if she did not get some work which paid well they
would have a difficult time. It was the same old problem. What could she
do? Nevertheless, she decided to act. If she could
get five or six dollars a
week they could live. This hundred and fifteen dollars which Gerhardt had
saved would tide them over the worst difficulties perhaps.
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