3. Everyone Will Think This Is Rubbish!
Even if you have ideas you thought were okay, when it comes to sharing them
you suddenly lose faith. Your mouth will be too dry to say them aloud and your
heart will be fluttery. The jokes never see the light of day. Then one day you will
find a screwed up bit of paper in the bottom of the wardrobe, read them again
and realise that some of them were funny after all but sadly now long out of
date.
I’m sure we all have our own weird and very special variations of panic. But any
form of panic sucks away your brain power, your energy, and your will.
Suppressing it can just make it worse.
My way of dealing with it is to accept that it’s there.
I say ‘Yup, these are my nerves, I always have them,’ and then I keep on
working, keep sifting through ideas, keep looking for new angles, and try to see
doing the work and putting in the time as my goal.
The trick with dealing with fear is to
go on in spite of feeling afraid.
Judy Carter
I know that when I’m working I don’t have 100% guarantee that I am going to
write a brilliant joke, but if I allow my panic to stop me working, I’m 100%
guaranteed I won’t write anything.
If you still want to focus on all that is wrong, then psychiatrist Robert Leahy
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recommends worry postponement where you schedule time to fret about things
later, and, according to essayist Anne Lamont,
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you can suspend perfectionism
as well by putting off any brain activity that stops you getting on with your
work, and telling yourself you can worry, panic and/or make it perfect later.
If you need some outside influence to help you focus, then invite joke writing
friends round to do an exercise together. Allow yourself to write anything as
long as you are writing.
The panic won’t go away completely. Every time I start writing jokes I worry
that this is the time there will be none, this time I will fail. I counter it by telling
myself that even if that is so then I will still do my best, and run whatever
subject through my joke writing methods, and put the time in.
I have learnt to live with my fears.
So take a deep breath. Feel those nerves. They’re kind of exciting aren’t they?
After all, it’s a special thing to be allowing yourself time to write jokes. Let the
nerves sit there in your stomach or spleen (or bowel if you are really unlucky)
while you get on with the exercise. Write out those associations. Do the work.
Find those angles. Don’t focus on the panic, use it! Let the adrenalin help your
brain think faster.
Boldness has genius, magic and power in it.
Begin it, begin it now.
Goethe
We’re all the same, you know. You, me, the writers of great sitcoms, famous
stand-up comedians. We all panic because we’re doing something exciting that
isn’t working at a factory or sitting in the pub. We are joke writers and thinkers,
and it’s scary, but oh so rewarding.
Summary
• Panic is natural – accept that
• Don’t engage with it - walk beside it
• Just keep working
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