CHAPTER VIII
INTIMATIONS BY WINTER: AN AMBASSADOR SUMMONED
Among the forces which sweep and play throughout the universe, untutored
man is but a wisp in the wind. Our civilisation is still in a middle stage,
scarcely beast, in that it is no longer wholly guided by instinct;
scarcely
human, in that it is not yet wholly guided by reason. On the tiger no
responsibility rests. We see him aligned by nature with the forces of life—he
is born into their keeping and without thought he is protected. We see man
far removed from the lairs of the jungles, his innate instincts dulled by too
near an approach to free-will, his free-will not
sufficiently developed to
replace his instincts and afford him perfect guidance. He is becoming too
wise to hearken always to instincts and desires;
he is still too weak to
always prevail against them. As a beast, the forces of life aligned him with
them; as a man, he has not yet wholly learned to align himself with the
forces. In this intermediate stage he wavers—neither drawn in harmony with
nature by his instincts nor yet wisely putting
himself into harmony by his
own free-will. He is even as a wisp in the wind, moved by every breath of
passion, acting now by his will and now by his instincts, erring with one,
only
to retrieve by the other, falling by one, only to rise by the other—a
creature of incalculable variability. We have the consolation of knowing that
evolution is ever in action, that the ideal is a light that cannot fail. He will
not forever balance thus between good and evil. When this jangle of free-will
and instinct shall have been adjusted, when
perfect understanding has
given the former the power to replace the latter entirely, man will no longer
vary. The needle of understanding will yet point steadfast and unwavering to
the distant pole of truth.
In Carrie—as in how many of our worldlings do they not?—instinct and
reason, desire and understanding, were at war for the mastery. She followed
whither her craving led. She was as yet more drawn than she drew.
When Minnie found the note next morning, after a night of mingled wonder
and anxiety, which was not exactly touched by yearning, sorrow, or love, she
exclaimed: "Well, what do you think of that?"
"What?" said Hanson.
"Sister Carrie has gone to live somewhere else."
Hanson jumped out of bed with more celerity than he usually displayed and
looked at the note. The only indication of his thoughts came in the form of a
little clicking sound made by his tongue; the sound some people make when
they wish to urge on a horse.
"Where do you suppose she's gone to?" said Minnie, thoroughly aroused.
"I don't know," a touch of cynicism lighting his eye. "Now she has gone and
done it."
Minnie moved her head in a puzzled way.
"Oh, oh," she said, "she doesn't know what she has done."
"Well," said Hanson, after a while, sticking his hands out before him, "what
can you do?"
Minnie's womanly nature was higher than this. She figured the possibilities
in such cases.
"Oh," she said at last, "poor Sister Carrie!"
At the time of this particular conversation, which occurred at 5 A. M., that
little soldier of fortune was sleeping a rather troubled sleep in her new room,
alone.
Carrie's new state was remarkable in that she saw possibilities in it. She
was no sensualist, longing to drowse sleepily in the lap of luxury. She
turned about,
troubled by her daring, glad of her release, wondering
whether she would get something to do, wondering what Drouet would do.
That worthy had his future fixed for him beyond a peradventure. He could
not help what he was going to do. He could not see clearly enough to wish to
do differently. He was drawn by his innate desire to act the old pursuing
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