Chapter XXXVIII
The situation which confronted Aileen was really a trying one. A girl of less
innate courage and determination would have weakened and yielded. For in
spite of her various social connections and acquaintances, the people to
whom Aileen could run in an emergency of the present kind were not
numerous. She could scarcely think of any one who would be likely to take
her in for any lengthy period, without question. There were a number of
young women of her own age, married and unmarried, who were very
friendly to her, but there were few with whom she was really intimate. The
only person who stood out in her mind, as having any real possibility of
refuge for a period, was a certain Mary Calligan, better known as "Mamie"
among her friends, who had attended school with Aileen in former years and
was now a teacher in one of the local schools.
The Calligan family consisted of Mrs. Katharine Calligan, the mother, a
dressmaker by profession and a widow—her husband, a house-mover by
trade, having been killed by a falling wall some ten years before—and
Mamie, her twenty-three-year-old daughter. They lived in a small two-story
brick house in Cherry Street, near Fifteenth. Mrs. Calligan was not a very
good dressmaker, not good enough, at least, for the Butler family to
patronize in their present exalted state. Aileen went there occasionally for
gingham house-dresses, underwear, pretty dressing-gowns, and alterations
on some of her more important clothing which was made by a very superior
modiste in Chestnut Street. She visited the house largely because she had
gone to school with Mamie at St. Agatha's, when the outlook of the Calligan
family was much more promising. Mamie was earning forty dollars a month
as the teacher of a sixth-grade room in one of the nearby public schools, and
Mrs. Calligan averaged on the whole about two dollars a day—sometimes
not so much. The house they occupied was their own, free and clear, and
the furniture which it contained suggested the size of their joint income,
which was somewhere near eighty dollars a month.
Mamie Calligan was not good-looking, not nearly as good-looking as her
mother had been before her. Mrs. Calligan was still plump, bright, and
cheerful at fifty, with a fund of good humor. Mamie was somewhat duller
mentally and emotionally. She was serious-minded—made so, perhaps, as
much by circumstances as by anything else, for she was not at all vivid, and
had little sex magnetism. Yet she was kindly, honest, earnest, a good
Catholic, and possessed of that strangely excessive ingrowing virtue which
shuts so many people off from the world—a sense of duty. To Mamie
Calligan duty (a routine conformity to such theories and precepts as she had
heard and worked by since her childhood) was the all-important thing, her
principal source of comfort and relief; her props in a queer and uncertain
world being her duty to her Church; her duty to her school; her duty to her
mother; her duty to her friends, etc. Her mother often wished for Mamie's
sake that she was less dutiful and more charming physically, so that the
men would like her.
In spite of the fact that her mother was a dressmaker, Mamie's clothes never
looked smart or attractive—she would have felt out of keeping with herself if
they had. Her shoes were rather large, and ill-fitting; her skirt hung in
lifeless lines from her hips to her feet, of good material but seemingly bad
design. At that time the colored "jersey," so-called, was just coming into
popular wear, and, being close-fitting, looked well on those of good form.
Alas for Mamie Calligan! The mode of the time compelled her to wear one;
but she had neither the arms nor the chest development which made this
garment admirable. Her hat, by choice, was usually a pancake affair with a
long, single feather, which somehow never seemed to be in exactly the right
position, either to her hair or her face. At most times she looked a little
weary; but she was not physically weary so much as she was bored. Her life
held so little of real charm; and Aileen Butler was unquestionably the most
significant element of romance in it.
Mamie's mother's very pleasant social disposition, the fact that they had a
very cleanly, if poor little home, that she could entertain them by playing on
their piano, and that Mrs. Calligan took an adoring interest in the work she
did for her, made up the sum and substance of the attraction of the Calligan
home for Aileen. She went there occasionally as a relief from other things,
and because Mamie Calligan had a compatible and very understanding
interest in literature. Curiously, the books Aileen liked she liked—Jane Eyre,
Kenelm Chillingly, Tricotrin, and A Bow of Orange Ribbon. Mamie
occasionally recommended to Aileen some latest effusion of this character;
and Aileen, finding her judgment good, was constrained to admire her.
In this crisis it was to the home of the Calligans that Aileen turned in
thought. If her father really was not nice to her, and she had to leave home
for a time, she could go to the Calligans. They would receive her and say
nothing. They were not sufficiently well known to the other members of the
Butler family to have the latter suspect that she had gone there. She might
readily disappear into the privacy of Cherry Street and not be seen or heard
of for weeks. It is an interesting fact to contemplate that the Calligans, like
the various members of the Butler family, never suspected Aileen of the least
tendency toward a wayward existence. Hence her flight from her own family,
if it ever came, would be laid more to the door of a temperamental
pettishness than anything else.
On the other hand, in so far as the Butler family as a unit was concerned, it
needed Aileen more than she needed it. It needed the light of her
countenance to keep it appropriately cheerful, and if she went away there
would be a distinct gulf that would not soon be overcome.
Butler, senior, for instance, had seen his little daughter grow into radiantly
beautiful womanhood. He had seen her go to school and convent and learn
to play the piano—to him a great accomplishment. Also he had seen her
manner change and become very showy and her knowledge of life broaden,
apparently, and become to him, at least, impressive. Her smart, dogmatic
views about most things were, to him, at least, well worth listening to. She
knew more about books and art than Owen or Callum, and her sense of
social manners was perfect. When she came to the table—breakfast,
luncheon, or dinner—she was to him always a charming object to see. He
had produced Aileen—he congratulated himself. He had furnished her the
money to be so fine. He would continue to do so. No second-rate upstart of a
man should be allowed to ruin her life. He proposed to take care of her
always—to leave her so much money in a legally involved way that a failure
of a husband could not possibly affect her. "You're the charming lady this
evenin', I'm thinkin'," was one of his pet remarks; and also, "My, but we're
that fine!" At table almost invariably she sat beside him and looked out for
him. That was what he wanted. He had put her there beside him at his
meals years before when she was a child.
Her mother, too, was inordinately fond of her, and Callum and Owen
appropriately brotherly. So Aileen had thus far at least paid back with
beauty and interest quite as much as she received, and all the family felt it
to be so. When she was away for a day or two the house seemed glum—the
meals less appetizing. When she returned, all were happy and gay again.
Aileen understood this clearly enough in a way. Now, when it came to
thinking of leaving and shifting for herself, in order to avoid a trip which she
did not care to be forced into, her courage was based largely on this keen
sense of her own significance to the family. She thought over what her father
had said, and decided she must act at once. She dressed for the street the
next morning, after her father had gone, and decided to step in at the
Calligans' about noon, when Mamie would be at home for luncheon. Then
she would take up the matter casually. If they had no objection, she would
go there. She sometimes wondered why Cowperwood did not suggest, in his
great stress, that they leave for some parts unknown; but she also felt that
he must know best what he could do. His increasing troubles depressed her.
Mrs. Calligan was alone when she arrived and was delighted to see her. After
exchanging the gossip of the day, and not knowing quite how to proceed in
connection with the errand which had brought her, she went to the piano
and played a melancholy air.
"Sure, it's lovely the way you play, Aileen," observed Mrs. Calligan who was
unduly sentimental herself. "I love to hear you. I wish you'd come oftener to
see us. You're so rarely here nowadays."
"Oh, I've been so busy, Mrs. Calligan," replied Aileen. "I've had so much to
do this fall, I just couldn't. They wanted me to go to Europe; but I didn't care
to. Oh, dear!" she sighed, and in her playing swept off with a movement of
sad, romantic significance. The door opened and Mamie came in. Her
commonplace face brightened at the sight of Aileen.
"Well, Aileen Butler!" she exclaimed. "Where did you come from? Where have
you been keeping yourself so long?"
Aileen rose to exchange kisses. "Oh, I've been very busy, Mamie. I've just
been telling your mother. How are you, anyway? How are you getting along
in your work?"
Mamie recounted at once some school difficulties which were puzzling her—
the growing size of classes and the amount of work expected. While Mrs.
Calligan was setting the table Mamie went to her room and Aileen followed
her.
As she stood before her mirror arranging her hair Aileen looked at her
meditatively.
"What's the matter with you, Aileen, to-day?" Mamie asked. "You look so—"
She stopped to give her a second glance.
"How do I look?" asked Aileen.
"Well, as if you were uncertain or troubled about something. I never saw you
look that way before. What's the matter?"
"Oh, nothing," replied Aileen. "I was just thinking." She went to one of the
windows which looked into the little yard, meditating on whether she could
endure living here for any length of time. The house was so small, the
furnishings so very simple.
"There is something the matter with you to-day, Aileen," observed Mamie,
coming over to her and looking in her face. "You're not like yourself at all."
"I've got something on my mind," replied Aileen—"something that's worrying
me. I don't know just what to do—that's what's the matter."
"Well, whatever can it be?" commented Mamie. "I never saw you act this way
before. Can't you tell me? What is it?"
"No, I don't think I can—not now, anyhow." Aileen paused. "Do you suppose
your mother would object," she asked, suddenly, "if I came here and stayed
a little while? I want to get away from home for a time for a certain reason."
"Why, Aileen Butler, how you talk!" exclaimed her friend. "Object! You know
she'd be delighted, and so would I. Oh, dear—can you come? But what
makes you want to leave home?"
"That's just what I can't tell you—not now, anyhow. Not you, so much, but
your mother. You know, I'm afraid of what she'd think," replied Aileen. "But,
you mustn't ask me yet, anyhow. I want to think. Oh, dear! But I want to
come, if you'll let me. Will you speak to your mother, or shall I?"
"Why, I will," said Mamie, struck with wonder at this remarkable
development; "but it's silly to do it. I know what she'll say before I tell her,
and so do you. You can just bring your things and come. That's all. She'd
never say anything or ask anything, either, and you know that—if you didn't
want her to." Mamie was all agog and aglow at the idea. She wanted the
companionship of Aileen so much.
Aileen looked at her solemnly, and understood well enough why she was so
enthusiastic—both she and her mother. Both wanted her presence to
brighten their world. "But neither of you must tell anybody that I'm here, do
you hear? I don't want any one to know—particularly no one of my family.
I've a reason, and a good one, but I can't tell you what it is—not now,
anyhow. You'll promise not to tell any one."
"Oh, of course," replied Mamie eagerly. "But you're not going to run away for
good, are you, Aileen?" she concluded curiously and gravely.
"Oh, I don't know; I don't know what I'll do yet. I only know that I want to
get away for a while, just now—that's all." She paused, while Mamie stood
before her, agape.
"Well, of all things," replied her friend. "Wonders never cease, do they,
Aileen? But it will be so lovely to have you here. Mama will be so pleased. Of
course, we won't tell anybody if you don't want us to. Hardly any one ever
comes here; and if they do, you needn't see them. You could have this big
room next to me. Oh, wouldn't that be nice? I'm perfectly delighted." The
young school-teacher's spirits rose to a decided height. "Come on, why not
tell mama right now?"
Aileen hesitated because even now she was not positive whether she should
do this, but finally they went down the stairs together, Aileen lingering
behind a little as they neared the bottom. Mamie burst in upon her mother
with: "Oh, mama, isn't it lovely? Aileen's coming to stay with us for a while.
She doesn't want any one to know, and she's coming right away." Mrs.
Calligan, who was holding a sugarbowl in her hand, turned to survey her
with a surprised but smiling face. She was immediately curious as to why
Aileen should want to come—why leave home. On the other hand, her
feeling for Aileen was so deep that she was greatly and joyously intrigued by
the idea. And why not? Was not the celebrated Edward Butler's daughter a
woman grown, capable of regulating her own affairs, and welcome, of
course, as the honored member of so important a family. It was very
flattering to the Calligans to think that she would want to come under any
circumstances.
"I don't see how your parents can let you go, Aileen; but you're certainly
welcome here as long as you want to stay, and that's forever, if you want to."
And Mrs. Calligan beamed on her welcomingly. The idea of Aileen Butler
asking to be permitted to come here! And the hearty, comprehending
manner in which she said this, and Mamie's enthusiasm, caused Aileen to
breathe a sigh of relief. The matter of the expense of her presence to the
Calligans came into her mind.
"I want to pay you, of course," she said to Mrs. Calligan, "if I come."
"The very idea, Aileen Butler!" exclaimed Mamie. "You'll do nothing of the
sort. You'll come here and live with me as my guest."
"No, I won't! If I can't pay I won't come," replied Aileen. "You'll have to let me
do that." She knew that the Calligans could not afford to keep her.
"Well, we'll not talk about that now, anyhow," replied Mrs. Calligan. "You
can come when you like and stay as long as you like. Reach me some clean
napkins, Mamie." Aileen remained for luncheon, and left soon afterward to
keep her suggested appointment with Cowperwood, feeling satisfied that her
main problem had been solved. Now her way was clear. She could come here
if she wanted to. It was simply a matter of collecting a few necessary things
or coming without bringing anything. Perhaps Frank would have something
to suggest.
In the meantime Cowperwood made no effort to communicate with Aileen
since the unfortunate discovery of their meeting place, but had awaited a
letter from her, which was not long in coming. And, as usual, it was a long,
optimistic, affectionate, and defiant screed in which she related all that had
occurred to her and her present plan of leaving home. This last puzzled and
troubled him not a little.
Aileen in the bosom of her family, smart and well-cared for, was one thing.
Aileen out in the world dependent on him was another. He had never
imagined that she would be compelled to leave before he was prepared to
take her; and if she did now, it might stir up complications which would be
anything but pleasant to contemplate. Still he was fond of her, very, and
would do anything to make her happy. He could support her in a very
respectable way even now, if he did not eventually go to prison, and even
there he might manage to make some shift for her. It would be so much
better, though, if he could persuade her to remain at home until he knew
exactly what his fate was to be. He never doubted but that some day,
whatever happened, within a reasonable length of time, he would be rid of
all these complications and well-to-do again, in which case, if he could get a
divorce, he wanted to marry Aileen. If not, he would take her with him
anyhow, and from this point of view it might be just as well as if she broke
away from her family now. But from the point of view of present
complications—the search Butler would make—it might be dangerous. He
might even publicly charge him with abduction. He therefore decided to
persuade Aileen to stay at home, drop meetings and communications for the
time being, and even go abroad. He would be all right until she came back
and so would she—common sense ought to rule in this case.
With all this in mind he set out to keep the appointment she suggested in
her letter, nevertheless feeling it a little dangerous to do so.
"Are you sure," he asked, after he had listened to her description of the
Calligan homestead, "that you would like it there? It sounds rather poor to
me."
"Yes, but I like them so much," replied Aileen.
"And you're sure they won't tell on you?"
"Oh, no; never, never!"
"Very well," he concluded. "You know what you're doing. I don't want to
advise you against your will. If I were you, though, I'd take your father's
advice and go away for a while. He'll get over this then, and I'll still be here. I
can write you occasionally, and you can write me."
The moment Cowperwood said this Aileen's brow clouded. Her love for him
was so great that there was something like a knife thrust in the merest hint
at an extended separation. Her Frank here and in trouble—on trial maybe
and she away! Never! What could he mean by suggesting such a thing?
Could it be that he didn't care for her as much as she did for him? Did he
really love her? she asked herself. Was he going to desert her just when she
was going to do the thing which would bring them nearer together? Her eyes
clouded, for she was terribly hurt.
"Why, how you talk!" she exclaimed. "You know I won't leave Philadelphia
now. You certainly don't expect me to leave you."
Cowperwood saw it all very clearly. He was too shrewd not to. He was
immensely fond of her. Good heaven, he thought, he would not hurt her
feelings for the world!
"Honey," he said, quickly, when he saw her eyes, "you don't understand. I
want you to do what you want to do. You've planned this out in order to be
with me; so now you do it. Don't think any more about me or anything I've
said. I was merely thinking that it might make matters worse for both of us;
but I don't believe it will. You think your father loves you so much that after
you're gone he'll change his mind. Very good; go. But we must be very
careful, sweet—you and I—really we must. This thing is getting serious. If
you should go and your father should charge me with abduction—take the
public into his confidence and tell all about this, it would be serious for both
of us—as much for you as for me, for I'd be convicted sure then, just on that
account, if nothing else. And then what? You'd better not try to see me often
for the present—not any oftener than we can possibly help. If we had used
common sense and stopped when your father got that letter, this wouldn't
have happened. But now that it has happened, we must be as wise as we
can, don't you see? So, think it over, and do what you think best and then
write me and whatever you do will be all right with me—do you hear?" He
drew her to him and kissed her. "You haven't any money, have you?" he
concluded wisely.
Aileen, deeply moved by all he had just said, was none the less convinced
once she had meditated on it a moment, that her course was best. Her
father loved her too much. He would not do anything to hurt her publicly
and so he would not attack Cowperwood through her openly. More than
likely, as she now explained to Frank, he would plead with her to come
back. And he, listening, was compelled to yield. Why argue? She would not
leave him anyhow.
He went down in his pocket for the first time since he had known Aileen and
produced a layer of bills. "Here's two hundred dollars, sweet," he said, "until
I see or hear from you. I'll see that you have whatever you need; and now
don't think that I don't love you. You know I do. I'm crazy about you."
Aileen protested that she did not need so much—that she did not really need
any—she had some at home; but he put that aside. He knew that she must
have money.
"Don't talk, honey," he said. "I know what you need." She had been so used
to receiving money from her father and mother in comfortable amounts from
time to time that she thought nothing of it. Frank loved her so much that it
made everything right between them. She softened in her mood and they
discussed the matter of letters, reaching the conclusion that a private
messenger would be safest. When finally they parted, Aileen, from being
sunk in the depths by his uncertain attitude, was now once more on the
heights. She decided that he did love her, and went away smiling. She had
her Frank to fall back on—she would teach her father. Cowperwood shook
his head, following her with his eyes. She represented an additional burden,
but give her up, he certainly could not. Tear the veil from this illusion of
affection and make her feel so wretched when he cared for her so much? No.
There was really nothing for him to do but what he had done. After all, he
reflected, it might not work out so badly. Any detective work that Butler
might choose to do would prove that she had not run to him. If at any
moment it became necessary to bring common sense into play to save the
situation from a deadly climax, he could have the Butlers secretly informed
as to Aileen's whereabouts. That would show he had little to do with it, and
they could try to persuade Aileen to come home again. Good might result—
one could not tell. He would deal with the evils as they arose. He drove
quickly back to his office, and Aileen returned to her home determined to
put her plan into action. Her father had given her some little time in which
to decide—possibly he would give her longer—but she would not wait.
Having always had her wish granted in everything, she could not
understand why she was not to have her way this time. It was about five
o'clock now. She would wait until all the members of the family were
comfortably seated at the dinner-table, which would be about seven o'clock,
and then slip out.
On arriving home, however, she was greeted by an unexpected reason for
suspending action. This was the presence of a certain Mr. and Mrs.
Steinmetz—the former a well-known engineer who drew the plans for many
of the works which Butler undertook. It was the day before Thanksgiving,
and they were eager to have Aileen and Norah accompany them for a
fortnight's stay at their new home in West Chester—a structure concerning
the charm of which Aileen had heard much. They were exceedingly
agreeable people—comparatively young and surrounded by a coterie of
interesting friends. Aileen decided to delay her flight and go. Her father was
most cordial. The presence and invitation of the Steinmetzes was as much a
relief to him as it was to Aileen. West Chester being forty miles from
Philadelphia, it was unlikely that Aileen would attempt to meet Cowperwood
while there.
She wrote Cowperwood of the changed condition and departed, and he
breathed a sigh of relief, fancying at the time that this storm had
permanently blown over.
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