us, but that doesn't change the way I felt about you then."
She spoke quietly, feeling warm.
"It didn't make me uncomfortable, Noah .... It's just that I don't ever hear things
like that. What you said was beautiful. It takes a poet to talk the way you do, and
like I said, you're the only poet I've ever met."
Peaceful silence descended on them. An osprey cried somewhere in the distance. A
mullet splashed near the bank. The paddle moved rhythmically, causing baffles that
rocked the boat ever so slightly. The breeze had stopped, and the clouds grew
blacker as the canoe moved toward some unknown destination.
Allie noticed it all, every sound, every thought. Her senses had come alive,
invigorating her, and she felt her mind drifting through the last few weeks. She
thought about the anxiety coming here had caused her. The shock at seeing the
article, the sleepless nights, her short temper during daylight. Even yesterday she
had been afraid and wanted to run away. The tension was gone now, every bit of it,
replaced by something else, and she was glad about that as she rode in silence in the
old red canoe.
She felt strangely satisfied that she'd come, pleased that Noah had turned into the
type of man she'd thought he would, pleased that she would live forever with that
knowledge. She had seen too many men in the past few years destroyed by war, or
time, or even money. It took strength to hold on to inner passion, and Noah had
done that.
This was a worker's world, not a poet's, and people would have a hard time
understanding Noah. America was in full swing now, all the papers said so, and
people were rushing forward, leaving behind the horrors of war. She understood
the reasons, but they were rushing, like Lon, toward long hours and profits,
neglecting the things that brought beauty to the world.
Who did she know in Raleigh who took time off to fix a house? Or read Whitman or
Eliot, finding images in the mind, thoughts of the spirit? Or hunted dawn from the
bow of a canoe? These weren't the things that drove society, but she felt they
shouldn't be treated as unimportant. They made living worthwhile.
To her it was the same with art, though she had realized it only upon coming here.
Or rather, remembered it. She had known it once before, and again she cursed
herself for forgetting something as important as creating beauty. Painting was
what she was meant to do, she was sure of that now. Her feelings this morning had
confirmed it, and she knew that whatever happened, she was going to give it
another shot. A fair shot, no matter what anyone said.
Would Lon encourage her painting? She remembered showing him one of her
paintings a couple of months after they had first started going out. It was an
abstract painting and was meant to inspire thought. In a way, it resembled the
painting above Noah's fireplace, the one Noah understood completely, though it
may have been a touch less passionate. Lon had stared at it, studied it almost, and
then had asked her what it was supposed to be. She hadn't bothered to answer.
She shook her head then, knowing she wasn't being completely fair. She loved Lon,
and always had, for other reasons. Though he wasn't Noah, Lon was a good man,
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