Party you were dead.
Julia woke up and put her hands over her eyes.
'We are the dead,' Winston said.
'We're not dead yet,' said Julia, pressing her body against his.
'We may be together for another six months — a year. W h e n
they find us there w i l l be nothing either of us can do for the other.'
'We w i l l tell them everything,' she said. 'Everybody always
does. They make you feel so much pain.'
'Even if we tell them everything, that's not a betrayal. The
betrayal would only be if they made me stop loving you.'
She thought about that. 'They can't do that,' she said finally.
'It's the one thing they can't do. They can make you say anything
- anything - but they can't make you believe i t . They can't get
inside you.'
'No,' he said, a little more hopefully. ' N o , that's quite true. They
can't get inside you.'
' I ' l l get up and make some coffee,' she said. We've got an hour.
What time do they turn the lights off at your flats?'
'Twenty-three thirty.'
'It's twenty-three hours at the Party building. But you have to
get in earlier than that because ...'
She suddenly reached down from the bed to the floor, picked
up a shoe and threw it hard into the corner of the room.
'What was it?' he said in surprise.
'A rat. I saw his horrible little nose. There's a hole down there.
I frightened him, I think.'
'Rats!' said Winston quietly. ' I n this room!'
'They're everywhere,' said Julia, without much interest, as she
lay down again. 'We've even got them in the kitchen at the Party
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building. D i d you know they attack children? In some parts of
London a woman daren't leave a baby alone for two minutes. The
big brown ones are the worst. They .. .'
'Stop! Stop!' said Winston, his eyes tightly shut.
'Dearest! You've gone quite pale. What's the matter?'
'They are the most horrible things in the world - rats!'
She put her arms round h i m but he did not re-open his eyes
immediately.
' I ' m sorry,' he said. 'It's nothing. I don't like rats, that's all.'
'Don't worry, dear. We won't have the dirty animals in here. I ' l l
put something over the hole before we go.'
Julia got out of bed, put on her overalls and made the coffee.
The smell was so powerful and exciting that they shut the
window, worried that somebody outside would notice it and ask
questions. A n d they could taste the real sugar in the coffee - it
was even better than the taste of the coffee itself.
Julia walked round the room w i t h one hand in her pocket and
a piece of bread and j a m in the other. She looked at the books
without interest. She told Winston the best way to repair the
table. She sat down in the old armchair to see if it was
comfortable. She smiled at the old twelve-hour clock.
' H o w old is that picture over there, do you think?' she asked.
'A hundred years old?'
'More. Two hundred. But it's impossible to discover the age of
anything these days.'
She looked at it. 'What is this place?'
'It's a church. Well, that's what it used to be.'
W h e n Winston got out of bed it was dark. The room was a
world, a past world, and they were the last two people from it
who were still living.
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