Then JoAnna chimed in. “Well, it’s your worksheet. You
ought to practice what you preach!” That did it. Feeling
cornered I stomped upstairs to get one, but I was angry. I
knew, and so did they, that I was doing it under protest. It
was the last thing
in the world I wanted to do, but they
wouldn’t let me off the hook. I did each step in a huff and
with little or no commitment to the process. Then all of a
sudden, as I got about half way through, I had to read the
statement — “I release the need to blame and the need to
be right.” That’s when it hit me.
The need to be right!
All
of a sudden it flashed before me what I was trying to be
right about. I had a core belief that I always had to do
everything myself! I saw that this incident was just an-
other out-playing of that belief. All the other times I had
unconsciously created being let down that way flashed
before my eyes. I then saw and
fully understood that this
woman was supporting me in becoming acquainted with
my toxic belief so I could release it and open myself to
greater abundance.
Suddenly, all my anger evaporated, and I saw how I had
shut myself off from the very things I believed in and was
teaching. I felt very ashamed. But at least I was con-
scious again. I could now see that this woman was an
‘angel of healing’
for me, and I switched from feeling an-
ger and resentment to feeling profound gratitude and love
for her.
Besides having that wonderful healing,
it was a very pow-
erful and humbling lesson in how easy it is to go uncon-
scious about spiritual law and how quickly your Ego will
suck you into a drama and keep you there. It was a fright-
ening demonstration of the power of my Ego to separate
me from my Source and from everything I know to be true.
It was also a powerful demonstration of why we need spiri-
tual friends who will support us by not buying into our vic-
tim story and being prepared to challenge us on it.
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However, the question you are probably asking is, having
realized that she was a healing angel for me, did I cancel
the court case against her? Well, I can tell you, I agonized
over this.
I
recognized that, even though I now saw the truth from the
perspective of the World of Divine Truth, the situation it-
self was deeply grounded in the World of Humanity. So I
offered to mediate twice, and she refused on both occa-
sions.
I therefore went ahead with the court case, reasoning that
her soul needed to have that experience, otherwise it would
have taken her out of it when I offered to mediate. But I
went into it with my heart open and with the intention that
the right and perfect outcome would ensue.
The court
found in my favor and I got a judgment against her for
most of the $4,000. I never got the money, but that didn’t
matter. The point was that we had trusted the process
and had done what seemed to be necessary at the time.
And the truth is, it wouldn’t have mattered which way I de-
cided. Spirit would have sorted it out some other way,
and it all would have worked out OK in the end — as it
always does. The idea that our decisions matter in the
overall scheme of things is just our Ego trying to make us
feel separate and special. The Universe has everything
handled no matter what we decide. But how we make
those decisions —
whether from love or fear, greed or
generosity, false pride or humility, dishonesty or integrity
— matters to us personally because each decision we
make affects our vibration.
Another situation I am often asked to address is when
one becomes aware of a child being abused. The ques-
tion raised is that if we assume that the child’s spiritual
growth is being supported by this experience, should we
take action or not, since to interfere
would be to deny the
child’s soul its growth experience? My answer is always
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that, as human beings, we must do what it is right accord-
ing to our present awareness of right and wrong — as
defined in human law. So we act accordingly while at the
same time knowing that, in spiritual law, nothing wrong is
taking place. Naturally then, we would intervene. As
human beings, we could not do otherwise. But our inter-
vention is not wrong or right either, because either way
Spirit has it handled.
My reasoning is that if it were
in the best interests of the
child’s soul for there to be no intervention, Spirit would
arrange things in such a way as to prevent it. In other
words, if I were not supposed to intervene, Spirit would
keep me unaware of the situation. Conversely, if Spirit
makes me aware of the situation, I assume it has no prob-
lem with my intervening. In the end, it is not even my deci-
sion.
When
I do intervene, however, I do it free of judgment and
the need to blame anyone. I just do it, knowing that the
Universe set the whole thing up for a reason and that there
is a perfection in there somewhere.
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