particularly when she was excited, as if he were just a baby, her pet; and
sometimes he felt as though she would really overcome him mentally, make
him subservient to her, she was so individual, so sure of her importance as
a woman.
Now on this occasion she went babbling on as if he were broken-hearted, in
need of her greatest care and tenderness, although he really wasn't at all;
and for the moment she actually made him feel as though he was.
"It isn't as bad as that, Aileen," he ventured to say, eventually; and with a
softness and tenderness almost unusual for him, even where she was
concerned, but she went on forcefully, paying no heed to him.
"Oh, yes, it is, too, honey. I know. Oh, my poor Frank! But I'll see you. I
know how to manage, whatever happens. How often do they let visitors come
out to see the prisoners there?"
"Only once in three months, pet, so they say, but I think we can fix that
after I get there; only do you think you had better try to come right away,
Aileen? You know what the feeling now is. Hadn't you better wait a while?
Aren't you in danger of stirring up your father? He might cause a lot of
trouble out there if he were so minded."
"Only once in three months!" she exclaimed, with rising emphasis, as he
began this explanation. "Oh, Frank, no! Surely not! Once in three months!
Oh, I can't stand that! I won't! I'll go and see the warden myself. He'll let me
see you. I'm sure he will, if I talk to him."
She fairly gasped in her excitement, not willing to pause in her tirade, but
Cowperwood interposed with her, "You're not thinking what you're saying,
Aileen. You're not thinking. Remember your father! Remember your family!
Your father may know the warden out there. You don't want it to get all over
town that you're running out there to see me, do you? Your father might
cause you trouble. Besides you don't know the small party politicians as I
do. They gossip like a lot of old women. You'll have to be very careful what
you do and how you do it. I don't want to lose you. I want to see you. But
you'll have to mind what you're doing. Don't try to see me at once. I want
you to, but I want to find out how the land lies, and I want you to find out
too. You won't lose me. I'll be there, well enough."
He paused as he thought of the long tier of iron cells which must be there,
one of which would be his—for how long?—and of Aileen seeing him through
the door of it or in it. At the same time he was thinking, in spite of all his
other calculations, how charming she was looking to-day. How young she
kept, and how forceful! While he was nearing his full maturity she was a
comparatively young girl, and as beautiful as ever. She was wearing a black-
and-white-striped silk in the curious bustle style of the times, and a set of
sealskin furs, including a little sealskin cap set jauntily on top her red-gold
hair.
"I know, I know," replied Aileen, firmly. "But think of three months! Honey, I
can't! I won't! It's nonsense. Three months! I know that my father wouldn't
have to wait any three months if he wanted to see anybody out there, nor
anybody else that he wanted to ask favors for. And I won't, either. I'll find
some way."
Cowperwood had to smile. You could not defeat Aileen so easily.
"But you're not your father, honey; and you don't want him to know."
"I know I don't, but they don't need to know who I am. I can go heavily
veiled. I don't think that the warden knows my father. He may. Anyhow, he
doesn't know me; and he wouldn't tell on me if he did if I talked to him."
Her confidence in her charms, her personality, her earthly privileges was
quite anarchistic. Cowperwood shook his head.
"Honey, you're about the best and the worst there is when it comes to a
woman," he observed, affectionately, pulling her head down to kiss her, "but
you'll have to listen to me just the same. I have a lawyer, Steger—you know
him. He's going to take up this matter with the warden out there—is doing it
today. He may be able to fix things, and he may not. I'll know to-morrow or
Sunday, and I'll write you. But don't go and do anything rash until you hear.
I'm sure I can cut that visiting limit in half, and perhaps down to once a
month or once in two weeks even. They only allow me to write one letter in
three months"—Aileen exploded again—"and I'm sure I can have that made
different—some; but don't write me until you hear, or at least don't sign any
name or put any address in. They open all mail and read it. If you see me or
write me you'll have to be cautious, and you're not the most cautious person
in the world. Now be good, will you?"
They talked much more—of his family, his court appearance Monday,
whether he would get out soon to attend any of the suits still pending, or be
pardoned. Aileen still believed in his future. She had read the opinions of
the dissenting judges in his favor, and that of the three agreed judges
against him. She was sure his day was not over in Philadelphia, and that he
would some time reestablish himself and then take her with him somewhere
else. She was sorry for Mrs. Cowperwood, but she was convinced that she
was not suited to him—that Frank needed some one more like herself, some
one with youth and beauty and force—her, no less. She clung to him now in
ecstatic embraces until it was time to go. So far as a plan of procedure could
have been adjusted in a situation so incapable of accurate adjustment, it
had been done. She was desperately downcast at the last moment, as was
he, over their parting; but she pulled herself together with her usual force
and faced the dark future with a steady eye.
Chapter LI
Monday came and with it his final departure. All that could be done had
been done. Cowperwood said his farewells to his mother and father, his
brothers and sister. He had a rather distant but sensible and matter-of-fact
talk with his wife. He made no special point of saying good-by to his son or
his daughter; when he came in on Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday
evenings, after he had learned that he was to depart Monday, it was with the
thought of talking to them a little in an especially affectionate way. He
realized that his general moral or unmoral attitude was perhaps working
them a temporary injustice. Still he was not sure. Most people did fairly well
with their lives, whether coddled or deprived of opportunity. These children
would probably do as well as most children, whatever happened—and then,
anyhow, he had no intention of forsaking them financially, if he could help
it. He did not want to separate his wife from her children, nor them from
her. She should keep them. He wanted them to be comfortable with her. He
would like to see them, wherever they were with her, occasionally. Only he
wanted his own personal freedom, in so far as she and they were concerned,
to go off and set up a new world and a new home with Aileen. So now on
these last days, and particularly this last Sunday night, he was rather
noticeably considerate of his boy and girl, without being too openly
indicative of his approaching separation from them.
"Frank," he said to his notably lackadaisical son on this occasion, "aren't
you going to straighten up and be a big, strong, healthy fellow? You don't
play enough. You ought to get in with a gang of boys and be a leader. Why
don't you fit yourself up a gymnasium somewhere and see how strong you
can get?"
They were in the senior Cowperwood's sitting-room, where they had all
rather consciously gathered on this occasion.
Lillian, second, who was on the other side of the big library table from her
father, paused to survey him and her brother with interest. Both had been
carefully guarded against any real knowledge of their father's affairs or his
present predicament. He was going away on a journey for about a month or
so they understood. Lillian was reading in a Chatterbox book which had
been given her the previous Christmas.
"He won't do anything," she volunteered, looking up from her reading in a
peculiarly critical way for her. "Why, he won't ever run races with me when I
want him to."
"Aw, who wants to run races with you, anyhow?" returned Frank, junior,
sourly. "You couldn't run if I did want to run with you."
"Couldn't I?" she replied. "I could beat you, all right."
"Lillian!" pleaded her mother, with a warning sound in her voice.
Cowperwood smiled, and laid his hand affectionately on his son's head.
"You'll be all right, Frank," he volunteered, pinching his ear lightly. "Don't
worry—just make an effort."
The boy did not respond as warmly as he hoped. Later in the evening Mrs.
Cowperwood noticed that her husband squeezed his daughter's slim little
waist and pulled her curly hair gently. For the moment she was jealous of
her daughter.
"Going to be the best kind of a girl while I'm away?" he said to her, privately.
"Yes, papa," she replied, brightly.
"That's right," he returned, and leaned over and kissed her mouth tenderly.
"Button Eyes," he said.
Mrs. Cowperwood sighed after he had gone. "Everything for the children,
nothing for me," she thought, though the children had not got so vastly
much either in the past.
Cowperwood's attitude toward his mother in this final hour was about as
tender and sympathetic as any he could maintain in this world. He
understood quite clearly the ramifications of her interests, and how she was
suffering for him and all the others concerned. He had not forgotten her
sympathetic care of him in his youth; and if he could have done anything to
have spared her this unhappy breakdown of her fortunes in her old age, he
would have done so. There was no use crying over spilled milk. It was
impossible at times for him not to feel intensely in moments of success or
failure; but the proper thing to do was to bear up, not to show it, to talk
little and go your way with an air not so much of resignation as of self-
sufficiency, to whatever was awaiting you. That was his attitude on this
morning, and that was what he expected from those around him—almost
compelled, in fact, by his own attitude.
"Well, mother," he said, genially, at the last moment—he would not let her
nor his wife nor his sister come to court, maintaining that it would make not
the least difference to him and would only harrow their own feelings
uselessly—"I'm going now. Don't worry. Keep up your spirits."
He slipped his arm around his mother's waist, and she gave him a long,
unrestrained, despairing embrace and kiss.
"Go on, Frank," she said, choking, when she let him go. "God bless you. I'll
pray for you." He paid no further attention to her. He didn't dare.
"Good-by, Lillian," he said to his wife, pleasantly, kindly. "I'll be back in a
few days, I think. I'll be coming out to attend some of these court
proceedings."
To his sister he said: "Good-by, Anna. Don't let the others get too down-
hearted."
"I'll see you three afterward," he said to his father and brothers; and so,
dressed in the very best fashion of the time, he hurried down into the
reception-hall, where Steger was waiting, and was off. His family, hearing
the door close on him, suffered a poignant sense of desolation. They stood
there for a moment, his mother crying, his father looking as though he had
lost his last friend but making a great effort to seem self-contained and
equal to his troubles, Anna telling Lillian not to mind, and the latter staring
dumbly into the future, not knowing what to think. Surely a brilliant sun
had set on their local scene, and in a very pathetic way.
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