But Countess Lidia Ivanovna, though she was interested in everything that
did not concern her, had a habit of never listening to what interested her;
she interrupted Anna:
"Yes, there's plenty of sorrow and evil in the world. I am so worried today."
"Oh, why?" asked Anna, trying to suppress a smile.
"I'm beginning to be weary of fruitlessly championing the truth, and
sometimes I'm quite unhinged by it. The Society of the Little Sisters" (this
was
a religiously-patriotic, philanthropic institution) "was going splendidly,
but with these gentlemen it's impossible to do anything," added Countess
Lidia Ivanovna in a tone of ironical submission to destiny. "They pounce on
the idea, and distort it, and then work it out so pettily and unworthily. Two
or three people, your husband among them, understand all the importance
of
the thing, but the others simply drag it down. Yesterday Pravdin wrote to
me..."
Pravdin was a well-known Panslavist abroad, and Countess Lidia Ivanovna
described the purport of his letter.
Then the countess told her of more disagreements and intrigues against the
work of the unification of the churches, and departed in haste, as she had
that day to be at the meeting of some society and also at the Slavonic
committee.
"It was all the same before, of course; but why was it I didn't
notice it
before?" Anna asked herself. "Or has she been very much irritated today?
It's really ludicrous; her object is doing good; she a Christian, yet she's
always angry; and she always has enemies, and always enemies in the name
of Christianity and doing good."
After Countess Lidia Ivanovna another friend came, the wife of a chief
secretary, who told her all the news of the town. At three o'clock she too
went away, promising to come to dinner. Alexey
Alexandrovitch was at the
ministry. Anna, left alone, spent the time till dinner in assisting at her son's
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dinner (he dined apart from his parents) and in putting her things in order,
and in reading and answering the notes and letters which had accumulated
on her table.
The feeling of causeless shame, which she had felt on the journey, and her
excitement, too, had completely vanished. In the habitual conditions of her
life she felt again resolute and irreproachable.
She recalled with wonder her state of mind on the previous day. "What was
it? Nothing. Vronsky said something silly, which
it was easy to put a stop
to, and I answered as I ought to have done. To speak of it to my husband
would be unnecessary and out of the question. To speak of it would be to
attach importance to what has no importance." She remembered how she
had told her husband of what was almost a declaration made her at
Petersburg by a young man, one of her husband's subordinates, and how
Alexey Alexandrovitch had answered that every woman living in the world
was
exposed to such incidents, but that he had the fullest confidence in her
tact, and could never lower her and himself by jealousy. "So then there's no
reason to speak of it? And indeed, thank God, there's nothing to speak of,"
she told herself.
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