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reality, but from a holier p l a n e .
Goddess, daughter of Zeus. N o t only are we i n v o k i n g
d i v i n e i n t e r c e s s i o n , but i n t e r c e s s i o n on the h i g h e s t
level, just o n e r e m o v e from the top.
Sustain for me. H o m e r d o e s n ' t a s k for b r i l l i a n c e
o r s u c c e s s . H e j u s t w a n t s t o k e e p t h i s t h i n g g o i n g .
This song. T h a t a b o u t c o v e r s i t . F r o m The
Brothers Karama^ov to y o u r n e w v e n t u r e in the
p l u m b i n g - s u p p l y b u s i n e s s .
I l o v e t h e s u m m a t i o n o f O d y s s e u s ' t r i a l s t h a t
c o m p r i s e s the b o d y o f the i n v o c a t i o n . I t ' s J o s e p h
C a m p b e l l ' s h e r o ' s j o u r n e y in a nutshell, as c o n c i s e a
s y n o p s i s o f the s t o r y o f E v e r y m a n a s i t g e t s . T h e r e ' s
the initial crime (which we all inevitably c o m m i t ) ,
which ejects the hero from his h o m e b o u n d c o m p l a c e n c y
and p r o p e l s him upon his w a n d e r i n g s , the y e a r n i n g for
r e d e m p t i o n , the u n t i r i n g c a m p a i g n t o g e t " h o m e , "
m e a n i n g b a c k t o G o d ' s g r a c e , b a c k t o himself.
I a d m i r e particularly the w a r n i n g a g a i n s t the s e c o n d
c r i m e , to destroy for meat the oxen of the most exalted
Sun. T h a t ' s the felony that calls d o w n s o u l - d e s t r u c t i o n :
the e m p l o y m e n t o f the s a c r e d for p r o f a n e m e a n s .
P r o s t i t u t i o n . S e l l i n g out.
L a s t l y , the a r t i s t ' s wish for his w o r k : Make this tale
live for us in all its many bearings, O Muse.
T h a t ' s what we want, isn't it? More than make it
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g r e a t , m a k e i t l i v e . A n d not f r o m o n e a n g l e o n l y , b u t
in all its m a n y b e a r i n g s .
Okay.
W e ' v e said our prayer. We're ready to work. N o w what?
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T H E M A G I C O F M A K I N G A S T A R T
C o n c e r n i n g all acts of initiative (and creation)there is
o n e e l e m e n t a r y t r u t h , the i g n o r a n c e o f w h i c h k i l l s
countless ideas and splendid plans: that the m o m e n t one
definitely c o m m i t s oneself, then p r o v i d e n c e m o v e s too.
A l l s o r t s o f t h i n g s o c c u r t o help o n e that w o u l d n o t
o t h e r w i s e h a v e o c c u r r e d . A w h o l e s t r e a m o f e v e n t s
i s s u e s f r o m the d e c i s i o n , r a i s i n g i n o n e ' s f a v o u r all
m a n n e r o f u n f o r e s e e n i n c i d e n t s a n d m e e t i n g s a n d
m a t e r i a l a s s i s t a n c e w h i c h n o m a n would have dreamed
w o u l d c o m e h i s w a y . I have learned a deep respect for
one o f G o e t h e ' s couplets: " W h a t e v e r y o u c a n d o , o r
d r e a m y o u c a n , b e g i n i t . B o l d n e s s has genius, m a g i c ,
and power in it. B e g i n it now."
— W . H . M u r r a y ,
The Scottish Himalayan Expedition
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D i d you ever see Wings of Desire, Wim Wenders's film
about angels among us? {City of Angels with Meg Ryan and
Nicolas C a g e was the American version.) I believe it. I
believe there are angels. They're here, but we can't see them.
Angels work for G o d . It's their job to help us. Wake us up.
Bump us along.
Angels are agents of evolution. T h e Kabbalah describes
angels as bundles of light, meaning intelligence, conscious-
ness. Kabbalists believe that above every blade of grass is an
angel crying "Grow! Grow!" I'll go further. I believe that
above the entire human race is one super-angel, crying
"Evolve! Evolve!"
Angels are like muses. They know stuff we don't. T h e y
want to help us. They're on the other side of a pane of glass,
shouting to get our attention. But we can't hear them. We're
too distracted by our own nonsense.
Ah, but when we begin.
When we make a start.
When we conceive an enterprise and commit to it in the
face of our fears, something wonderful happens. A crack
appears in the membrane. Like the first craze when a chick
pecks at the inside of its shell. Angel midwives congregate
around us; they assist as we give birth to ourselves, to that
person we were born to be, to the one whose destiny was
encoded in our soul, our daimon, our genius.
When we make a beginning, we get out of our own way
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and allow the angels to come in and do their job. They can
speak to us now and it makes them happy. It makes G o d
happy. Eternity, as Blake might have told us, has opened a
portal into time.
And we're it.
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W
hen I finish a day's work, I head up into the hills for
a hike. I take a pocket tape recorder because I know
that as my surface mind empties with the walk, another part
of me will chime in and start talking.
T h e word "leer" on page 342 . . . it should be " o g l e . "
You repeated yourself in Chapter 21. The last sentence is
just like that one in the middle of Chapter 7.
T h a t ' s the kind of stuff that comes. It comes to all of us,
every day, every minute. These paragraphs I'm writing now
were dictated to me yesterday; they replace a prior, weaker
opening to this chapter. I'm unspooling the new improved
version now, right off the recorder.
T h i s p r o c e s s o f s e l f - r e v i s i o n and s e l f - c o r r e c t i o n i s s o
common we don't even notice. But it's a miracle. And its
implications are staggering.
Who's doing this revising anyway? What force is yanking
at our sleeves?
What does it tell us about the architecture of our psyches
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that, without our exerting effort or even thinking about it,
some voice in our head pipes up to counsel us (and counsel
us wisely) on how to do our work and live our lives? Whose
v o i c e is it? What s o f t w a r e is g r i n d i n g away, s c a n n i n g
gigabytes, while we, our mainstream selves, are otherwise
occupied?
Are these angels?
Are they muses?
Is this the Unconscious?
The Self?
Whatever it is, it's smarter than we are. A lot smarter. It
doesn't need us to tell it what to do. It goes to work all by
itself. It seems to want to work. It seems to enjoy it.
What exactly is it doing?
It's organizing.
T h e principle of organization is built into nature. Chaos
itself is self-organizing. Out of primordial disorder, stars find
their orbits; rivers make their way to the sea.
When we, like G o d , set out to create a universe-a book, an
opera, a new business venture-the same principle kicks in.
O u r s c r e e n p l a y r e s o l v e s itself into a three-act s t r u c t u r e ;
our symphony takes shape into movements; our plumbing-
supply venture discovers its optimum chain of command.
How do we experience this? By having ideas. Insights pop
into our heads while we're shaving or taking a shower or
even, amazingly, while we're actually working. T h e elves
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behind this are smart. If we forget something, they remind
us. If we veer off-course, they trim the tabs and steer us back.
What can we conclude from this?
Clearly some intelligence is at work, independent of our
conscious mind and yet in alliance with it, processing our
material for us and alongside us.
This is why artists are modest. They know they're not
doing the work; they're just taking dictation. It's also why
"noncreative people" hate "creative people." Because they're
jealous. T h e y sense that artists and writers are tapped into
some grid of energy and inspiration that they themselves
cannot connect with.
Of course, this is nonsense. We're all creative. We all have
the same psyche. T h e same everyday miracles are happening
in all our heads day by day, minute by minute.
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n my twenties I drove tractor-trailers for a company
called Burton Lines in Durham, North Carolina. I wasn't
v e r y good at it; my self-destruction demons had me. O n l y
blind luck kept me from killing myself and any other poor
suckers w h o happened to be on the highway at the same time.
It was a tough period. I was broke, estranged from my wife
and my family. One night I had this dream:
I was part of the crew of an aircraft carrier. Only the ship
was stuck on dry land. It was still launching its jets and
doing its thing, but it was marooned half a mile from the
ocean. The sailors all knew how screwed up the situation
was; they felt it as a keen and constant distress. The only
bright spot was there was a Marine gunnery sergeant on
board nicknamed "Largo." In the dream it seemed like the
coolest name anyone could possibly have. Largo. I loved
it. Largo was one of those hard-core senior noncoms like
the Burt Lancaster character, Warden, in From Here to
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