Arnie, why are you lying to me?
"So what are you doing with it now?" Dennis asked.
"Spending money on it, what else?" Arnie said, and laughed his almost-
genuine laugh. Dennis might even have accepted it as genuine if he hadn't
heard the real article once or twice over the Thanksgiving supper Arnie had
brought. "New tires, new glass. Got some bodywork to do, and then it will
be as good as new."
As good as new
. But Leigh had said that they had found something that was
little more than a smashed hulk, a carny three-swings-for-a-quarter derelict.
Why are you lying?
For a cold moment he found himself wondering if maybe Arnie hadn't gone a
little crazy—but no, that wasn't the impression he gave. The feeling Dennis
got from him was one of… furtiveness. Craftiness. Then, for the first time,
the crazy thought came to him, the thought that maybe Arnie was only half-
lying, trying to lay a groundwork of plausibility for… for what? A case of
spontaneous regeneration? That was pretty crazy, wasn't it?
Wasn't it?
It was indeed, Dennis thought, unless you had happened to see a mass of
cracks in a windscreen seem to
shrink
between one viewing and the next.
Just a trick of the light. That's what you thought then, and you were right.
But a trick of the light didn't explain the haphazard way Arnie had gone about
rebuilding Christine, the hopscotch of old and new parts. It didn't explain that
weird feeling Dennis had gotten sitting behind the wheel of Christine in
LeBay's garage, or the sense, after the new tire had been put on en route to
Darnell's, that he was looking at an old-car picture with a new-car picture
directly underlying it, and that a hole had been cut out of the old-car picture
at the spot where one of the old-car tires had been.
And nothing explained Arnie's lie now… or the narrow, thoughtful way he
was watching Dennis to see if his lie was going to be accepted. So he
smiled… a big, easy, relieved grin. "Well, that's great," he said.
Arnie's narrow, evaluating expression held for a moment longer; then he
smiled an aw-shucks grin and shrugged. "Luck," he said. "When I think of the
things they could have done sugar in the gas tank, molasses in the carb—they
were stupid. Lucky for me."
"Repperton and his merry crew?" Dennis asked quietly.
The suspicious look, so dark and unlike Arnie, appeared again and then sank
from sight. Arnie looked grim now. Grim and morose. He seemed to speak,
then sighed instead. "Yeah," he said. "Who else?"
"But you didn't report it."
"My dad did."
"That's what Leigh said."
"What else did she tell you?" Arnie asked sharply.
"Nothing, and I didn't ask," Dennis said, holding his hand out. "Your
business, Arnie. Peace."
"Sure." He laughed a little and then passed a hand over his face. "I'm still not
over it. Fuck. I don't think I'm ever going to be over it, Dennis. Coming into
that parking lot with Leigh, feeling like I was on top of the world, and seeing
—"
"Won't they just do it again if you fix her up again?" Arnie's face went dead-
cold, set. "They won't do it again," he said. His gray eyes were like March
ice, and Dennis found himself suddenly very glad he wasn't Buddy
Repperton.
"What do you mean?"
"I'll be parking it at home, that's what I mean," he said, and once more his
face broke into that large, cheerful, unnatural grin. "What did you think I
meant?"
"Nothing," Dennis said. The image of ice remained. Now it was a feeling of
thin ice, creaking uneasily under his feet. Beneath that, black, cold water.
"But I don't know, Arnie. You seem awful sure that Buddy wants to let this
go."
"I'm hoping he'll see it as a standoff," Arnie said quietly. "We got him
expelled from school
"He got
himself
expelled!" Dennis said hotly. "He pulled a knife—hell, it
wasn't even a knife, it was a goddam pigsticker!"
I'm just telling it the way he'll see it," Arnie said, then held out his hand and
laughed. "Peace."
"Yeah, okay."
"We got him expelled—or more accurately, I did—and he and his buddies
beat hell out of Christine. Evens. The end."
"Yeah, if he sees it that way."
"I think he will," Arnie said. "The cops questioned him and Moochie Welch
and Richie Trelawney. Scared them. And almost got Sandy Galton to confess,
I guess." Arnie's lip curled. "Fucking crybaby."
This was so unlike Arnie—the old Arnie—that Dennis sat up in bed without
thinking and then winced at the pain in his back and lay down again quickly.
"Jesus, man, you sound like you want him to stonewall it!"
"I don't care what he or any of those shitters do," Arnie said, and then, in a
strangely offhand voice he added, "It doesn't matter anymore anyhow."
Dennis said, "Arnie, are you all right?"
And for a moment a look of desperate sadness passed over Arnie's face—
more than sadness. He looked harried and haunted. It was the face, Dennis
thought later (it is so easy to see these things later; too much later) of
someone so bewildered and entangled and weary of struggling that he hardly
knows anymore what it is he is doing.
Then that expression, like that other look of dark suspicion, was gone.
"Sure," he said. "I'm great. Except that you're not the only one with a hurt
back. You remember when I strained it at Philly Plains?"
Dennis nodded.
"Check this out." He stood up and pulled his shirt out of his pants. Something
seemed to dance in his eyes. Something flipping and turning at a black depth.
He lifted his shirt. It wasn't old-fashioned like LeBay"s; it was cleaner, too—
a neat, seemingly unbroken band of Lycra about twelve inches across. But,
Dennis thought, a brace was a brace. It was too close to LeBay for comfort.
"I put another hurt on it getting Christine back to Will's," Arnie said. "I don't
even remember how I did it, that's how upset I was. Hooking her up to the
wrecker, I guess, but I don't know for sure. At first it wasn't too bad, then it
got worse. Dr Mascia prescribed—Dennis, are you okay?"
With what felt like a fantastic effort, Dennis kept his voice even. He moved
his features around into an expression which felt at least faintly like pleasant
interest and still there was that something dancing in Arnie's eyes, dancing
and dancing.
"You'll shake it off," Dennis said
"Sure, I imagine," Arnie said, tucking his shirt back in around the back brace.
"I'm just supposed to watch what I lift so I don't do it again."
He smiled at Dennis.
"If there was stilt a draft, it would keep me out of the Army," he said.
Once again Dennis restrained himself from any movement that could be
interpreted as surprise, but he put his arms under the bed's top sheet. At the
sight of that back brace, so like LeBay's, they had broken out in gooseflesh.
Arnie's eyes—like black water under thin gray March ice. Black water and
glee dancing far down within them like the twisting, decomposing body of a
drowned man. "Listen," Arnie said briskly. "I gotta move. Hope you didn't
think I could hang around a lousy place like this all night."
"That's you, always in demand," Dennis said. "Seriously, man, thanks. You
cheered up a grim day."
For one strange instant, he thought Arnie was going to weep. That dancing
thing down deep in his eyes was gone and his friend was there—really there.
Then Arnie smiled sincerely. "Just remember one thing, Dennis: nobody
misses you. Nobody at all."
"Eat me raw through a Flavor Straw," Dennis said solemnly.
Arnie gave him the finger
The formalities were now complete; Arnie could leave He gathered up his
brown shopping bag, considerably deflated, candle-holders and empty beer
bottles clinking inside.
Dennis had a sudden inspiration. He rapped his knuckles on his leg cast.
"Sign this, Arnie, would you?"
"I already did, didn't I?"
"Yeah, but it wore off. Sign it again?"
Arnie shrugged. "If you've got a pen."
Dennis gave him one from the drawer of the night-table. Grinning, Arnie bent
over the cast, which was hoisted to an angle over the bed with a series of
weights and pulleys, found white space in the intaglio of names and mottoes,
and scribbled:
He patted the cast when he was done and handed the pen back to Dennis.
"Okay?"
"Yeah," Dennis said. "Thanks. Stay loose, Arnie."
"You know it. Happy Thanksgiving."
"Same to you."
Arnie left. Later on, Dennis's mother and father came in; Ellie, apparently
exhausted by the day's hilarity, had gone home to bed, On their way home, the
Guilders commented to each other on how withdrawn Dennis had seemed.
"He was in a blue study, all right," Guilder said. "Holidays in the hospital
aren't any fun."
As for Dennis himself, he spent a long and thoughtful time that evening
examining two signatures. Arnie had indeed signed his cast, but at a time
when both of Dennis's legs had been in full-leg casts. That first time, he had
signed the cast on the right leg, which had been up in the air when Arnie
came in. Tonight he had signed the left.
Dennis buzzed for a nurse and used all his charm persuading her to lower his
left leg so he could compare the two signatures, side by side. The cast on his
right leg had been cut down, and would come off altogether in a week or ten
days. Arnie's signature had not rubbed off—that had been one of
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