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Stallmeister give him satisfaction; that he had never yet let any injury abide with

him; that, should the man refuse, there were other ways of taking vengeance.

This  was  the  very  business  for  Laertes.  He  went  up  stairs,  with  a  solemn

countenance, to call out the Stallmeister in the boy’s name.

“This  is  a  pleasant  thing,”  said  the  Stallmeister:  “such  a  joke  as  this  I  had

scarcely  promised  myself  to-night.”  They  went  down,  and  Philina  followed

them. “My son,” said the Stallmeister to Friedrich, “thou art a brave lad, and I do

not  hesitate  to  fight  thee.  Only,  as  our  years  and  strength  are  unequal,  and  the

attempt a little dangerous on that account, I propose a pair of foils in preference

to  other  weapons.  We  can  rub  the  buttons  of  them  with  a  piece  of  chalk;  and

whoever marks upon the other’s coat the first or the most thrusts, shall be held

the  victor,  and  be  treated  by  the  other  with  the  best  wine  that  can  be  had  in

town.”

Laertes  decided  that  the  proposition  might  be  listened  to:  Friedrich  obeyed

him, as his tutor. The foils were produced: Philina took a seat, went on with her

knitting, and looked at the contending parties with the greatest peace of mind.

The  Stallmeister,  who  could  fence  very  prettily,  was  complaisant  enough  to

spare his adversary, and to let a few chalk scores be marked upon his coat; after

which the two embraced, and wine was ordered. The Stallmeister took the liberty

of asking Friedrich’s parentage and history; and Friedrich told him a long story,

which  had  often  been  repeated  already,  and  which,  at  some  other  opportunity,

we purpose communicating to our readers.

To Wilhelm, in the mean time, this contest completed the representation of his

own state of mind. He could not but perceive that he would willingly have taken

up  a  foil  against  the  Stallmeister,    —    a  sword  still  more  willingly,  though

evidently much his inferior in the science of defence. Yet he deigned not to cast

one  look  on  Philina;  he  was  on  his  guard  against  any  word  or  movement  that

could possibly betray his feelings: and, after having once or twice done justice to

the  health  of  the  duellists,  he  hastened  to  his  own  room,  where  a  thousand

painful thoughts came pressing round him.

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He  called  to  memory  the  time  when  his  spirit,  rich  in  hope,  and  full  of

boundless aims, was raised aloft, and encircled with the liveliest enjoyments of

every  kind  as  with  its  proper  element.  He  now  clearly  saw,  that  of  late  he  had

fallen into a broken, wandering path, where, if he tasted, it was but in drops what

he  once  quaffed  in  unrestricted  measure.  But  he  could  not  clearly  see  what

insatiable  want  it  was  that  nature  had  made  the  law  of  his  being,  and  how  this

want  had  been  only  set  on  edge,  half  satisfied,  and  misdirected  by  the

circumstances of his life.

It will not surprise us, therefore, that, in considering his situation, and laboring

to  extricate  himself,  he  fell  into  the  greatest  perplexity.  It  was  not  enough,  that

by his friendship for Laertes, his attachment to Philina, his concern for Mignon,

he had been detained longer than was proper in a place and a society where he

could  cherish  his  darling  inclination,  content  his  wishes  as  it  were  by  stealth,

and, without proposing any object, again pursue his early dreams. These ties he

believed  himself  possessed  of  force  enough  to  break  asunder:  had  there  been

nothing more to hold him, he could have gone at once. But, only a few moments

ago,  he  had  entered  into  money  transactions  with  Melina:  he  had  seen  that

mysterious  old  man,  the  enigma  of  whose  history  he  longed  with  unspeakable

desire  to  clear.  Yet  of  this  too,  after  much  balancing  of  reasons,  he  at  length

determined, or thought he had determined, that it should not keep him back. “I

must go.” He threw himself into a chair: he felt greatly moved. Mignon came in,

and asked whether she might help to undress him. Her manner was still and shy:

it had grieved her to the quick to be so abruptly dismissed by him before.

Nothing  is  more  touching  than  the  first  disclosure  of  a  love  which  has  been

nursed in silence, of a faith grown strong in secret, and which at last comes forth

in  the  hour  of  need,  and  reveals  itself  to  him  who  formerly  has  reckoned  it  of

small account. The bud, which had been closed so long and firmly, was now ripe

to  burst  its  swathings;  and  Wilhelm’s  heart  could  never  have  been  readier  to

welcome the impressions of affection.

She  stood  before  him,  and  noticed  his  disquietude.  “Master!”  she  cried,  “if

thou art unhappy, what will become of Mignon?” — “Dear little creature,” said

he, taking her hands, “thou, too, art part of my anxieties. I must go hence.” She

looked  at  his  eyes,  glistening  with  restrained  tears,  and  knelt  down  with

vehemence before him. He kept her hands: she laid her head upon his knees, and

remained quite still. He played with her hair, patted her, and spoke kindly to her.

She  continued  motionless  for  a  considerable  time.  At  last  he  felt  a  sort  of

palpitating movement in her, which began very softly, and then by degrees, with

increasing violence, diffused itself over all her frame. “What ails thee, Mignon?”

cried  he:  “What  ails  thee?”  She  raised  her  little  head,  looked  at  him,  and  all  at

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once  laid  her  hand  upon  her  heart,  with  the  countenance  of  one  repressing  the

utterance of pain. He raised her up, and she fell upon his breast: he pressed her

towards him, and kissed her. She replied not by any pressure of the hand, by any

motion whatever. She  held firmly against  her heart, and  all at once  gave a cry,

which was accompanied by spasmodic movements of the body. She started up,

and  immediately  fell  down  before  him,  as  if  broken  in  every  joint.  It  was  an

excruciating moment. “My child!” cried he, raising her up, and clasping her fast,

“my child, what ails thee?” The palpitations continued, spreading from the heart

over all the lax and powerless limbs: she was merely hanging in his arms. All at

once  she  again  became  quite  stiff,  like  one  enduring  the  sharpest  corporeal

agony; and soon with a new vehemence all her frame once more became alive;

and she threw herself about his neck, like a bent spring that is closing; while in

her soul, as it were, a strong rent took place, and at the same moment a stream of

tears flowed from her shut eyes into his bosom. He held her fast. She wept, and

no tongue can express the force of these tears. Her long hair had loosened, and

was  hanging  down  before  her:  it  seemed  as  if  her  whole  being  was  melting

incessantly into a brook of tears. Her rigid limbs were again become relaxed; her

inmost  soul  was  pouring  itself  forth;  in  the  wild  confusion  of  the  moment

Wilhelm was afraid she would dissolve in his arms, and leave nothing there for

him to grasp. He held her faster and faster. “My child!” cried he, “my child! thou

art indeed mine, if that word can comfort thee. Thou art mine! I will keep thee, I

will never forsake thee!” Her tears continued flowing. At last she raised herself:

a  faint  gladness  shone  upon  her  face.  “My  father!”  cried  she,  “thou  wilt  not

forsake me? Wilt be my father? I am thy child!”

Softly, at this moment, the harp began to sound before the door: the old man

brought  his  most  affecting  songs  as  an  evening  offering  to  our  friend,  who,

holding  his  child  ever  faster  in  his  arms,  enjoyed  the  most  pure  and

undescribable felicity.

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