particularly bad about what you are gonna do tonight, because it isn’t
honest, and I am afraid I cannot go on with you any longer.
Maybe it is my fault, partly, because I have gotten to an age where I
need to settle down. I think about having a house and a family and goin
to church and things like that. I have known you since the first grade,
Forrest—nearly thirty years—and have watched you grow up big and
strong and fine. And when I finally realized how much I cared for you—
when you came up to Boston—I was the happiest girl in the world.
And then you took to smoking too much dope, and you fooled with
those girls down in Provincetown, an even after that, I missed you, and
was glad you came to Washington during the peace demonstration to see
me.
But when you got shot up in the spaceship and were lost in the jungle
nearly four years, I think maybe I changed. I am not as hopeful as I used
to be, and think I would be satisfied with just a simple life somewhere.
So, now I must go an find it.
Something is changed in you, too, dear Forrest. I don’t think you can
help it exactly, for you were always a “special” person, but we no longer
seem to think the same way.
I am in tears as I write this, but we must part now. Please don’t try to
find me. I wish you well, my darling—good-bye.
love,
Jenny
Dan handed the note to me but I let it drop on the floor an just stood
there, realizin for the first time in my life what it is truly like to be a
idiot.
Well, after that I was one sorry bastid.
Dan an me stayed at the apartment that nite, but the nex mornin
started packin up our shit an all, cause there wadn’t no reason to be in
Indianapolis no longer. Dan, he come to me an say, “Here, Forrest, take
this money,” an helt out the two thousand dollars Mike had give us for
rasslin The Professor.
“I don’t want it,” I says.
“Well you better take it,” says Dan, “cause it’s all we got.”
“You keep it,” I says.
“At least take haf of it,” he say. “Look, you gotta have some travelin
money. Get you to wherever your goin.”
“Ain’t you goin with me?” I axed.
“I’m afraid not, Forrest,” he says. “I think I done enough damage
already. I didn’t sleep none last night. I’m thinkin about how I got you to
agree to bet all our money, an how I got you to keep on rasslin when it
oughta have been apparent Jenny was about to freak out on us. An it
wadn’t your fault you got whupped by The Professor. You did what you
could. I am the one to blame. I jus ain’t no good.”
“Awe, Dan, it wadn’t your fault neither,” I says. “If I hadn’t of got the
big head bout bein The Dunce, an begun to believe all that shit they was
sayin bout me, I wouldn’t of got in this fix in the first place.”
“Whatever it is,” Dan say, “I jus don’t feel right taggin along anymore.
You got other fish to fry now. Go an fry em. Forget about me. I ain’t no
good.”
Well, me an Dan talked for a long time, but there wadn’t no convincin
him, an after a wile, he got his shit an I hepped him down the steps, an
the last I seen of him, he was pushin hissef down the street on his little
cart, with all his clothes an shit piled in his lap.
I went down to the bus station an bought a ticket to Mobile. It was
sposed to be a two day an two nite trip, down thru Louisville, to
Nashville, to Birmingham an then Mobile, an I was one miserable idiot,
settin there wile the bus rolled along.
We passed thru Louisville durin the nite, an the nex day we stopped in
Nashville an had to change busses. It was about a three hour wait, so I
decided to walk aroun town for a wile. I got me a sambwich at a lunch
counter an a glass of iced tea an was walkin down the street when I seen
a big sign in front of a hotel say, “Welcome Grandmaster’s Invitational
Chess Tournament.”
It sort of got my curiosity up, on account of I had played all that chess
back in the jungle with Big Sam, an so I went on into the hotel. They
was playin the chess game in the ballroom an had a big mob of people
watchin, but a sign say, “Five dollars admission,” and I didn’t want to
spend none of my money, but I looked in thru the door for a wile, an
then jus went an set down in the lobby by mysef.
They was a chair across from me with a little ole man settin in it. He
was all shriveled up an grumpy-lookin an had on a black suit with spats
an a bow tie an he had a chessboard set out on a table in front of him.
As I set there, ever once in a wile he would move one of the chessmen,
an it begun to dawn on me that he was playin by hissef. I figgered I had
bout another hour or so fore the bus lef, so I axed him if he wanted
somebody to play with. He jus looked at me an then looked back down
at his chessboard an didn’t say nothin.
A little bit later, the ole feller’d been studyin the chessboard for most
of a half hour an then he moved his white bishop over to black square
seven an was jus bout to take his han off it when I says, “ ’scuse me.”
The feller jumped like he’d set on a tack, an be glarin across the table
at me.
“You make that move,” I says, “an you be leavin yoursef wide open to
lose your knight an then your queen an put your ass in a fix.”
He look down at his chessboard, never takin his han off the bishop, an
then he move it back an say to me, “Possibly you are right.”
Well, he go on back to studyin the chessboard an I figger it’s time to
get back to the bus station, but jus as I start to leave, the ole man say,
“Pardon me, but that was a very shrewd observation you made.”
I nod my head, an then he say, “Look, you’ve obviously played the
game, why don’t you sit down an finish this one with me? Just take over
the white in their positions now.”
“I cain’t,” I says, cause I got to catch the bus an all. So he jus nods an
gives me a little salute with his han an I went on back to the bus station.
Time I get there, the damn bus done lef anyway, an here I am an ain’t
no other bus till tomorrow. I jus cain’t do nothin right. Well, I got a day
to kill, so I walked on back to the hotel an there is the little ole man still
playin against hissef, an he seems to be winnin. I went on up to him an
he look up an motion for me to set down. The situation I have come into
is pretty miserable—haf my pawns gone an I ain’t got but one bishop an
no rooks an my queen is about to be captured nex.
It took me most of a hour to git mysef back in a even position, an the
ole man be kinda gruntin an shakin his head evertime I improve my
situation. Finally, I dangle a gambit in front of him. He took it, an three
moves later I got him in check.
“I will be damned,” he say. “Just who
are
you, anyway?”
I tole him my name, an he say, “No, I mean, where have you played? I
don’t even recognize you.”
When I tole him I learnt to play in New Guinea, an he say, “Good
heavens! An you mean to say you haven’t even been in regional
competition?”
I shook my head an he says, “Well whether you know it or not, I am a
former international grand master, and you have just stepped into a
game you couldn’t possibily have won, and totally annihilated me!”
I axed how come he wadn’t playin in the room with the other people,
an he says, “Oh, I played earlier. I’m nearly eighty years old now, an
there is a sort of senior tournament. The real glory is to the younger
fellows now—their minds are jus sharper.”
I nodded my head an thanked him for the game an got up to go, but
he says, “Listen, have you had your supper yet?”
I tole him I had a sambwich a few hours ago, an he say, “Well how
about letting me buy you dinner? After all, you gave me a superb game.”
I said that woud be okay, an we went into the hotel dinin room. He
was a nice man. Mister Tribble was his name.
“Look,” Mister Tribble say wile we is havin dinner, “I’d have to play
you a few more games to be sure, but unless your playing this evening
was a total fluke, you are perhaps one of the brightest unrecognized
talents in the game. I would like to sponsor you in a tournament or two,
and see what happens.”
I tole him about headin home an wantin to get into the srimp bidness
and all, but he say, “Well, this could be the opportunity of a lifetime for
you, Forrest. You could make a lot of money in this game, you know.”
He said for me to think it over tonight, an let him know somethin in the
mornin. So me an Mister Tribble shook hans, an I went on out in the
street.
I done wandered aroun for a wile, but they ain’t a lot to see in
Nashville, an finally I wound up settin on a bench in a park. I was tryin
to think, which don’t exactly come easy to me, an figger out what to do
now. My mind was mostly on Jenny an where she is. She say not to try
to find her or nothin, but they is a feelin down deep in me someplace
that she ain’t forgot me. I done made a fool of mysef in Indianapolis, an I
know it. I think it was that I wadn’t tryin to do the right thing. An now, I
ain’t sure what the right thing is. I mean, here I am, ain’t got no money
to speak of, an I got to have some to start up the srimp bidness, an
Mister Tribble say I can win a good bit on the chess circuit. But it seem
like ever time I do somethin besides tryin to get home an get the srimp
bidness started, I get my big ass in hot water—so here I am again,
wonderin what to do.
I ain’t been wonderin long when up come a policeman an axe me what
I’m doin.
I says I’m jus settin here thinkin, an he say ain’t nobody allowed to set
an think in the park at night an for me to move along. I go on down the
street, an the policeman be followin me. I didn’t know where to go, so
after a wile I saw an alley an walked on back in it an foun a place to set
down an rest my feet. I ain’t been settin there more’n a minute when the
same ole policeman come by an see me there.
“All right,” he say, “come on outta there.” When I get out to the street,
he say, “What you doin in there?”
I says, “Nothin,” an he say, “That’s exactly what I thought—you is
under arrest for loiterin.”
Well, he take me to the jail an lock me up an then in the mornin they
say I can make one phone call if I want. Course I didn’t know nobody to
phone but Mister Tribble, so that’s what I did. Bout haf a hour later, he
shows up at the police station an springs me out of jail.
Then he buys me a big ole breakfast at the hotel an says, “Listen, why
don’t you let me enter you in the interzonal championships next week in
Los Angeles? First prize is ten thousan dollars. I will pay for all your
expenses an we will split any money you win. Seems to me you need a
stake of some sort, and, to tell you the truth, I would enjoy it immensely
mysef. I will be your coach and adviser. How bout it?”
I still had some doubts, but I figgered it wouldn’t hurt to try. So I said
I woud do it for a wile. Till I got enough money to start the srimp thing.
An me an Mister Tribble shook hans an become partners.
Los Angeles was quite a sight. We got there a week early an Mister
Tribble would spend most of the day coachin me an honin down my
game, but after a wile of this, he jus shook his head an say there ain’t no
sense in tryin to coach me, cause I got “every move in the book” already.
So what we did was, we went out on the town.
Mister Tribble took me to Disneyland an let me go on some rides an
then he arranged to get us a tour of a movie lot. They is got all sorts of
movies goin on, an people is runnin aroun shoutin “take one,” an “cut,”
an “action,” an shit like that. One of the movies they was doin was a
Western an we seen a feller get hissef thowed thru a plate glass winder
about ten times—till he got it right.
Anyway, we was jus standin there watchin this, when some guy walk
up an says, “I beg your pardon, are you an actor?”
I says, “Huh?” An Mister Tribble, he says, “No, we are chess players.”
An the feller say, “Well that’s kind of a shame, because the big guy
here, he looks ideal for a role in a movie I’m doing.” And then he turn to
me an feel of my arm an say, “My, my, you
are
a big strong feller—are
you sure you don’t act?”
“I did once,” I says.
“Really!” the feller says. “What in?”
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