The
Great Dictator
. You've probably never even seen it. It was a common enough
name for him during the war years, at any rate. You would be much too young
to remember. But it means nothing."
It was my turn to remain silent.
"It means nothing!" he shouted. "Nothing! It's vapors and suggestions, nothing
more! You must see this!"
"There are seven people dead over here in western Pennsylvania," I said.
"That's not just vapors. There are the signatures on my casts. They're not
vapors, either. I saved them, Mr LeBay. Let me send them to you. Look at
them and tell me if one of them isn't your brother's handwriting."
"It could be a knowing or unknowing forgery."
"If you believe that, get a handwriting expert. I'll pay for it."
You could do that yourself."
"Mr LeBay," I said, "I don't need any more convincing."
"But what do you want from me? To share your fantasy? I won't do that. My
brother is dead. His car is just a car." He was lying. I felt it. Even through the
telephone I felt it.
"I want you to explain something you said to me that night we talked."
"What would that be?" He sounded wary.
I licked my lips. "You said he was obsessed and angry, but he wasn't a
monster. At least, you said, you didn't, think he was. Then it seemed like you
changed the subject completely but the more I think about it, the more I think
you didn't change the subject at all. The next thing you said was that he never
put a mark on either of them."
"Dennis, really. I—"
"Look, if you were going to say something, for Christ's sake, say it now!" I
cried. My voice cracked. I wiped my forehead, and my hand came away
slimy with sweat. "This is no easier for me than it is for you, Arnie's fixated
on this girl, her name is Leigh Cabot, only I don't think it's Arnie who's
fixated on her at all, I think it's your brother, your dead brother,
now talk to
me, please!
"
He sighed.
"Talk to you?" he said. "
Talk
to you? To talk about these old events no, these
old suspicions… that would be almost the same as to shake a sleeping fiend,
Dennis. Please, I know nothing."
I could have told him that the fiend was already awake, but he knew that.
"Tell me what you suspect."
"I'll call you back."
"Mr LeBay… please…"
"I'll call you back, " he said. "I've got to call my sister Marcia in Colorado."
"If it will help, I'll call—"
"No, she would never talk to you. We've only talked of it to each other once
or twice, if that. I hope your conscience is clear on this matter, Dennis.
Because you are asking us to rip open old scars and make them bleed again.
So I'll ask you once more: how sure are you?"
"Sure," I whispered.
"I'll call you back," he said, and hung up.
Fifteen minutes went past, then twenty. I went around the room on my
crutches, unable to sit still. I looked out the window at the wintry street, a
study in blacks and whites. Twice I went to the telephone and didn't pick it
up, afraid he would be trying to get me at the same time, even more afraid
that he wouldn't call back at all. The third time, just as I put my hand on it, it
rang. I jerked back as if stung, and then scooped it up.
"Hi?" Ellie's breathless voice said from downstairs. "Donna?"
"Is Dennis Guilder—" LeBay's voice began, sounding older and more broken
than ever.
"I've got it, Ellie," I said,
"Well, who cares?" Ellie said pertly, and hung up.
"Hello, Mr LeBay," I said. My heart was thudding hard.
"I spoke to her," he said heavily. "She tells me only to use my own
judgement. But she is frightened. Together, you and I have conspired to
frighten an old lady who has never hurt anyone and has nothing whatever to
do with this."
"In a good cause," I said.
"Is it?"
"If I didn't think so, I wouldn't have called you," I said. "Are you going to talk
to me or not, Mr LeBay?"
"Yes," he said. "To you, but to no one else. If you should tell someone else, I
would deny it. You understand?"
"Yes."
"Very well," he sighed. "In our conversation last summer, Dennis, I told you
one lie about what happened and one lie about what I—what Marcy and I—
felt about it. We lied to ourselves. If it hadn't been for you, I think we could
have continued to lie to ourselves about that—that incident by the highway—
for the rest of our lives."
"The little girl? LeBay's daughter?" I was holding the phone tightly,
squeezing it.
"Yes," he said heavily. "Rita."
"What really happened when she choked?"
"My mother used to call Rollie her changeling," Le Bay said. "Did I tell you
that?"
"No."
"No, of course not. I told you I thought your friend would be happier if he got
rid of the car, but there is only so much a person can say in defense of one's
beliefs, because the irrational… it creeps in…
He paused. I didn't prompt him. He would tell, or he wouldn't. It was as
simple as that.
"My mother said he was a perfectly good baby until he was six months old.
And then… she said that was when Puck came, She said Puck took her good
baby for one of his jokes and replaced him with a changeling. She laughed
when she said it. But she never said it when Rollie was around to hear, and
her
eyes
never laughed, Dennis. I think… it was her only explanation for
what he was, for why he was so untouchable in his rage… so single-minded
in his few simple purposes.
"There was a boy—I have forgotten his name—a bigger boy who thrashed
Rollie three or four times. A bully. He would start on Rollie's clothes and
ask him if he'd worn his underpants one month or two this time. And Rollie
would fight him and curse him and threaten him and the bully would laugh at
him and hold him off with his longer arms and punch him until he was tired
or until Rollie's nose was bleeding. And then Rollie would sit there on the
corner, smoking a cigarette and crying with blood and snot drying on his face.
And if Drew or I came near him, he would beat us to within an inch of our
lives.
"That bully's house burned down one night, Dennis. The bully and the bully's
father and the bully's little brother were killed. The bully's sister was
horribly burned. It was supposed to have been the stove in the kitchen, and
maybe it was. But the fire sirens woke me up, and I was still awake when
Rollie came up the ivy trellis and into the room I shared with him. There was
soot on his forehead, and he smelled of gasoline. He saw me lying there with
my eyes open and he said, 'If you tell, Georgie, I'll kill you.' And ever since
that night, Dennis, I've tried to tell myself that he meant if I told he had been
out, watching the fire. And maybe that was all it was."
My mouth was dry. There seemed to be a lead ball in my stomach. The hairs
along the nape of my neck felt like dry quills. "How old was your brother
then?" I asked hoarsely.
"Not quite thirteen," LeBay said with terrible false calm. "One winter day
about a year later, there was a fight during a hockey game, and a fellow
named Randy Throgmorton laid open Rollie's head with his stick. Knocked
him senseless. We got him to old Dr Farner—Rollie had come around by
then, but he was still groggy—and Farner put a dozen stitches in his scalp. A
week later, Randy Throgmorton fell through the ice on Palmer Pond and was
drowned. He had been skating in an area clearly marked with THIN ICE
signs, apparently."
"Are you saying your brother killed these people? Are you leading up to
telling me that LeBay killed his own daughter?"
"Not that he killed her, Dennis—never think that. She choked to death. What I
am suggesting is that he may have let her die."
"You said he turned her over—punched her—tried to make her vomit
"That's what Rollie told me at the funeral," George said.
"Then what—"
"Marcia and I talked it over later. Only that once, you understand. Over
dinner that night. Rollie told me, "I picked her up by her Buster Browns and
tried to whack that sonofabitch out of there, Georgie. But it was stuck down
fast." And what Veronica told Marcia was, "Rollie picked her up by her
shoes and tried to whack whatever was choking her out of there, but it was
stuck down fast." They told exactly the same story, in exactly the same
words. And do you know what that made me think of?"
"No."
"It made me think of Rollie climbing in the bedroom window and whispering
to me, '
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