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Chapter 16
When Levin went upstairs, his wife was sitting near the new silver samovar
behind the new tea service, and, having settled old Agafea Mihalovna at a
little table with a full cup of tea, was reading a letter from Dolly, with
whom they were in continual and frequent correspondence.
"You see, your good lady's settled me here, told me to sit a bit with her,"
said Agafea Mihalovna, smiling affectionately at Kitty.
In these words of Agafea Mihalovna, Levin read the final act of the drama
which had been enacted of late between her and Kitty. He saw that, in spite
of Agafea Mihalovna's feelings being hurt by a new mistress taking the
reins of government out of her hands, Kitty had yet conquered her and
made her love her.
"Here, I opened your letter too," said Kitty, handing him an illiterate letter.
"It's from that woman, I think, your brother's..." she said. "I did not read it
through. This is from my people and from Dolly. Fancy! Dolly took Tanya
and Grisha to a children's ball at the Sarmatskys': Tanya was a French
marquise."
But Levin did not hear her. Flushing, he took the letter from Marya
Nikolaevna, his brother's former mistress, and began to read it. This was the
second letter he had received from Marya Nikolaevna. In the first letter,
Marya Nikolaevna wrote that his brother had sent her away for no fault of
hers, and, with touching simplicity, added that though she was in want
again, she asked for nothing, and wished for nothing, but was only
tormented by the thought that Nikolay Dmitrievitch would come to grief
without her, owing to the weak state of his health, and begged his brother to
look after him. Now she wrote quite differently. She had found Nikolay
Dmitrievitch, had again made it up with him in Moscow, and had moved
with him to a provincial town, where he had received a post in the
government service. But that he had quarreled with the head official, and
was on his way back to Moscow, only he had been taken so ill on the road
that it was doubtful if he would ever leave his bed again, she wrote. "It's
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always of you he has talked, and, besides, he has no more money left."
"Read this; Dolly writes about you," Kitty was beginning, with a smile; but
she stopped suddenly, noticing the changed expression on her husband's
face.
"What is it? What's the matter?"
"she writes to me that Nikolay, my brother, is at death's door. I shall go to
him."
Kitty's face changed at once. Thoughts of Tanya as a marquise, of Dolly, all
had vanished.
"When are you going?" she said.
"Tomorrow."
"And I will go with you, can I?" she said.
"Kitty! What are you thinking of?" he said reproachfully.
"How do you mean?" offended that he should seem to take her suggestion
unwillingly and with vexation. "Why shouldn't I go? I shan't be in your
way. I..."
"I'm going because my brother is dying," said Levin. "Why should you..."
"Why? For the same reason as you."
"And, at a moment of such gravity for me, she only thinks of her being dull
by herself," thought Levin. And this lack of candor in a matter of such
gravity infuriated him.
"It's out of the question," he said sternly.
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Agafea Mihalovna, seeing that it was coming to a quarrel, gently put down
her cup and withdrew. Kitty did not even notice her. The tone in which her
husband had said the last words wounded her, especially because he
evidently did not believe what she had said.
"I tell you, that if you go, I shall come with you; I shall certainly come,"
she said hastily and wrathfully. "Why out of the question? Why do you say
it's out of the question?"
"Because it'll be going God knows where, by all sorts of roads and to all
sorts of hotels. You would be a hindrance to me," said Levin, trying to be
cool.
"Not at all. I don't want anything. Where you can go, I can...."
"Well, for one thing then, because this woman's there whom you can't
meet."
"I don't know and don't care to know who's there and what. I know that my
husband's brother is dying and my husband is going to him, and I go with
my husband too...."
"Kitty! Don't get angry. But just think a little: this is a matter of such
importance that I can't bear to think that you should bring in a feeling of
weakness, of dislike to being left alone. Come, you'll be dull alone, so go
and stay at Moscow a little."
"There, you always ascribe base, vile motives to me," she said with tears of
wounded pride and fury. "I didn't mean, it wasn't weakness, it wasn't...I feel
that it's my duty to be with my husband when he's in trouble, but you try on
purpose to hurt me, you try on purpose not to understand...."
"No; this is awful! To be such a slave!" cried Levin, getting up, and unable
to restrain his anger any longer. But at the same second he felt that he was
beating himself.
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"Then why did you marry? You could have been free. Why did you, if you
regret it?" she said, getting up and running away into the drawing room.
When he went to her, she was sobbing.
He began to speak, trying to find words not to dissuade but simply to
soothe her. But she did not heed him, and would not agree to anything. He
bent down to her and took her hand, which resisted him. He kissed her
hand, kissed her hair, kissed her hand again--still she was silent. But when
he took her face in both his hands and said "Kitty!" she suddenly recovered
herself, and began to cry, and they were reconciled.
It was decided that they should go together the next day. Levin told his wife
that he believed she wanted to go simply in order to be of use, agreed that
Marya Nikolaevna's being with his brother did not make her going
improper, but he set off at the bottom of his heart dissatisfied both with her
and with himself. He was dissatisfied with her for being unable to make up
her mind to let him go when it was necessary (and how strange it was for
him to think that he, so lately hardly daring to believe in such happiness as
that she could love him--now was unhappy because she loved him too
much!), and he was dissatisfied with himself for not showing more strength
of will. Even greater was the feeling of disagreement at the bottom of his
heart as to her not needing to consider the woman who was with his
brother, and he thought with horror of all the contingencies they might meet
with. The mere idea of his wife, his Kitty, being in the same room with a
common wench, set him shuddering with horror and loathing.
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