All the Bright Places

FINCH
The day of
She is oxygen, carbon, hydrogen, nitrogen, calcium, and phosphorus. The
same elements that are inside the rest of us, but I can’t help thinking she’s
more than that and she’s got other elements going on that no one’s ever heard
of, ones that make her stand apart from everybody else. I feel this brief panic
as I think, 
What would happen if one of those elements malfunctioned or just
stopped working altogether?
I make myself push this aside and concentrate
on the feel of her skin until I no longer see molecules but Violet.
As the song plays on the turntable, I hear one of my own that’s taking
shape:
You make me love you …
The line plays over and over in my head as we move from standing to lying
down.
You make me love you
You make me love you
You make me love you …
I want to get up and write it down and tack it to the wall. But I don’t.
Afterward, as we lie tangled up, kind of winded and Huh and Wow, she says,
“I should get home.” We lie there a little longer and then she says it again. “I
should get home.”
In the car, we hold hands and don’t talk about what happened. Instead of
driving to her house, I take a detour. When I get to the Purina Tower, she
wants to know what we’re doing.
I grab the blanket and pillow from the back and say, “I’m going to tell you
a story.”
“Up there?”
“Yes.”
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We climb up the steel ladder, all the way to the top. The air must be cold
because I can see my breath, but I feel warm all the way through. We walk
past the Christmas tree and I spread out the blanket. We lie down and wrap
ourselves in and then I kiss her.
She is smiling as she pushes me away. “So tell me this story.” We lie back,
her head on my shoulder, and, as if I ordered them, the stars are clear and
bright. There are millions of them.
I say, “There was this famous British astronomer named Sir Patrick Moore.
He hosted a BBC television program called 
Sky
at Night
, which ran for
something like fifty-five years. Anyway, on April 1, 1976, Sir Patrick Moore
announced on his show that something extraordinary was getting ready to
happen in the skies. At exactly 9:47 a.m., Pluto would pass directly behind
Jupiter, in relation to the earth. This was a rare alignment that meant the
combined gravitational force of those two planets would exert a stronger tidal
pull, which would temporarily counteract gravity here on earth and make
people weigh less. He called this the Jovian-Plutonian gravitational effect.”
Violet is heavy against my arm, and for a minute I wonder if she’s asleep.
“Patrick Moore told viewers that they could experience the phenomenon by
jumping in the air at the exact moment the alignment occurred. If they did,
they would feel weightless, like they were floating.”
She shifts a little.
“At 9:47 a.m., he told everyone, ‘Jump now!’ Then he waited. One minute
passed, and the BBC switchboard lit up with hundreds of people calling in to
say they’d felt it. One woman phoned from Holland to say she and her
husband had swum around the room together. A man called from Italy to say
he and his friends had been seated at a table, and all of them—including the
table—rose into the air. Another man called from the States to say he and his
children had flown like kites in their backyard.”
Violet is propped up now, looking at me. “Did those things actually
happen?”
“Of course not. It was an April Fool’s joke.”
She smacks my arm and lies back down. “You had me believing.”
“But I bring it up to let you know that this is the way I feel right now. Like
Pluto and Jupiter are aligned with the earth and I’m floating.”
In a minute, she says, “You’re so weird, Finch. But that’s the nicest thing
anyone’s ever said to me.”
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