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supposed
to. 
I mean, it’s a dream, so not everything is clearly explained. Maybe I want them to tell 
me the way home, or maybe I have to 
get
something: that kind of thing. So I’m just 
sitting there, waiting for them to come home, but no matter how long I wait, nobody 
comes. The meal is still steaming. I look at the hot food and get tremendously hungry. 


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But just because I’m starved, I have no right to touch the food on the table without 
them there. It would be natural to think that, don’t you think?” 
“Sure, I’d probably think that,” Tengo said. “Of course, it’s a dream, so I can’t be 
sure what I would think.” 
“But soon the sun goes down. The cottage grows dark inside. The surrounding 
forest gets deeper and deeper. I want to turn the light on, but I don’t know how. I start 
to feel uneasy. Then at some point I realize something strange: the amount of steam 
rising from the food hasn’t decreased at all. Hours have gone by, but it’s still nice and 
hot. Then I start to think that something odd is going on. Something is wrong. That’s 
where the dream ends.” 
“You don’t know what happens after that?” 
“I’m sure something must happen after that,” she said. “The sun goes down, I 
don’t know how to go home, and I’m all alone in this weird cottage. Something is 
about
to happen—and I get the feeling it’s not very good. But the dream always ends 
there, and I keep having the same dream over and over.” 
She stopped caressing his testicles and pressed her cheek against his chest. “My 
dream might be suggesting something,” she said. 
“Like what?” 
She did not answer Tengo’s question. Instead, she asked her own question. “Would 
you like to know what the scariest part of the dream is?” 
“Yes, tell me.” 
She let out a long breath that grazed Tengo’s nipple like a hot wind blowing across 
a narrow channel. “It’s that 
I
might be the monster. The possibility struck me once. 
Wasn’t it because they had seen 
me
approaching that the people had abandoned their 
dinner and run out of the house? And as long as I stayed there, they couldn’t come 
back. In spite of that, I had to keep sitting in the cottage, waiting for them to come 
home. The thought of that is what scares me so much. It seems so hopeless, don’t you 
think?” 
“Or else,” Tengo said, “maybe it’s your own house, and your self ran away and 
you’re waiting for it to come back.” 
After the words left his mouth, Tengo realized he should not have spoken them. 
But it was too late to take them back. She remained silent for a long time, and then 
she squeezed his testicles hard—so hard he could barely breathe. 
“How could you say such a terrible thing?” 
“I didn’t mean anything by it,” Tengo managed to groan. “It just popped into my 
head.” 
She softened her grip on his testicles and released a sigh. Then she said, “Now tell 
me one of your dreams, Tengo.” 
Breathing normally again, he said, “Like I said before, I almost never dream. 
Especially these days.” 
“You must have 
some
dreams. Everybody in the world dreams to some extent. Dr. 
Freud’s gonna feel bad if you say you don’t dream at all.” 
“I may be dreaming, but I don’t remember my dreams after I wake up. I might 
have a lingering sensation that I was 
having
a dream, but I can never remember what 
it was about.” 


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She slipped her open palm under Tengo’s limp penis, carefully noting its weight, 
as if the weight had an important story to tell her. “Okay, never mind the dreams. Tell 
me about the novel you’re writing instead.” 
“I prefer not to talk about a piece of fiction while I’m writing it.” 
“Hey, I’m not asking you to tell me every last detail from beginning to end. Not 
even I would ask for that. I know you’re a much more sensitive young man than your 
build would suggest. Just tell me a little something—a part of the setting, or some 
minor episode, anything at all. I want you to tell me something that nobody else in the 
world knows—to make up for the terrible thing you said to me. Do you see what I’m 
saying?” 
“I think I might,” Tengo said uncertainly. 
“Okay, go!” 
With his penis still resting on the palm of her hand, Tengo began to speak. “The 
story is about me—or about somebody modeled on me.” 
“I’m sure it is,” she said. “Am I in it?” 
“No, you’re not. I’m in a world that isn’t here.” 
“So I’m not in the world that isn’t here.” 
“And not just you. The people who are in this world are not in the world that isn’t 
here.” 
“How is the world that isn’t here different from this world? Can you tell which 
world you’re in now?” 
“Of course I can. I’m the one who’s writing it.” 
“What I mean is, for people 
other
than you. Say, if I just happened to wander into 
that world now, could I tell?” 
“I think you could,” Tengo said. “For example, in the world that isn’t here, there 
are two moons. So you can tell the difference.” 
The setting of a world with two moons in the sky was something he had taken from 

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