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are
afraid of?” 
“Of course there is,” Aomame said. “The thing I’m most afraid of is 
me
. Of not 
knowing what I’m going to do. Of not knowing what I’m doing right now.” 
“What 
are
you doing right now?” 
Aomame stared at the wineglass in her hand for a time. “I wish I knew.” She 
looked up. “But I don’t. I can’t even be sure what world I’m in now, what year I’m 
in.” 
“It’s 1984. We’re in Tokyo, in Japan.” 
“I wish I could declare that with such certainty.” 
“You’re strange,” Ayumi said with a smile. “They’re just self-evident truths. 
‘Declaring’ and ‘certainty’ are beside the point.” 
“I can’t explain it very well, but I can’t say they’re self-evident truths to me.” 
“You can’t?” Ayumi said as if deeply impressed. “I’m not quite sure what you’re 
talking about, but I will say this: whatever time and place this might be, you do have 
one person you love deeply, and that’s something I can only envy. I don’t have 
anybody like that.” 
Aomame set her wineglass down on the table and dabbed at her mouth with her 
napkin. Then she said, “You may be right. Whatever time and place this might be, 
totally unrelated to that, I want to see him. I want to see him so badly I could die. 
That’s the only thing that seems certain. It’s the only thing I can say with confidence.” 
“Want me to have a look at the police materials? If you give me the basic 
information, we might be able to find out where he is and what he’s doing.” 
Aomame shook her head. “Please 
don’t
look for him. I think I told you before, I’ll 
run into him sometime, somewhere, strictly by chance. I’ll just keep patiently waiting 
for that time to come.” 
“Like a big, romantic TV series,” Ayumi said, impressed. “I love stuff like that. I 
get chills just thinking about it.” 
“It’s tough on the one who’s actually doing it, though.” 


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“I know what you mean,” Ayumi said, lightly pressing her fingers against her 
temples. “But still, even though you’re that much in love with him, you feel like 
sleeping with strange men every once in a while.” 
Aomame clicked her fingernails against the rim of the thin wineglass. “I 
need
to do 
it. To keep myself in balance as a flesh-and-blood human being.” 
“And it doesn’t destroy the love you have inside you.” 
Aomame said, “It’s like the Tibetan Wheel of the Passions. As the wheel turns, the 
values and feelings on the outer rim rise and fall, shining or sinking into darkness. But 
true love stays fastened to the axle and doesn’t move.” 
“Marvelous,” Ayumi said. “The Tibetan Wheel of the Passions, huh?” 
And she drank down the wine remaining in her glass. 
Two days later, a little after eight o’clock at night, a call came from Tamaru. As 
always, he skipped the preliminary greetings and went straight to business. 
“Are you free tomorrow afternoon?” 
“I don’t have a thing in the afternoon. I can come over whenever you need me.” 
“How about four thirty?” 
Aomame said that would be fine. 
“Good,” Tamaru said. She could hear his ballpoint pen scratching the time into his 
calendar. He was pressing down hard. 
“How is Tsubasa doing?” Aomame asked. 
“She’s doing well, I think. Madame is going there every day to look after her. The 
girl seems to be growing fond of her.” 
“That’s good news.” 
“Yes, it 
is
good news, but something else happened that is not so good.” 
“Something not so good?” Aomame knew that when Tamaru said something was 
“not so good,” it had to be terrible. 
“The dog died,” Tamaru said. 
“The dog? You mean Bun?” 
“Yes, the funny German shepherd that liked spinach. She died last night.” 
Aomame was shocked to hear this. The dog was maybe five or six years old, not an 
age for dying. “She was perfectly healthy the last time I saw her.” 
“She didn’t die from illness,” Tamaru said, his voice flat. “I found her this morning 
in pieces.” 
“In pieces?!” 
“As if she had exploded. Her guts were splattered all over the place. It was pretty 
intense. I had to go around picking up chunks of flesh with paper towels. The force of 
the blast turned her body inside out. It was as if somebody had set off a small but 
powerful bomb inside her stomach.” 
“The poor dog!” 
“Oh, well, there’s nothing to be done about the dog,” Tamaru said. “She’s dead 
and won’t be coming back. I can find another guard dog to take her place. What 
worries me, though, is 
what happened
. It wasn’t something that any ordinary person 
could do—setting off a bomb inside a dog like that. For one thing, that dog barked 
like crazy whenever a stranger approached. This was not an easy thing to carry off.” 


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“That’s for sure,” Aomame said in a dry tone of voice. 
“The women in the safe house are scared to death. The one in charge of feeding the 
dog found her like that this morning. First she puked her guts out and then she called 
me. I asked if anything suspicious happened during the night. Not a thing, she said. 
Nobody heard an explosion. If there had been such a big sound, everybody would 
have woken up for sure. These women live in fear even in the best of times. It must 
have been a soundless explosion. And nobody heard the dog bark. It was an especially 
quiet night, but when morning came, there was the dog, inside out. Fresh organs had 
been blown all over, and the neighborhood crows were having a great time. For me, 
though, it was nothing but worries.” 
“Something weird is happening.” 
“That’s for sure,” Tamaru said. “Something weird is happening. And if what I’m 
feeling is right, this is just the beginning of something.” 
“Did you call the police?” 
“Hell, no,” Tamaru said, with a contemptuous little snort. “The police are 
useless—looking in the wrong place for the wrong thing. They’d just complicate 
matters.” 
“What does Madame say?” 
“Nothing. She just nodded when I gave her my report,” Tamaru said. “All security 
measures are my responsibility, from beginning to end. It’s 
my
job.” 
A short silence followed, a heavy silence having to do with responsibility. 
“Tomorrow at four thirty,” Aomame said. 
“Tomorrow at four thirty,” Tamaru repeated, and quietly hung up. 


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